• 2022 Recap!

    I did a 2021 recap last year and was really encouraged by it, so I’m doing another one this year! I have issues with object permanence and it’s easy for me to feel like I’ve done NOTHING, so looking back and writing up the major things that happened and the things that I accomplished is really helpful for me to realize that I did, in fact, DO THINGS!

    I created this to help myself realize that I am accomplishing things all the time even though I feel like I haven’t. I did NOT create this to make you feel like you need to compete with me or for you to compare yourself to me. The last thing I want is to make someone else feel bad about themself. Everyone’s life and journey is different, and we are ALL VALID whether or not we accomplished ANYTHING AT ALL. ♥


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    • Journaled every day (I started this Jan 20th 2020 – almost on year 3!)
    • Energy practices (almost) every day
    • Took many walks outside + at parks
    • Spent time w friends
    • 8 tattoo appointments – so much closer to being done with this massive project!
    • Went to Floyd Yoga Jam
    • Visited a friend in Boone
    • Got covid in August for the first (and hopefully only) time
    • Visited AD in DC x2
    • Solo van camping trip to Shenandoah
    • Solo van camping in Hocking Hills
    • Got STI tested in Feb, May, + Dec
    • Went to an Art Walk in my hometown
    • Went to friends + familys bday parties
    • Went to a family reunion in VA for my dad’s side of the family
    • Got a new passport with my name change and X gender marker!
    • Volunteered at the VAPA Center
    • Dyed my pubic hair blue x2
    • Spent over $2500 on van repairs (oil changes, inspection, window motor, fuel line, tires…)
    • Mountain trip with Abe at airbnb +  mushroom experience
    • 3x mushroom trips + microdosed several times
    • Helped set up and break down Sol Harmony Fest, my first time seeing behind the scenes of how a festival comes to life!
    • Housesit for my aunt while she’s out of town x2
    • Asheville trip w Abe (surprise trip that last minute changed but was still super fun)
    • Mountainpalooza with 15 of my high school friends! (year 4 and counting!)
    • Stayed w Granny for a week to help her out after she was in the hospital w pneumonia
    • Hosted a model + her partner, first time hosting in several years – since 2017/18?
    • Van camped w friends 5 different times
    • First group van camping experience! 13 people and 4 dogs in a mountain forest
    • Went to 2 bonfires with friends
    • Abe and I made a Duct Tape Dummy of myself

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    • AD tied + suspended me for the first time in years, my first suspension since my rope injury in 2016, first time at The Crucible
    • Got back into the local kink scene + started going to play parties
    • Got myself a doggie crate for my bedroom, for claustrophilia reasons, also for putting myself in time out reasons, and kink reasons lol
    • Did my first self suspension in rope
    • Went to PUSH – a fetish party in Durham
    • Went to 4 kink parties
    • Went to 5 rope labs
    • Had 3 rope mentoring sessions (so far)

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    • Anti-planning Workshop w Elizabeth Goddard
    • Yoni Massage Workshop w Lior Allay
    • Nude Yoga (virtual) w Lior Allay
    • Feelings 101 w Dawn Serra
    • Advanced Master Program on the Treatment of Trauma from NICABM (5 part master class)
    • How to Build Your Business Without Social Media w Becca Tracey
    • Thai Massage Workshop w Ann Marie
    • Balls + Yoga w Ann Marie
    • Glow Yoga w Meridith Young
    • Laughter Yoga w Carolyn Keller Sells
    • Plant ID Walk – Know Your Weeds w I-TAL Acres
    • Psychedelic Breathwork w Monica McGee + Kendall Selfe
    • Ecstatic Dance w Katie Wells + Beatfarm3r
    • Howdy! Partner Yoga w Shawn + Marie Nuthall
    • Energy Medicine Yoga w Nicole Lafon
    • Nature Walk – Plants, Food, + Fire w Johnny Stowe
    • Defying Gravity: Acroyoga FUNdamentals w Kaelyn Rogers
    • Intuitive Movement w Claire Nagy-Kato
    • Teas Tonics + Tinctures w Willow Luna (my mom!)
    • Psychedelic Integration w Anjali Valea
    • Chakti Yoga w Lauren Nixon
    • Rhythm + Flow Yoga w Amber + Jimi Nedoff
    • Learned a suspendable futomomo and uplines (thanks AD)
    • Found a local rope mentor + started recurring meetings to learn rope bondage
    • Aftercare is a “bad word” w Zir Oya aka @mount.saintoya via Shibari Study
    • Rope Has an Image Problem w Christian Red via Shibari Study

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  • Goals vs Resolutions: Brainstorming Personal + Business Goals

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    Hello friends! Today I wanted to talk about goals and I feel like that’s probably something that a lot of people talk about at the beginning of the year because a lot of people have resolutions and things like that, but I want to talk about why I do goals instead of resolutions. So let’s dive in.

