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We Are Interconnected
Hi, I’m Bunny Luna (they/them), a queer agender ecosexual witch whose work honors the interconnectedness of creativity, exploration, self-discovery, + healing. My nude self-portraits + 35mm film double exposures have been shown in galleries across the country + published internationally. I have facilitated creative healing community events since 2016 both in-person + online with the intention to elevate + support the community through honoring the sacred uniqueness of life + enabling experiences of love + openhearted connection with people of diverse backgrounds.
We Are Interconnected tells the visual story of our interdependence with nature. Double exposures blur the line between self + other, opening us up to the magic of the unknown while cocreating with the universe. Nudity shows us that there is strength in vulnerability, sharing who we are because we have nothing to hide. Removing layers of expectations and assumptions, we remember we are unique parts of a whole. We are each other. We Are Interconnected.
Much appreciation to Chalice Bartsch of Unorthodox Studios, Nine Eighteen Nine Studio Gallery, + The VAPA Center for making this pop up exhibition possible!!!
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Collaborators (in order of appearance on this page):
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How Self Portraiture Connects Me to Myself
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CAPTION FOR THE VIDEO ABOVE:
Hi friends! Welcome to another week of me making a vlog. Today I want to talk about how self-portraiture connects me to myself.
I first started taking self-portraits in…. I actually don’t know what year because it’s been a very long time. I started seriously taking self-portraits, like for specific art purposes in maybe 2010? but I was definitely taking self-portraits way before that, maybe since I was like 14 or 15, but I didn’t start taking nude ones until I was 18 and older for obvious reasons.
I learned quickly that self-portraiture helps me feel more into my body and feel more connected to my emotions and myself, and part of that is because I feel like I’m more able to release all of everything else like societal bullshit and just be myself when I’m in front of a camera and it’s just me that’s taking the photos.
It’s very different when I’m posing for someone else taking photos, because I feel more like, “oh, I need to take pictures that they will be happy with” but when it’s self portraits, I can do whatever I want because it’s me taking the photos. So it’s whatever I’m feeling and if I like them, I can share them. But if I don’t have to, and there’s no pressure of like, “oh I have this expectation from someone else”.
So because I don’t have the limitations of someone else’s ideas of what they would like in these photos, I’m able to really connect with “Okay, how am I feeling today, in this moment? And how would I like to portray that in these images?” And sometimes I just take photos, and I never share them. And it’s just so that I can get emotions out, because sometimes I feel like it’s hard for me to just, like, sit in my emotions if I don’t have something that I’m doing to allow me to move through them, if that makes sense.
I think it’s kind of hard to just be like, “Oh, I’m having feelings and this is it. Like I’m just experiencing them in my body” because I kind of tend to want to like do something else instead and push away the emotions but when I have the container of a photoshoot with myself, then I’m able to really like focus and be like, “okay, the whole purpose of this moment is for me to connect with myself and my emotions and my body, and how I’m feeling and move through those emotions in a way that allows me to express them in my body and that shows in the images”. And for me, usually the most powerful images that I’ve taken have been self-portraits where I’ve allowed myself to FEEL.
So yeah, that’s the cliff notes of how self-portraiture connects me to myself. I’m also able to kind of experiment with who I am and who I want to be, and if I want to pretend to be someone else, and express different parts of myself, because I feel like there aren’t a lot of chances for us to explore different facets of our personalities and our thoughts and desires. There’s not a lot of context for that most times, but if I’m taking self-portraits, it can be whatever I want it to be and I can be an evil villain or I can be an innocent child, or I can be totally myself or someone else. I can be anything and it doesn’t really matter because they’re photos that I’m taking for myself. So I feel way less pressure to create something specific and I can just, I can be all of those selves in one photo shoot if I want and I think that’s very special.
So I hope you are inspired to take self portraits. I would love for you to do that. I would love to see what you create! I have a Discord server, I’ll link below, but if you’d like to take self-portraits and share them with people that appreciate art and nudity and self-portraiture, you can share them on my Discord, it’s free! You can join for free. Just come on and join us! Yeah, I’d love to see what you create.
