I’ve realized I haven’t shared a lot of videos with the public, probably because I want to share them on social media but CAN’T because they’re nude. I’ll just share them here instead, where I don’t have to censor them. It brings me a lot of joy to be able to look back at these moments, to experience them again + again. Enjoy this random assortment of behind the scenes videos from photoshoots throughout the years! ❤
First up, me + Mommy taking self portraits in the shower to recreate my earliest memory. (Click here if trouble viewing) And my favorite photo from that shoot…
Next video is from a creative day with AnaloguePapi + Rhivnnun (Click here if trouble viewing) My favorite image from that shoot:
This video is from the nude gathering I facilitated outside of Portland Oregon in July 2019!!!
(Click here if trouble viewing) My favorite image from that day:
From my most recent photoshoot (in June 2021!), with Rachel + Hendrix, where I double exposed them with landscapes from Zion. (Click here if trouble viewing) My favorite image from this shoot!!! Members of my website have access to all the full length videos + photosets. Members are the reason I’m able to create in the first place! THANK YOU!
I originally wrote this for Patreon on November 18th 2017. I no longer use Patreon and have replaced it with my website (here) but thought I would share some of my old blogs with you for FREE to show my appreciation for you visiting my website! <3
Roarie Yum is an incredible model and I have been lucky enough to photograph them a few times. The last time they was in town Antisocialdisposition and I hired them for a couple of hours specifically to shoot double exposures over rolls of film I already shot of inspiring landscapes. We did a very similar shoot with Kyotocat last year, you can find it in the October 2016 archive.
I had a roll of film that part of it was shot when we were in Utah summer 2016 and the other part of the roll I shot in the NC mountains. The other roll I used was one I took in Shenandoah National Park this past July. I double exposed these rolls with Roarie and got magic! Some of them lined up in ways that I couldn’t have imagined, and that’s the magic of double exposures. I love the unexpected imperfect perfection that sometimes happens, if that makes any sense at all. Haha.
Our friend Scott let us use his studio and set up the lighting for us. He took the BTS photo below. AD and I took turns photographing Roarie and got a surprising number of rolls of film shot in just a couple of hours.
I really really love double exposures. I haven’t taken as many lately as I used to so it was really nice to finally get back to doing some.
I’ve added 3 bts videos from the shoot along with 42 bts photos for video tier patrons.
There’s also a timelapse video of me (nude) painting with my mom in the video gallery. I sent these paintings to 4 of the higher tier patrons, I hope you like them! <3
BTS photo taken by Scott!
All members have access to this complete 14 image photoset doubled with Shenandoah National Park by clicking here, the 10 image Utah & NC landscapes doubles by clicking here, the BTS photo & video by clicking here, and the nude painting with my mom by clicking here.
I originally wrote this for Patreon on August 26th 2017. I no longer use Patreon and have replaced it with my website (here) but thought I would share some of my old blogs with you for FREE to show my appreciation for you visiting my website! <3
I’m pretty much in love with this self portrait set I took in Chicago. I wasn’t always in love with it though. The first time I hastily looked through the photos on my phone I was disappointed by them so I stored them and forgot about them. The shadows just looked way too dark to salvage in the small thumbnails. I stumbled across this set again when I was picking out what I wanted to share with you and now I can’t believe I wasn’t happy with it before! I’m so thankful that I held onto this previously discarded set because it’s a new favorite.
The airbnb we stayed in the majority of the time Antisocialdisposition and I were in Chicago was beautiful. I chose it because it had several windows and so many plants indoors, and I certainly made the right choice! It was even more wonderful in person than the photos I had seen online. I love the nude statue, and the clear chair is definitely an interesting piece of furniture. Of course I had to incorporate those elements into this set!
Enjoy these reclaimed images that have reminded me to always give second chances, and to look deeper into the dark to see the light. <3
New to the video tier is a timelapse video of me doing yoga at the airport with my mom from earlier this year. Check out the sweet crop top I’m wearing, it’s the “Your dick didn’t change me” one from a limited run that Jacs Fishburne had made. =D We definitely had people watching us but I was in the zone so I didn’t notice. My dad told us after we finished!
I originally wrote this for Patreon on July 15th 2017. I no longer use Patreon and have replaced it with my website (here) but thought I would share some of my old blogs with you for FREE to show my appreciation for you visiting my website! <3
Yay here’s the first set from my super fun adventure to Pennsylvania a couple weeks ago! I finally met Vinny Kim on the first morning of my trip after talking to him online and admiring his photographs forEVER. We met up at a Cracker Barrel parking lot in the middle of nowhere Pennsylvania. He drove me to an abandoned school he has permission to shoot in… that place is a dreamland! We barely scratched the surface of the huge beautiful building. There are SO MANY places to shoot there that are all totally different. There was one room that had 2 walls full of windows and grass growing on the floor that I really wanted to model in but we didn’t even get around to shooting there! I had a fantastic time exploring and experimenting with Vinny. We shot all morning and afterward we went back to the Cracker Barrel for lunch and some much needed running water to wash my hands hahaha. I was totally covered in dust from head to toe. It felt SOOOOO good to take a shower once I finally got to Tiffany Helms‘ place in Philly later that afternoon.
I have a few more sets from this shoot to share with you in the coming weeks, be on the lookout for those soon!
