I originally wrote this for Patreon on June 12 2016. I’m planning on switching everything over from Patreon to my website (here) over the next few months and thought I would share some of my old blogs with you for FREE to show my appreciation for you visiting my website! <3
I experimented with rope again the other night and really like the results! I did a self tied body harness that I just made up, it was pretty fun. I’m practicing more with rope now, I really enjoy it. I’ve always been interested in rope and #dancingbearsvacay intensified my interest. I did a couple of harnesses on my sister Kitty (edit 8/20/19 she now goes by Gemini) yesterday too! I’ve made a new folder in the galleries where I’ll put all the photos from my rope practice on others. =]
Antisocialdisposition and I are taking a 2 week trip to Colorado at the beginning of July!!! We’re going to Denver, Rocky Mountain National Park, Black Canyon of the Gunnison National Park, Arches National Park (Utah), and Mesa Verde National Park. Lots of photos and videos and hiking and camping and edibles will be happening, I am so stoked! While we’re gone I definitely still plan on posting content on here but it will most likely be only a couple of photos at a time since I’ll be posting from my phone. I will be posting more frequently than my normal once a week since the posts will be smaller. Look for a couple of huge posts after we get back and I get all the film developed!
The complete sets have 49 images (with rope) and 40 images (without rope), I’m sharing 14 of my faves here with you.
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I originally wrote this for Patreon on June 6 2016. I’m planning on switching everything over from Patreon to my website (here) over the next few months and thought I would share some of my old blogs with you for FREE to show my appreciation for you visiting my website! <3
I’ve been changing my mind a lot lately because I’m scared I’m making the wrong decision. I hastily decided a few months ago that I wanted to go back to school and finally get a bachelor’s degree. I did all the paperwork and whatnot, signed up for financial aid, went to open house, started thinking about where I would want to go for study abroad….
And today I’m cancelling all of it. My husband AD is currently a full time student taking on about 10k in loans per year and I am the one paying the bills. I no longer enjoy my job and it is so stressful sometimes I come home and just cry. Or I’ll be in such a sour mood when I come home I won’t want to do anything but bitch and complain and he doesn’t deserve that, he’s working hard too, just on calculus and physics homework and stressing out about his new research position. I rushed into my decision to go back to school without putting a lot of thought into it, I just wanted to escape my stressful day job and make a major change. When we actually looked at our finances and how much we were about to be in debt I just couldn’t justify going back to school. That stressful job I have has amazing benefits and I have a steady paycheck. I’m going to stay but keep an eye out for a different job within the company. Or outside of the company, who knows. I’m still ready for a major change, I just don’t know what that change is yet. We are moving to a different apartment in November, maybe that will be the major change that I need. I think I need more of a change than that, but it’s at least a start.
I got approved for 2 weeks of vacation in July so we’re going to make the most of it and go on a big trip. We’ve talked a lot about where we’re going to go and I think we’ve decided on Colorado. Unless I change my mind again. I don’t think I will but we’ll see.
This full photoset has 48 images, I’m sharing 7 of my faves!
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I’ve been meditating a LOT the last few months and have talked to a lot of people who struggle with it. It’s intimidating to think about having to shut your brain off and sit still in order to meditate… well, this is me telling you that’s not the only way. There are as many ways to meditate as there are people in this world. It’s more about finding what works best for YOU, not what you think meditation SHOULD BE.
For the rest of this month this “10 Meditation Tips for Beginners” e-book is available FOR FREE in my shop (CLICK HERE!). After 8/31/19 it will be $8.88, so go download it for free while you can!
I originally wrote this for Patreon on May 9 2016. I’m planning on switching everything over from Patreon to my website (here) over the next few months and thought I would share some of my old blogs with you for FREE to show my appreciation for you visiting my website! <3
My mirror experiments took longer and were more difficult than I expected. Each mirror I added brought it’s own complications. Overall I had fun and though I’m not as satisfied with the images as I want to be I still really like some of them. I want to explore a lot more but I definitely need to find a new space to shoot in, my bedroom isn’t empty enough to really get some good angles and I need better light, too.
(This photoset has 99 images, I’m sharing 10 of my favorites here, the rest of the set can be found in the member galleries!)