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If you would like to create self portraits in a group setting, where you are off doing your own thing, but then you can come back and communicate and collaborate with others or do a group self-portrait. We will be doing Conscious Creativity, August 27th and 28th in Ypsilanti, Michigan with Lior Allay and Roarie Yum. I’m so excited! This is gonna be our first in-person workshop since the pandemic started, so that’s quite an opportunity. I would love for you to join us if you’re able. I’ll share the Eventbrite information below. It has all the details of all the information you’ll need to know. But if there’s anything that you’re wondering about and the information is not the Eventbrite, just shoot me an email or comment below and I will do my best to get back to you and give you the information that you need. Yeah. I’m going to link the Eventbrite below. I’d love for you to join us.
All the information about Conscious Creativity is at this link!
Let’s take self portraits together! August 27th and 28th, it’s 2days, they’re both half days. And yeah, I’m super stoked for this event. I’m very excited! So, if you’d like to join us, information’s below and I will talk to you soon. I love you! Bye!
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Conscious Creativity 2022!
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CAPTION FOR THE VIDEO ABOVE:
Hello friends, I’m here today to talk about Conscious Creativity.
This is an event that I have put on since 2019 with Lior Allay, and this year in 2022, Roarie Yum will be joining us. So obviously in 2020 and 2021, they were online, but we’re able to go back in person this year and we’re so excited. The first in-person event was in 2019, and then, you know, the pandemic happened, so then we had to move online, but it’s in Michigan outside of Detroit. I think the closest town is Ypsilanti, Michigan. It’s near Ypsilanti Ann Arbor area is where the actual physical location that we’ll be at is.
Join us for Conscious Creativity!
So, Conscious Creativity. It’s morphed and changed a little bit over the years, but the main focus of it is usually self portraiture and that’s what we’re going to focus on primarily for this year. It is going to be September 27 and 28 (edit: ITS ACTUALLY AUGUST! Silly me, keeping dates in my head is hard! Haha from now on all captioned dates will be the CORRECT DATES to avoid any confusion). It’s going to be two, both of those days, you can come one or both days. It will be at a permaculture farm called Crossing Hedgerows Sanctuary. That’s where we had the first one in 2019 in person and it was amazing. It’s a beautiful space. They have a lot of land and we’re able to be as naked as we want, which is super wonderful. So, the event is going to be two days and it’s a half day each day. We will be providing food and we will be providing a lot of education and resources and information and a wonderful experience for y’all.
We don’t provide lodging and food before and after and that kind of thing, but while you’re there, we have food, we will be doing self portraiture, we’ll be doing set building, we’ll be doing group self-portraiture if you’re interested in doing that. Everything will be more like Choose Your Own Adventure. So you can participate in whichever parts seem interesting and exciting to you and nothing is mandatory. Just as long as you’re doing what feels best for you, that’s what we want to happen.
Join us for Conscious Creativity!
So it’ll be, one of the days is in the morning and one of the days is in the evening. The evening day we’ll probably do a little bonfire at the end, if the weather cooperates. This event will be rain or shine! So, if it does rain, we do have some canopies that we’ll be able to be under so we’re not gonna be getting rained on the whole time. But if you want to be rained on, that’s okay too. If it rains. I just assumed maybe our photography equipment, like cameras and stuff will not want to be rained on but we’re hoping that it’ll be sunny. This far out we have no idea what the weather’s going to be. But I’m hoping it will be not raining so that we can run around the whole place and have no limits of where we can be.
There will be I believe a composting toilet. So we’re not going to be inside of a building. We’re going to be outside the whole time and there will be bathroom facilities, but they will not be super fancy. That’s part of the magic of being outside is having that experience of being closer to Nature.
Join us for Conscious Creativity!
I’m super excited for this opportunity to spend time with y’all and create with yall and make self-portraits together and separately. Whatever y’all are feeling. Let’s see, what else can I say about this. We’ll have a lot of resources and take home materials to give to yall. Most of them will be digital so you can just get an email with all of the things but we have a lot of PDFs and things that we would love to share with you like tips and tricks and meditations and things like that, so I’m extra excited.