(Models: Please email me at email@example.com for references about photographers in the industry)
I’ve uploaded 6 behind the scenes videos from the abandoned school, make sure to check those out! They really help show you the scale of this place.
July’s monthly nude yoga video (it’s 10 minutes long!) has also been uploaded!! This month’s video is extra special because my mom joined me! YES, she’s nude too! I love my family… my dad participated by helping me film the video. I am so lucky to have such a supportive family. <3
- 29 image complete photoset
11 videos from a family vacation in Tennessee in 2018 (WHYYYYYY do I hoard content?! haha)
- 16.5+ minute nude energy medicine yoga video with my mom! She gives verbal cues so you can do it with us!
First Look members now have access to:
52 image complete self portrait photoset in Goblin Valley (Enclosed)
5.5 minutes of BTS video
I originally wrote this for Patreon on February 18th 2017. I no longer use Patreon and have replaced it with my website (here) but thought I would share some of my old blogs with you for FREE to show my appreciation for you visiting my website! <3
I am so excited to share this set with y’all! It was not planned at all, but somehow the very best of everything seems to always happen when there’s no plan for it.
I went to my parents’ house to meet up with a model and shoot because my parents are awesome and the house is really pretty….. but the model never showed up. I was a little upset at first but not for long because I decided I was going to make art anyway. I took self portraits with the help of my mom!! <3 <3 <3 The first half of the shoot I had the camera on my tripod and I set up the shot and the focus and everything, got into position, and had her click the shutter when I was ready. The second half of the shoot we put the tripod away and she took the photos! She shot a pack of Instax too! The shoot took a couple hours because I would set up a crystal grid, set up the camera, take a few photos, and then break down the grid, set up another one, take some photos… the process was really fun, creative, and rewarding. And I always love spending time with my mom, she’s one of my very best friends.
Not only is this set special to me because I created the images with my mom, it’s also special because we incorporated crystal grids! I have always loved crystals and stones and have been collecting them since I was little. I love making crystal grids, meditating with crystals, displaying them in our house, using them to send positive healing energy to others when they are not physically here, collecting them, looking at them….. ahhh I love crystals!
A crystal grid is an arrangement of crystals, usually in a geometric pattern (most often sacred geometry), created with a specific intention in order to direct energy toward manifesting a goal. Individually, crystals have their own energies and power, and when combined with other crystals in a grid, their energies combine and strengthen your intention, sending that energy out into the universe. You can make a crystal grid to help you sleep, to attract wealth and abundance, to assist in healing… whatever your intention is you can create a crystal grid to enhance it.
There are many different ways of creating crystal grids, and not one specific way is the ONLY way to create one. The best way to make a crystal grid is to follow your intuition and do what feels best for .
1- Cleanse the area where you’ll be creating your grid. You can use sacred smoke, reiki, or whatever you prefer to cleanse an area.
2- Choose your intention, what do you want this crystal grid to do for you? Enhance peace & happiness? Attract wealth & abundance? Assist in healing? You may want to write your intention on a piece of paper or keep it in your mind while you set up and activate your grid.
3- Choose crystals that work for your intention, make sure they are cleansed.
4- Choose a place for your grid. You want it to be somewhere that the crystals won’t be disturbed. Maybe on a table, on a tray (so you can move it to different rooms in your house), or maybe even in a special place outside. You can even make or purchase a sacred geometry grid layout made of wood or fabric (like these here and here).
5- Arrange your crystals in a pattern that feels right for you. If you wrote your intention down on a piece of paper, fold it up and put it in the center of your grid. Some people like to place their center/master/focus stone in the grid first (it has a lot of names), and some people like to place it last. Most grids are circular with the center/master/focus stone in the center and all the other stones around it, but your grid doesn’t have to be circular if that doesn’t feel right for your intention. Do what feels right to you! <3
6- You can arrange other special/magical objects in and around your grid, such as feathers, bones/skulls, oracle/tarot cards, etc to enhance it and its energy.
Take a few deep breaths, focusing on your breathing and letting go of any excess thoughts. Hold your intention in your mind. Using a clear quartz crystal or crystal wand, hold it over each crystal and imagine it awakening and activating each crystal’s energy. Use the quartz or wand to “connect the dots” between each crystal and visualize them connecting energetically to amplify your intention. Some people like to “connect the dots” from the outside in, some like to do it from inside out, some like to do it clockwise… whatever feels right to you. If you have time, meditate in front of your grid for a few minutes while continuing to hold your intention in your mind. Visualize the energy of the crystal grid flowing up and out into the universe. Meditate with your grid every day if you can, and keep the grid set up for at least a couple of weeks, but a month or more is even better. Reactivate it whenever you feel it needs it, maybe every other day, every week, or every couple weeks.
Looks like I need to make another post about how to cleanse crystals and how to choose crystals based on their energetic properties/which ones are used for love, abundance, protection, etc. I’ll do that soon!
I haven’t forgotten about making the positive affirmations/meditation/metaphysical videos! I haven’t had time this week to make a good video but that’s coming soon! I have some ideas I want to try… =]
Ok now it’s time for photos!! <3
In case you missed our livestream, here’s the replay of Holding Space that I did with my mom Willow! <3
We will be back on Thursday at 6pm to talk more about Holding Space during a live video gathering for members, I’d love to see you there!
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