• Portraitmami

    Daily Photo Blog members now have access to:

    • blog post with the story behind this photoset I took of Portraitmami
    • 5 image mini set

    Photo members now have access to:

    • everything above
    • 26 image complete photoset

    Video members now have access to:

    • everything above
    • 2 minute video of me practicing handstands and cartwheels naked
    • 2 videos of me nude at Colorado National Monument (4.5 mins total)
    • a mini video tour of my van during my road trip!

    First Look members now have access to:

    • everything above
    • 15 image photoset of me taken by Drake Avenue
    • 5 BTS videos
    • a video of me walking nude down an abandoned road somewhere outside of Lake Tahoe California during my road trip
    • 2 videos of me getting into my body for energy & emotion release

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  • Archives with Stevie Macaroni

    Daily Photo Blog members now have access to:

    • blog post with the story behind this massive archives photoset taken by Stevie Macaroni (the image above features Melissa Troutt!)
    • 7 image mini set

    Photo members now have access to:

    • everything above
    • 113 image complete photoset

    Video members now have access to:

    • everything above
    • a nude video of me at Mobius Arch in California (and a clothed video too but that’s not as exciting)
    • 5 aerial silks videos of me doing Salto Dive! Sooooo fun!

    First Look members now have access to:

    • everything above
    • 23 image double exposure photoset of Notrlygrace 
    • 3 minute BTS video
    • 21 more BTS videos/clips from that day + 13 photos
    • a mini video tour of my van (that I lived out of while road tripping for 2 months)

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  • Cross country road trip: one month down, one to go.

    In 1 month on the road I’ve:
    -driven over 4500 miles
    -visited 18 National Parks, National Monuments, and State Parks
    -visited 4 different states (Colorado, Utah, Nevada, California)
    -taken 5 showers
    -spent 24 nights sleeping in my van
    -spent 5 nights in airbnbs
    -spent 2 nights hosted by a friend
    -shot 15 rolls of landscapes for double exposures (MORE ON THESE SOON!!)
    -shot 28 self portrait sets (holy shit I counted just now and didn’t realize I’d taken that many already wowwww)
    -made 86 daily travel vlogs (for you to watch for free! see below!)
    -made 26 videos with my digital camera
    -made hundreds of videos with my cell phone

    Now that I’ve put all of this info together I feel SUPER pleased about how much I’ve accomplished. Wow. And to think I was feeling some kinda way about productivity earlier this month… pshhhh.

    All of my relaxing or “doing nothing” time is ALSO time that *all the things* are in the process of being done. Things need to marinate sometimes. I cultivate my creative energy by doing things for ME, and the BEST time to create is when I am filled with creative energy, wouldn’t you agree?!

    Wow, I’m really typing this to remind myself more than anything. I have such a tendency to push myself to work and check things off to do lists that it’s easy to put myself last. I can talk all day about self care and the importance of doing things for yourself, just because… but when it comes to myself sometimes I forget.

    This trip has really helped me remember the importance of just… laying in the grass. Climbing rocks. Crying next to a river. Sitting between two massive trees and watching the wind in their crowns.

    We as a society tend to go and do and think about what’s next and and and

    I’m catching myself speeding up, feeling more inadequate, more anxious, in my head too much when I’m looking at screens a lot of the day.

    There’s been a new kind of anxiety of not knowing when I’ll have internet again, or even phone service because of some of the remote landscape locations I’m visiting. But it’s SO FREEING at the same time.

    I have my own full attention. No notifications from the computer in my pocket.

    The relief of being completely alone.

    I am able to see more details, like the little bird flitting around under the bush, the secret little nook in the hollow of a tree, or the way the light shines through the trees in just the right way to see a spider web high above.

    This is my reminder to come back to myself.

    This trip is showing me how to just BE with myself. I so often avoid introspection because I have a hard time disentangling my thoughts and feelings and I don’t usually know how to explain what I’m feeling or why. It’s easier to just fill my schedule with tons of things to do so that I don’t have to sit with myself.

    That’s made my thoughts and feelings just get more confused and intense and it’s time. Time for me to sit with them. Disentangle them. Ask them their names and why they’re here inside of me. Acknowledge their presence in my life and ALLOW THEM TO BE THERE. Take the time to sit with them, feel through them…. let them tell me whatever it is I need to know. And let them pass.

    Time with myself makes me want to spend even MORE time alone. I’m at this point in my life where I feel like I’m finally starting to figure out who I really am. Not what’s been expected of me by our monogamous cisheteropatriarchal racist capitalist society. That version of life is too constricting, too hollow, too exclusionary.

    Time with myself allows me to stretch and learn and grow and BLOOM.

    And I feel like I’ve only just started.

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