I hope that you join us for both days because we have created this experience to kind of like flow between both days. So the first day is we’re getting to know each other. We have a Welcome Circle. We all introduce ourselves, get to know each other, we’ll give tips and tricks on self portraiture and then we’ll kind of let everyone go and do their own self-portraiture adventure things and we’ll be available, the three of us, me, Lior, and Roarie, will be available for questions and feedback and that kind of thing because it’s a group workshop adventure we are not going to be available for one-on-one in-depth instruction since it’s a group experience. It will be more of like, we’re all going to come together as a group and ask questions and do things together and then we’ll kind of split off and do our own thing, but if you need some help you can wave us over, that kind of thing.
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Then the second day we’ll be doing set building and more self portraiture in the set if you want to be in this created space. You also have all of the nature available as well. And then at the very end of the second day, we’ll do a group self-portrait. If you’re interested in participating in that. That is always my favorite part! The group self-portraits! Just because it’s a really, like, connecting experience and it’s really wonderful to collaborate with multiple people at one time and it’s always just super fun and I love it.
So I hope you will join us for Conscious Creativity 2022, August 27th and 28th. It’s on a weekend, so Saturday and Sunday in Ypsilanti, Michigan. I’ll have the Eventbrite link to share very soon. I’ll put it in the link below. We do have early bird pricing and I believe that’s going to be through the end of July. And then after, so August 1st and on will be the general admission prices. So if you would like a cheaper ticket, make sure to get it early for the early bird so that way you don’t have to pay as much. And that way we also have a better count of who’s going to be there so we know how much food to have. It’ll be a taco / salad bar. So there will be options for meat eaters, vegans and gluten-free options, so it should be able to cover most people’s dietary needs.
Join us for Conscious Creativity!
Yeah, I’m just, I’m super excited. I don’t know if you can tell. I haven’t had a group in person experience like this since 2019, because of the pandemic and I’m just really excited to be here with all of y’all. And yay! I’m so excited! So, yeah, I hope you join us, all the information, I’ll link below and I will talk to you in another video very soon. Bye!
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EARLY BIRD PRICING THROUGH THE END OF THE MONTH!
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Tattoo Project with Doug Pierce!
Doug Pierce and I got together via zoom recently so that he could interview me about my tattoos! We had a great conversation and got into a lot of the nuances about my most recent tattoo project, so if you’re curious we have a bunch of videos for you to watch! I also took self portraits to document where I am with my tattoo so far so I’ve shared some of those below! Click through to the galleries to see all of the images. The interview was about an hour long and I’ve separated it into 14 shorter clips. It would be too many to embed in this blog post, so I’m gonna link to them instead! CLICK HERE TO WATCH ALL THE INTERVIEW CLIPS
Or if you’re looking for answers to certain questions (individual clips):
– Info about my original back piece tattoo
– How Doug’s use of tattoos (si’gilyn) in his stories impacts how I feel about tattoos
– What was the first tattoo I received and how did I know I wanted it?
– Are most tattoos painful?
– Is there something about the pain that enhances the experience? How do I manage the pain?
– Is getting tattooed a spiritual experience for me?
– What’s the general inspiration for this massive tattoo project?
– Were my ecosexual and/or agender identities a factor in the overall design of this tattoo?
– How does this tattoo incorporate or cover up prior tattoos and why?
– Why is the Poplar Tree in particular so important to me?
– Who are the individual creatures in the tattoo and what is their significance?
– What have I learned about myself in going through this process so far?
– What’s my tattoo healing process?
– Closing information + shout out to my tattoo artistClick here to view the 20 image digital self portrait set
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New Self Portrait Set Experimenting with LEDs!
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CAPTION FOR THE VIDEO ABOVE:
Hey friends! Today I actually have a photoshoot to share with you! I haven’t taken any self-portraits I think since the summer of last year. So summer of 2021, I think was the last time I took self-portraits, like, with my actual camera, on purpose that’s more than just like a whim of like, let me take a couple selfies with my cell phone. I’m not really counting those for what I’m talking about. Sorry. I’m itching, my tattoo. Well, the saniderm that’s on it right now.
