• FREE ARCHIVED BLOG & PHOTOSET

    I originally wrote this for Patreon on May 20th 2017. I no longer use Patreon and have replaced it with my website (here) but thought I would share some of my old blogs with you for FREE to show my appreciation for you visiting my website! <3

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    Celebrating 1 year since I got wrist drop! Well, technically the official 1 year is May 22nd but… close enough. =] If you’ve been a member for a while you probably remember this time last year when I got wrist drop from too much time and pressure on my radial nerve during a shibari suspension. I didn’t have the use of my (dominant) right hand for about 3 months and wasn’t able to go to aerial silks class for 7-8 months. Watch the video in the archives to see how bad it was… it was pretty bad. I couldn’t lift my hand from my wrist or do a “thumbs up,” it was just constantly limp.

    Honestly, I’m really thankful that it happened. It taught me a lot about myself & made me appreciate what I have. I learned that I really need physical activity in my life & that I can really lean on Antisocialdisposition. I already knew that he will do just about anything for me but for the first week or two he helped me do things that you really take for granted when you have two hands to do it with and suddenly you only have 1: wash my hair, get dressed, open jars, carry lots of things, etc. I became more ambidextrous because of this and I even became more confident in myself over time because I learned that I could still do pretty much everything for myself with just my left hand. I did definitely have several days after it happened that I freaked out about it because I wasn’t seeing ANY improvement and I was so scared that it would never get better. It did, very slowly, but it did start to get better. As soon as possible I started doing yoga at home (only simple stuff I knew wouldn’t aggravate the injury). I honestly think it would have taken much longer to heal if I wasn’t staying active, exercising it as much as possible, saying positive affirmations, and visualizing it getting and being better. I am SO SO thankful that it got better. I am also thankful that it happened. It was a challenge and a lesson. It happened for a reason: for me to learn to appreciate what I have and to learn how important being active is to me because I really didn’t know that before. It strengthened me and it strengthened my relationship with AD.

    What is something “bad” that’s happened to you that you now realize was actually beneficial in the long run?

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    To celebrate being able to do silks again, check out the 2 new silks videos I added! In one of them I somersault in the air to a single ankle hang, I mean how badass does that description sound?! It’s really fun. The other video is a crazy difficult core strengthening exercise: spinal roll down from straddle. You’re supposed to take as long as possible on the way down which is what makes it difficult and REALLY works your core.

    All members have access to this complete 59 image self portrait photoset by clicking here and the aerial silks videos by clicking here.

  • Maya Tihtiyas

    Video members now have access to:

    • vlog with the story behind these photosets with Maya Tihtiyas
    • 12 image complete photoset of me taken by Maya
    • 8 image complete double exposure photoset I took of Maya
    • 8 minute video of me getting into my body
    • 16.5 minute video of me lounging nude in the sun

    First Look members now have access to:

    • everything above
    • 34 image complete self portrait photoset on a desert rock in Utah from my cross country road trip last summer
    • 37 image complete self portrait photoset of formations at dusk in Utah from my cross country road trip last summer
    • 4 minutes of BTS video

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  • Doubles with Ravyn Alexa & Ambivalent Ann

    Video members now have access to:

    • vlog with the story behind these double exposure photosets & what’s going on with me this week
    • 17 image complete photoset of Ravyn Alexa
    • 6 image complete photoset of Ambivalent Ann
    • 3.5 minutes of BTS video with Ravyn Alexa
    • 3 minutes of BTS video with Ambivalent Ann

    First Look members now have access to:

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  • Portraitmami

    Daily Photo Blog members now have access to:

    • blog post with the story behind this photoset I took of Portraitmami
    • 5 image mini set

    Photo members now have access to:

    • everything above
    • 26 image complete photoset

    Video members now have access to:

    • everything above
    • 2 minute video of me practicing handstands and cartwheels naked
    • 2 videos of me nude at Colorado National Monument (4.5 mins total)
    • a mini video tour of my van during my road trip!

    First Look members now have access to:

    • everything above
    • 15 image photoset of me taken by Drake Avenue
    • 5 BTS videos
    • a video of me walking nude down an abandoned road somewhere outside of Lake Tahoe California during my road trip
    • 2 videos of me getting into my body for energy & emotion release

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  • Archives with Stevie Macaroni

    Daily Photo Blog members now have access to:

    • blog post with the story behind this massive archives photoset taken by Stevie Macaroni (the image above features Melissa Troutt!)
    • 7 image mini set

    Photo members now have access to:

    • everything above
    • 113 image complete photoset

    Video members now have access to:

    • everything above
    • a nude video of me at Mobius Arch in California (and a clothed video too but that’s not as exciting)
    • 5 aerial silks videos of me doing Salto Dive! Sooooo fun!

    First Look members now have access to:

    • everything above
    • 23 image double exposure photoset of Notrlygrace 
    • 3 minute BTS video
    • 21 more BTS videos/clips from that day + 13 photos
    • a mini video tour of my van (that I lived out of while road tripping for 2 months)

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  • Self Portraits with Mommy! <3

    Daily Photo Blog members now have access to:

    • blog post with the story behind this self portrait set I took with Mommy to recreate my earliest memory (this photo isn’t the memory, but it’s my FAVORITE photo from the set! I’m sure you can see why)
    • 4 image mini set

    Photo members now have access to:

    • everything above
    • 28 image complete photoset

    Video members now have access to:

    • everything above
    • 55+ minutes of BTS video

    First Look members now have access to:

    • everything above
    • 32 image photoset with Notrlygrace 
    • 18 minutes of BTS video
    • 50 image self portrait set at a hidden pool near a waterfall
    • 2x 2 minute videos of me nude at Colorado National Monument

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  • Antisocialdisposition at Durham Fruit

    Daily Photo Blog members now have access to:

    Photo members now have access to:

    • everything above
    • 11 image complete photoset

    Video members now have access to:

    • everything above
    • 3.5 minute video of me dancing to Hot Thoughts by Spoon 
    • 1.5 minute body movements video in window light/shadow
    • a short silly camera test video

    First Look members now have access to:

    • everything above
    • 37 image self portrait set in an airbnb in Chicago from 2017
    • 31 image self portrait set from Chicago in 2017 (in a different airbnb)
    • 2 videos of me at Mobius Arch in California from a few days ago, one clothed & one nude!

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