    I feel like… I feel like resolutions are maybe not super supportive to people sometimes because there’s this expectation of like I’m a set a resolution and I’m going to do this thing every X amount of time. And if I don’t follow through this resolution, for the whole year then I’m a failure or, you know, like, it doesn’t mean anything, if I didn’t do it the whole year, or if I didn’t meet, whatever that resolution was.

    To me goals feel a little different because they feel like this larger thing at the end of a certain amount of time that you kind of break down into smaller pieces and work towards throughout time like throughout days weeks, months years. And that feels less, it feels like less pressure and it feels like a more consistent like way to meet that goal. Because for me, if it’s a resolution, it’s like I’m going to do X thing every day, or I’m gonna I don’t know. What are some resolutions? And goals, feel more like, oh, there’s this thing that I want to achieve. So, how can I break that into a lot of smaller pieces so I can work on it a little by little throughout time like throughout whatever the time frame is.

    Goals, just feel more achievable than resolutions to me. Also, I feel like… I feel like I have, maybe… How do I say this? I have had goals in the past and I have met them or mostly met them. And I’m at a point right now that I don’t know what my next goals are. So I feel kind of lost. Because the goals that I had, I’ve like, I’ve met the goals, like, my largest goal that I’ve had recently is to, like, get a van and go on a road trip, and I did that. I got a van in 2018, and I went on my cross-country road trip in 2019. And if you’ve been here any amount of time, you’ll know a lot of things happened in 2019 for me and my life kind of like broke apart and then came back together in a different way, and I feel like right now, I don’t know what goals I have and that is kind of frustrating and scary and I kind of feel like I’m floating. You know, I’m just like a blob floating in space with no purpose. So, it’s weird when I’ve met my goals and then I’m not sure where to go next. 

    So I feel like, maybe if I made goals, they would either be too big or too small, but I also feel like Is this my perfectionism getting in my own way? Like I feel like I’m getting in my own way. So I wanted to talk about…. I’m kind of just going to brainstorm here in this vlog right now, about my goals for 2022. For this year. Because, I feel like I’ll feel better if I have goals to work towards. So I’m not just like aimlessly like what am I going to do? Let me just figure it out for today. And then tomorrow have to be like, what am I going to do? Let me figure it out for today. Like I feel aimless. So I’m going to brainstorm some goals right now, and I’m going to grab some paper so I can joy some stuff down also because I need some goals. So if you want to also come up with some goals, grab some paper and pen and let’s do this together. So, I’m gonna…. I’ve kind of brainstormed about goals a little bit already. So, I’m going to kind of separate it into personal goals and business goals. And I feel like the personal goals might be the easier ones, but that’s just me. Okay, so personal goals. Oh, my pen is running out of ink.

    Personal goals and business goals. 

    All right, I already had some stuff written up here. So ignore this but I’m just doing like personal and business and I’m just going to make a list because I love lists and lists help me a lot. So yeah list, I’m gonna start with personal because that feels easier.

    So personal goal. I also am going to set myself up for success because I know that if there’s something on there that I know, for sure that I 100% can do, then I’ll feel better because like I’ll have a goal that I know that I can meet. So I’m going to like start off with something that I know I can do to kind of like get the ball rolling. So I’ve already been journaling every day since January of 2020. So I’m going to continue to do that. So my goal is to journal every day in 2022 because I know that I can meet that because I already met it last year and most of 2020. So I’m going to do that, journal every day. 

    Still on personal goals. I’m gonna also continue to set myself up for success and do a couple more things that I know that I can do everyday or consistently, at least if not every day, just so that I know that I have goals that I can meet, and that way at the end of the year, if I look through my goals and I’m like, wow, there’s something I didn’t meet, but I’ll at least have some that I did meet that way. It doesn’t feel like you know, I’m a failure… because I know that I’m not. It’s okay to not meet your goals, that’s just like more things you can work towards.