Okay, so have a photo shoot to share with you. I’m pretty excited it was the first time I played with these new lights that I got. They’re super fancy. They’re actually not but I think they’re fancy and I’m very excited about them. So I’ll tell you about the photoshoot that I did. I was feeling spicy and It was like 11:30 at night. So it was dark. Right now I’m using sunlight because my room is like, mostly windows. So it was much darker than this. It was dark outside. Because it was night time, like 11:30 at night and I have these new lights that I wanted to experiment with. So I was like, I feel like taking self portraits so why not use my new fancy lights?
So I took these photos just a couple days ago, but I think I’ve actually going to share this video in a couple weeks. So by the time you see this I took them a couple weeks ago, but here we are. I’m really excited. I had fun taking them. I’m trying to think if there’s any other, like, backstory information I should tell you. I took them right here, as you will see, very soon, but I was just like on my bed for these. I redid my photo wall so there’s more space. I don’t have to worry about accidentally knocking one, because this one was lower before and I was always like accidentally touching it and like, making it like off balance. So I don’t have to worry about that as much now because I redid my photo wall. It’s nice and curved like this. I really like it.
So I took the photos here and when I did, it was dark outside and I just used these two tiny LED lights. They’re tiny, aren’t they? They’re so cute. So these are called Litratorches. These are two different like generations of them. I think this one’s the newer one, but they’re super cool. I got them at a discounted price because they were used, at my favorite camera store, Biggs Camera in Charlotte. They’ve been locally owned since… it’s been over 60 years now, 60 or 65 years. I love them. I help out, like I used to work there full-time and I just kind of go in to help occasionally.
But back to the story of these photos, before I get too distracted. These Litratorches are really cool. They’re LED they’re super bright. They have a little button on the top to turn them on. This one has a little like silicone protector case thing on it. I don’t know if you can see but yeah, so there’s a little button on top turn it on, that’s the only button on it. On the back of it there’s a place for you can turn like I think it’s a quarter twenty tripod screw on the back of both of them.
And then they have a magnet inside of them, so there’s something metal you can just like, like stick it onto a metal thing and it’ll stay there because it’s magnetic. I don’t have anything metal here to show you, but it works. That’s pretty cool. They’re really bright. They actually have two quarter twenty threads. So there’s one on the back and one on the bottom. So there’s two of them depending on how you want to mount it and what kind of like tripod or thing that you have to mount them on. If you want to mount them, I was lazy. I just have to. I just laid them on the bed, so you can’t see it in the screen right now, but I had one laid down on the bed over here and the other laid down on the bed over here. And one cool thing that I really like about these is you can get little tiny gels to go with them. So there are these things that come with it. It’s just like a little plastic Square. I love this tiny case. Look how tiny and cute! So tiny, so these are the gels. Some of them are not ones that originally came with it. Since this was used somebody had these other ones that are like really thin and not actually the ones that are supposed to be with it. But I kind of like the color of them because they’re like a really warm kind of orangey color and you can stack them to make them darker, but I can tell that they’re not the best material because some of them are a little melty from being like somebody using them on the Litratorch for too long, but these are the thicker ones. They’re like green, yellow, blue and red. I used a red one. And I think I used one of these like orangey ones for my colors. So it’s really easy. You have this little square thing and the light. And you put this in the little square and then you put this in front of the light, snap it on. Oh it’s not fitting hold on. And then you have a colored light, so I’m gonna turn it on. I’m gonna not point it at you.
That’s the lowest setting and it has a color filter on the front. So they’re pretty bright. I’m gonna make it brighter, brighter. And then as a flashing one, but I’m not going to do that in case somebody has a problem with flashing but you press and hold to turn it off and that’s it. It’s super easy. And super awesome. And you can put different colors on them and they’re really great and I love them. And I’m really excited and they’re really tiny so they’re easy to travel with, and you just like charge it with little like a little, like tiny USB cord kind of thing and it’s super great. I love them and I’m excited. They also like, if you can buy them with a little, a little diffuser to put on it, to diffuse the light if you wanted to like to make it real soft. I just I’m happy. This is a really good buy in my opinion.