I met Kaiman Kazazian once almost exactly 3 years ago when I was fortunate enough to be able to work with her since she was only in town for a short amount of time. The two of us along with several other photographers and models were all hanging out and shooting in an apartment with bare walls and minimal furniture. It was a really quick shoot and we only got one roll but there are so many wonderful photos from it. She is kindhearted and inspiring and I hope our paths cross again.
(This is a 10 image set, here’s 3 of my faves! The rest can be found in the member galleries.)
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I originally wrote this for Patreon on April 24 2016. I’m planning on switching everything over from Patreon to my website (here) over the next few months and thought I would share some of my old blogs with you for FREE to show my appreciation for you visiting my website! <3
There are lots of changes coming up for me, the soonest being getting rid of a huge bookshelf and cutting my hair. My mom is on her way here now to help me load up the giant bookshelf and take it to my sister and tomorrow I’m getting a lot of my hair chopped off. It’ll be the shortest it’s ever been and I’m both excited and scared. I just finished up my last self portrait shoot before getting my hair cut so of course I had to incorporate the now-empty bookshelf. Tomorrow I’ll be lighter, one less piece of furniture and a lot less hair. I’m taking a couple of small steps toward the major changes that are going to take place this year: going back to college, possibly (most likely) quitting my desk job, and moving. I’m changing and learning and growing. I’m looking forward to everything that’s going to happen this year.
Little did I know I didn’t actually end up going back to school and DID end up at another job I didn’t like that much… but not all plans work out like we think they will!
This self portrait photoset from April 2016 has 70 images total, but I’m just sharing 20 of my faves. =] This is the photoset/bookshelf I mentioned in the blog!
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This blog post was originally shared to patreon on April 15 2016. I’m in the process of moving everything from patreon over here to my website, and thought I’d share this with you for FREE as my way of saying thank you for visiting my site! <3
Happy Friday! Things are usually too hectic for me to be able to post more than once a week but yay a Friday with less going on! I thought I’d share some fun facts with you:
- Modeling for figure drawing groups/classes is super fun. Especially if I’m able to model with antisocialdisposition like in this drawing!
- I’m a vegetarian, but a new vegetarian. I only started in September. It really wasn’t much of a change for me though since I never ate much meat anyway.
- I have a cool scar next to my left eye from when I was 2 and jumping on the bed instead of taking a nap like I was supposed to and fell off landing on the bed frame with my face. I needed a bunch of stitches and I’m super lucky I didn’t fall any further down because otherwise I’d be a cyclops right now.-I like scars and their stories. What’s your coolest scar?
- I’ve only moved 3 times in my entire life, once when I was 2 or 3 so it doesn’t count, and twice within the past 4 years.
- Moving sucks.
- This Indian food I’m eating right now is delicious.
- I plan on getting a Harry Potter tattoo sleeve when I have the money for it.
- Thanks to aerial silks I can do 6 pull ups in a row.
- The first time I’ve ever been able to do a pull up was within the past 6 months. Lady muscles! Yeah!
- I’m going back to college in the fall and should have more time for photos and traveling and exploring!
- I already have 2 associate degrees.
- I have a younger sister named Kitty. People always thought we were twins when we were little. We’re pretty sure we’re Irish Twins. I’m only a year and a half older than her.
- I believe in energy and it’s healing powers.
- I do not believe in god. I have never believed in god for as long as I can remember.
- I carry 5 stones with me every day. They’re always different ones, whichever I feel are the ones I should have for that day.
- I used to squat down and watch ants scurrying across the ground when I was a kid.
- I still do sometimes.
Several of those ^^ facts above are no longer accurate, but it’s fun to see where I was in life over 3 years ago…
Enjoy this self portrait photoset I took in October 2014!