    So another goal that I’m going to do for 2022 is to do Energy Medicine, energy healing on myself every day. Which I’ve already been doing almost every day for probably at least a year. So, I know that I can do that. Another personal goal that I’ve been thinking about is walking outside on a regular basis. So I’m going to say once a week, just because I know that like sometimes weather and responsibilities and other things can keep me from being outside, but I really want to be outside. So I’m going to say, take a walk outside every week. Walk outside every week and then if I do it more than once a week, that’s even better, but I least I’m going to do at least once a week. 

    Okay, so that’s just that’s like three personal goals. I’m going to start on a couple of business goals. I really would like to monetize my YouTube channel. So that requires at least 1000 subscribers and 4,000 plus watching hours over a period of 12 months. So that itself, like to monetize my YouTube channel, can be a business goal is to get at least 1000 subscribers and over 4,000 watching hours. 

    So monetize YouTube, which means 1000 subs and 4000 watch hours. So, If I want to do that, that also means I need to make more videos and share more videos on YouTube. So, maybe I will do… Maybe my goal can be like one video. A week. Or month, see I don’t want to, I don’t want to make it too frequent if it’s not something that I can do. I do want to challenge myself, but I also don’t want to put like huge amounts of pressure on myself to do things if I can’t do them. So let’s say I’m going to do I want to try to do at least one longer video a month and one short every week. So that way I at least have some content going up every week. Even if it’s not a long video and I think shorts have been really popular on YouTube. So yeah, I want to do more of those because I posted a short and then like two days later I had 800 views and I was my second most viewed video ever, so I’m going to keep doing that. Okay, so that’s like the main business goal is monetize YouTube. And then there’s some smaller goals underneath that in order to work towards monetizing, the YouTube.

    I want to continue doing Vlogs for y’all every week, so that can be another goal as a member like, website vlog every week. I already have like a list of potential topics to talk about, so I’m going to continue using that but also I’m going to put a survey below, so if there’s anything in particular you want to hear from me, let me know and I’ll try to make it. So survey will be below. Put the link in the caption down there.

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    This video is getting a little long and I want to spend some more time brainstorming goals, so I’m going to sign off of this video and continue thinking about goals and maybe in the next video I’ll go through the whole list of goals with you. So, you know what I’m doing. Thank you so much for being here. I love you so much. I hope that you can make some goals for yourself. Goals that are achievable, but are also, at least slightly challenging so you feel accomplished but not too challenging that you don’t do them because it just feels bad to make a goal then not succeed. 

    So yeah, I hope you get to do some achievable goals that are also slightly a challenge but not too much of a challenge. Yeah, I’m still learning. We’re all learning, we’re figuring shit out. None of us know what we’re doing. We just pretend. Okay. I love you! Thank you for being here! Goodbye!

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  • I am self employed on the internet. Here’s how.

     

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    Hey friends! Welcome to 2022. This is weird. I feel like time has flown but also crawled at the same time, and it’s really weird to think about time in general. So yeah, it feels weird that we’re already in 2022, but I wanted to start this year off by saying, hello and thank you for being here and I love you so much! And I literally couldn’t be doing any of this without you and I feel like I say that a lot, but it’s true.

    So I thought… I’ve had, I’ve actually had a couple people ask me like are you for real? Like are you making all this up? Or are you actually like a real person who is doing these things that you’re saying you’re doing? And are you actually like self-employed and all of these things? So I wanted to give you a little insight in my life and how you make it possible. So, here we go.

    Okay, if you’re new here, I’m Bunny, my pronouns are they/them. I’m… a lot of things but for the sake of this video and not making it take like 20 minutes. I’m an artist, I’m a queer person, I am an educator, I care about a lot of things and I have a lot of interests. So if I were to like list all my interests, it would take a very long time and be a very long video. So I’m just going to say I’m into creativity, queerness, nature, ecosexuality, healing, those kinds of things. Yes, I’m a real person.

    Hi, I’m Bunny, I do exist. And I know that some of you might be confused as to like what my business is, and to be honest. I’m kind of confused about it, too. I’m still figuring it out. I became self-employed in 2019, like full-time self-employed. I had been part-time self-employed since like 2010 maybe, and I took a long time to build up to being full-time self-employed, and also a lot of things changed in my life that kind of brought the self-employment to the forefront.

    So, I am self-employed because I don’t want to work for someone else. I’ve done that for a lot of time and I kind of suffered for it as a neurodivergent person. I don’t do well in a lot of “normal” work environments. So, in order for me to like, have a somewhat healthy experience of working, I definitely needed to be self-employed and like make my own schedule. And the reason I’m able to be self employed is because of members of my website. People like you who pay me an amount that feels good to you on a monthly basis to access all of my content and my blogs and all that.