So this is the first time I was experimenting with these little lights and since I didn’t have them on like a tripod or anything and I just put them on the bed with me. The light was coming from below and pointing up towards me because I was like here and the lights were here and here, and in some of the images that looked cool. And in other images, I wish the light was higher up like this height like maybe my face height or maybe like chest height and I think the lighting would have been better if they were a little bit higher, but it was like midnight and I don’t want to figure out how to get a bunch of tripods and stuff over here to put the lights in a better place and I still really like the way the photos turned out. So, I think it was, I think it turned out really great. Even if I wasn’t 100% happy with the light for the whole set, I still think they look really cool. And I had fun making them. So that’s all that really matters. Right? I hope you like the photos. I hope you enjoy my little behind the scenes of what I did to make them. If you liked those that might do something like this again because this was kinda fun.
I used to take behind the scenes video of my shoots and maybe I’m thinking, I might take some behind the scenes video next time because I kind of miss having that, and that’s a kind of nice thing to have to be able to look back at and actually watch a photoshoot happen. Yeah, that’s kind of fun. So I’m gonna try to remember to do that next time. It’s not always easy because I’ll need like my phone and my camera to do it. If I’m going to take photos and video same time.
Yeah, I hope you like these photos. I had fun making them. I felt spicy, can you tell? I was listening to good music too, and that helped me like get into the groove. So also I’m really proud of myself. I usually don’t even look at my photos for like a month after I take them. And then it takes me even longer to actually put them on SmugMug for y’all to see them. But in this case, I looked at them and uploaded them within like a week of taking them so I’m pretty proud of myself that I’m actually like staying ahead of the curve so don’t get behind. Yeah. I hope you like these photos and enjoy my little behind the scenes how I made them. I hope you have a wonderful day and I’ll see you soon! Bye!
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2021 Recap!
I enjoy looking back + seeing all the progress I’ve made over the year. It helps me realize that I did in fact actually do things + work toward my goals.
Sometimes my brain likes to tell me that I’ve done NOTHING + gotten NOTHING accomplished, that I’ve wasted the whole year.
Does your brain do that to you too?
Maybe looking back through your year to see all that you’ve done will benefit you too!
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- Took lots of walks at parks
- Hiked in the mountains as much as possible
- Helped my sister Gemini move
- Reconnected with AD
- Went to a wedding
- Made new friends
- Cried a lot
- Had some of the most painful menstrual cramps of my life
- Visited/traveled to:
- Durham/Raleigh NC
- NC mountains
- DC
- PA
- Cleveland OH
- Microdosed mushrooms a few times
- Took a voice lesson
- Saw the Van Gogh immersive exhibit
- Learned about my ancestry
- Got tested for STIs
- Learned about my HSV1+ status
- Helped out at the local camera store
- Went to the mountains with my dads side of the family
- Got vaccinated
- Finalized my name change!!! I am SO excited about this!
- Tattoo appointment almost every month (finished outlining + started color… vlog post about all this coming soon!)
- Went camping with a friend
- Journaled every day
- Did energy practices almost every day
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- Redid/updated my website
- Created a welcome automation for my newsletter
- Taught Self Portraits for Self Discovery + Connection workshop for The Light Factory
- Created Self Portraiture for Self Discovery + Connection ebook + Inspiration + Planning workbook
- Created + shared Queer Nature slideshow
- Applied for a residency + didn’t get it (practice failing to get closer to accomplishing!)
- Facilitated peer support sessions
- Quit social media!!! Thank you Leonie Dawson for helping me feel like this was even possible!
- Filmed for Nudism.TV (with my family!) for 4 days
- Worked on meditations with Jenna + Lior
- Photoshoots:
- Facilitated virtual nude gatherings: March, April, May, June, July, August, September, October (total of 8 gatherings)
- Facilitated a first look at self portraits members only event
I was only able to accomplish these things because of the support from members of my website, thank you so much!
- Became an LLC
- Got a business bank account
- GBTL events: Jan, Feb x2, March x2, April x2, May x3, June x2, July, August, September (total of 15 events!!!)
- GBTL met up in person to create + facilitate backstage pass
- Many many meetings + video chats + text messages behind the scenes
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- Explore More Summit 2020
- Sales Star with Leonie Dawson
- Marketing Without Social Media with Leonie Dawson
- Black Friday Training with Elizabeth Goddard
- Intersex Period Pandel Discussion with Crystal Hendricks, Mari Wrobi, Nick Manchester, Yezenia León Mezu, + Sean Saifa Wall
- Identity + Representation Panel Discussion with Roarie Yum, Jade Wilson, Paige Wilson, Deitric Robsinon-Miller, Kiah Glenn, + John Robinson-Miller IV
- Breathwork For Aliveness with Jennifer Patterson
- Emotion Mapping with Dawn Serra
- Boundaries Class with Luna Dietrich
- Live Your F*ck Yes Life Summit (non monogamy + polyamory) with Amanda Katherine Loy, Chad Spangler/polyamfam, Leanne Yau/polyphiliablog, Ebony/Marjani Lane, + Jess Levity/remodeledlove
- Women Race + Class by Angela Davis
- The Language of Emotions by Karla McLaren
- We Will Not Cancel Us by adrienne maree brown
- Thief of Time by Terry Pratchett
- My Grandmothers Hands by Resmaa Menakem
- I Hope We Choose Love by Kai Cheng Thom
- Evolution’s Rainbow by Joan Roughgarden
- Rebloom by Rachael Maddox
- Seven Thousand Ways to Listen by Mark Nepo
- Written on the Body by Jeanette Winterson
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Holding Space for Difficult Emotions with Self Portraiture
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CAPTION FOR THE VIDEO ABOVE:
Good morning! Well, it might not be morning for you, but it’s morning for me, so I’m saying good morning. Today I wanted to just say hi and thank you for being here and I’m kind of struggling to figure out what I want to say. I think it’s because I put a lot of pressure on myself to do things in a way that makes sense, and I don’t always make sense, so the things I do don’t always make sense, and it’s okay. I’m a human. I don’t want to repeat myself on here, but I do also want to share cool things with you.
So, I thought that I would just share a little bit of information… I think I already did. But about these photos that I’m about to share with you, that are down below. I already said some of it when I was talking about self portraits, was it last month, maybe October? Recently, I was talking about self portraits and on November, I think it was the 18th. I did a kind of like a co-working session, sort of like a, it was a sneak-peek preview of the self portraits that I had taken that I haven’t shared anywhere yet, which are these photos that are about to be shared with y’all!! Thank you. For those of you who came and joined me on Zoom live to go through the photos. That was really fun. I’ll probably do that again.
So, the backstory for these photos, if you missed the blog previously, whatever that was. I don’t have dates in my brain.
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If you missed the vlog these photos, I took, I believe it was in May of 2020…. 2021? No, 2021 for sure it was this year? Maybe this year? I’m pretty sure. It was in May, I think it was this year. I took them in my sister’s house, she had just sold her house. So I think that was this year. She had just sold her house and we had already like moved everything out of the house so it was empty.
I used to live with her in that house for maybe a year and a half or two years and I had some pretty tough times when I was living there… for several reasons. Gemini is awesome, she’s a great sister. I love like, she’s easy to live with honestly. But yeah, like so the tough times didn’t necessarily have to do with her, it was just like circumstances. I had some tough times when I was living in the house, and since it was empty and I was there by myself, I took self-portraits.
I had a lot of feelings. A lot of feelings!!! and I just allowed myself to feel the feelings, because feelings are not always easy to feel. And sometimes I need like, to hold that space for myself. And sometimes the easiest way to do that is with photos, by taking self portraits and whether or not I ever share them with anyone. Like, it doesn’t matter as much, because to me what matters is the way that I feel and like allowing myself to have those feelings and like holding space for that.
Usually I’m able to like kind of focus and get in that zone when I’m taking self portraits, so I did that. I released a lot of the feelings, like, frustrations and sadness and upsets that I experienced in the house, in that house while I was taking the self-portraits before I could no longer go in the house. Like it’s already sold to someone. So that was actually the last time I was ever in that house. And as you can see in the photos, I was quite emotional.
And then after I like cried and released all my feelings, I just like danced around and got sweaty and was silly. And that also felt really good. Like it’s nice to kind of swing from one thing to another sometimes instead of like “oh I have to be really sad this whole day and let my feelings take over me for the entire day and focus on those.”