    I’m going to get real with you. I don’t make very much money. I usually make less than a thousand dollars a month… or around 1000 ish a month. So the only reason I’m able to sustain this is because I live with my parents, like my parents… this is their house. This is my room, but it’s my parents house and my parents let me have really cheap rent, so that helps a lot. I don’t have a lot of expenses because my like, all utilities and internet and stuff are included in my rent. And my rent is also lowered because I do things around the house in exchange for cheaper rent. So it works out a lot for me. And I, I would like to make more money, but I also don’t want to burn myself out, which I kind of already have done. So I’m trying to not repeat that. I, I’m still figuring out how to do this self-employment / online working world stuff. Yeah, it’s hard for me to describe this because I feel like I still am figuring it out for myself. But in order to be transparent, I don’t make a lot of money. I don’t have a lot of bills and that’s why I’m able to do this and I recognize my immense privilege as a person who’s able to do this.

    One: I’m white. Two: I’m mostly able-bodied. Three: I have the support of my parents. Four: I’m skinny. Five: I’m like “conventionally attractive” whatever the fuck that means. And yeah, but I mean my whiteness and my family help are probably some of the biggest reasons I’m able to do this and I definitely recognize that a lot of people have to work a lot harder in order to just survive and I’m extremely fortunate and extremely privileged that I’m able to work 10-ish hours a week and get by. I’m not rolling in money, but I’m comfortable, and that’s mostly because of my privileges and the support of my parents.

    I’m 32. Wow, that’s weird to say, I’m 32. I live with my parents and it’s actually a really great situation, for the financial reasons I’ve already stated but also because my parents are fucking awesome. Like, even before I moved out, when I was like a teenager, my parents were really awesome. I mean, I didn’t move out when I was a teenager. I moved out when I was in my early 20s, I lived out of the house for eight or nine years before I moved back in. But yeah, I have a very fortunate life and I’m able to do the things that I do because of my privileges and the support of my parents, and the support of y’all. Like, literally my primary income is from my website. So if you are here and you pay me any amount of money, you are the reason that I’m able to pay any bills and like have food on the table and get tattoos and stuff like that. 

    The tattoo is my largest expense and it’s like… it’s definitely a big investment, in my opinion. But it definitely. I would have a lot more money if I was not getting tattooed about every month ish because tattoos are expensive and this is a giant one. It’s like half of my body. So yeah, I feel like I’m starting to ramble, but I wanted to say, yes, I’m a real person. Yes, I am actually self-employed with the caveat of I have a whole lot of privileges that make it so that I am able to be self-employed and able to, like, sustain myself on not a lot of money because like I said, I don’t actually make all that much money. 

    And I’m still learning how to do this in general. I would like to scale my business. I would like to make more money and support more people and offer more ways that I can be of support to people. And I’m still figuring that out and I feel like I kind of maybe pressure myself to do things like super consistently. Maybe before I know that those things are what I want to do. Like I really have enjoyed doing nude gatherings and I did them for I think it was eight months in 2021 and those are super fun. But I also was like pressuring myself to do them consistently every month and I did enjoy that and I also was like, yeah, but I do need a break. I definitely need a break. I can’t consistently do this every month without any breaks. So it’s a balancing act for me and I feel like I go between like, I want to do something on a consistent basis, and then, oh, I don’t want to put too many things on my plate because I’m already juggling a lot. 

    At the same time like am I challenging myself? Now this just kind of feels like a diary entry. So that’s what this is right now. I’m going to stop this video before it takes the whole day and yeah, I just wanted to share with you a little bit of behind-the-scenes of, like how my business exists and who I am and what I do and why you are the reason that I’m able to do anything at all. So thank you. It means a lot. I love you so much. I’ll talk to you soon. *mwah* Bye!

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  • 2021 Recap!

    I enjoy looking back + seeing all the progress I’ve made over the year. It helps me realize that I did in fact actually do things + work toward my goals.

    Sometimes my brain likes to tell me that I’ve done NOTHING + gotten NOTHING accomplished, that I’ve wasted the whole year.

    Does your brain do that to you too?

    Maybe looking back through your year to see all that you’ve done will benefit you too!


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    • Became an LLC
    • Got a business bank account
    • GBTL events: Jan, Feb x2, March x2, April x2, May x3, June x2, July, August, September (total of 15 events!!!)
    • GBTL met up in person to create + facilitate backstage pass
    • Many many meetings + video chats + text messages behind the scenes

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