I don’t have to do that. I enjoy like, “okay, let me feel it to my feelings and like release them and see how long that feels. And then after that, if I feel up to it, the maybe I’ll do something else that feels better. That can bring me back to my more normal okay self.” So I cried, was really upset and let myself feel all that and like, hold space for that. And then after that, I was like, all right, let’s put some music on and then I danced and felt more and was able to have a range of emotions in the house.
So, yeah, that’s that’s the story behind these photos. The ones where really emotional and like crying and stuff are in what used to be my bedroom. Empty, of course, and I actually I took a bunch that were really like dark and moody and then I also took some that were lighter and I really actually like the dark ones the best. I haven’t fully decided if I’m going to edit these photos yet, so whether or not I edit them, you’ll see whatever I did. Because I haven’t decided, I’m probably going to decide about editing before I share this. And I haven’t decided yet as of making this video, so we’ll see. They’re all digital. I usually don’t edit film but sometimes I do edit video er digital because film just looks better and doesn’t need an edit. The digital like looks like digital and usually need a little bit of more like punchiness. So yeah, I haven’t decided about editing yet. We’ll see.
These are the photos… after I took the photos in the bedroom, I moved to the living room, which is the purple room that you see. Gemini’s house is so colorful, I loved it. Her living room was purple, and her kitchen was like bright green color, and the bathroom was like, teal kind of turquoise-y kinda blue. Yeah, she had a really colorful house and I loved it. I don’t know if the people who bought it kept the colors or not, but I thought it was fun to live in a very colorful house.
So yeah, that’s the story behind these photos, I hope you like them. I do have some more photos to go through that I have taken in the last year that I haven’t done anything with yet. So I might do another one of those like let’s look at them together live things. Yeah, so keep an eye out for that. I’ll probably do that again. Just not sure when I don’t have any dates yet, but I’ll of course let you know when that’s going to happen.
Yeah that’s all I have to say. Thank you! I love you so much! I appreciate so much that you’re here. I’m going to put my survey below. If you haven’t answered my survey, please, I would love to hear your feedback on what kind of content you would like to receive from me, because I want to make things that you’re interested in and that will benefit you.
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TODAY! Member’s only webinar: first look at self portraits!
TODAY!!!! JUST FOR MEMBERS!
I have a ton of self portraits that have been sitting in my hard drive that I’ve been too overwhelmed to go through because there’s so many. I thought we could hang out together + you could help me choose the best ones to upload to smugmug, so here’s the information!
Thursday Nov 18, 2021 06:00 PM Eastern Time (US and Canada)
Webinar style, so it’ll be me screen sharing the photos + y’all can use the chat to let me know your thoughts!
I have several photosets to go through so we’ll start with one + see how far we can get in an hour.
Passcode: 534771
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TOMORROW! Member’s only webinar: first look at self portraits!
COMING UP TOMORROW, JUST FOR MEMBERS!
I have a ton of self portraits that have been sitting in my hard drive that I’ve been too overwhelmed to go through because there’s so many. I thought we could hang out together + you could help me choose the best ones to upload to smugmug, so here’s the information!
Thursday Nov 18, 2021 06:00 PM Eastern Time (US and Canada)
Webinar style, so it’ll be me screen sharing the photos + y’all can use the chat to let me know your thoughts!
I have several photosets to go through so we’ll start with one + see how far we can get in an hour.
Passcode: 534771
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NEXT WEEK! Member’s only webinar: first look at self portraits!
COMING UP NEXT WEEK, JUST FOR MEMBERS!
I posted a vlog recently about why self portraits are important to me + are a big part of my art.
This is the members only event I spoke about in that vlog!I have a ton of self portraits that have been sitting in my hard drive that I’ve been too overwhelmed to go through because there’s so many. I thought we could hang out together + you could help me choose the best ones to upload to smugmug, so here’s the information!
Thursday Nov 18, 2021 06:00 PM Eastern Time (US and Canada)
Webinar style, so it’ll be me screen sharing the photos + y’all can use the chat to let me know your thoughts!
I have several photosets to go through so we’ll start with one + see how far we can get in an hour.
Passcode: 534771