This blog was originally posted to patreon on April 10th 2016. I am currently in the process of moving everything from patreon over here to my website, because I don’t trust patreon to continue to allow me to have nude content, but here on my website I have COMPLETE CONTROL. I’m hoping to have everything moved over by the end of the year. =]
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I’ve been thinking today about how much I love exploring and remembering all the wonderful places I’ve been. I’ve clambered up a mountain and climbed down waterfalls to find the perfect little pool in which to photograph a new friend. I’ve been soot-covered in a burned down abandoned house in which I found a death certificate from 20 years ago. I’ve spent 10 minutes just walking around a mansion to see every room, most of which were named after a spice or herb. It was large enough to need 2 staircases and had the most beautiful tree outside the front door, leaves bright yellow in October. I’ve continuously returned to the big abandoned house owned by a peacock and frequented by geese. I’ve been sunburned from not realizing how long I had been taking self portraits in a quarry within walking distance of my apartment. I’ve ran back home after a whirlwind shoot in the quarry right before a thunderstorm started. I’ve been to an abandoned 3 story college with an enormous & prominent staircase on the first floor, all of the giant windows completely broken and gone. I climbed the crooked beams at the back of the college which were mangled as a result of a fire.
I’m so thankful for these and many other amazing unmentioned places I’ve visited. Don’t even get me started on how lucky I am to have met so many fantastic people. =] <3
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- If you could describe the entirety of your work in three sentences, what would they be?
My work at it’s core is about acceptance. For oneself in their skin. And for their sexuality and the sexual energy that drives them.
What’s the story of your journey to becoming an artist?Oh boy, that’s a long one haha. My journey started back while I was a teen spending hours looking at porn and not coming across any content that I liked. Seeing the blatant misogynistic, racist, and sexist storylines playing out over and over again. Then growing older and having sexual experiences of my own and learning about the insecurities people had about their bodies while also dealing with my own shame around my sexuality. So when I got my first camera around age 24 I knew that I wanted to take photos of real human bodies in all their diversity and uniqueness. I knew that I wanted to capture couples making love and taking photos of everyday people like you and I having moments of pleasure whether that be alone or with a partner. I felt strongly that is what the world needed to see.Was there anyone who influenced your work or supported you from the very beginning?
Jade Beal was a huge inspiration of mine. I love the way she captures people of all ages and skin in such a positive and respectful light. I love that her worked touched on intimacy regardless of age but also uplifted motherhood and bodies of all types.
What’s your favorite thing to create, or be a part of creating?I love working with people and afterwards showing them their images. Receiving that phone call or text that’s full of emotion as they look through their photos in awe of how they look and have been captured. So, I guess to answer your question. Creating pieces of art that emotionally uplift and empower people is my favorite thing to create.Do you have a favorite piece or series?
It would be so hard to pick just one piece. All my photos have different emotions and memories behind them. From the conversations had while taking the photo to the emotions evoked through it. It would be so hard to pick just one.
How do you find inspiration when you’re in a creative rut?
Ya know, I’ll be honest here and say that. I’ve never really experienced that. As a writer so much of my work is based on how I’m feeling at the time so I always create from my own emotions. Also because I speak about sexuality often and I am a very sexual person. I always kinda feel that sensual sensual energy in me. Aside from that I’m always thinking and processing things. Often times my issue is actually that I don’t want to bombard people with my ideas or emotions..Is there anything you wish you could change about the art world or how people connect to your work?
YES YES YES!!! I hate that so much of an artists perceived skill and importance derives on their follower count. As someone who’s had countless instagram pages shut down you really get to see how differently people treat you simply based on that number at the top of your page and while one day a person could have a large following with opportunities coming left and right. A day later they could be perceived as a “nobody” simply because their page now doesn’t have the same following. I wish people connected more with artists as humans and not sources to consume from. I wish that more people took time to appreciate, read, and understand the art being put out there and not just double tap and scroll.
Do you see your work expanding, changing, or going in another direction in the future?I have many plans for my work. I wouldn’t say that I’d be changing directions though because I’ve always seen so much more for Expressions Untold than just being a photographer and writer. I plan on having my work in museums, speaking at panels and events, hosting retreats, coaching teens and adults on intimacy, self awareness, and deconstructing beliefs that limit human beings. I plan on having my own production studio. Creating films that embody the messages of my work. I have so much work to do to get to the place I want to be..
If people could only receive one piece of information or knowledge about your work, what would you want that to be?
That every piece of my work is creating with the intention to help someone heal..
Where can you and your work be found online?This is my main website where one can go to gain access to my book, a gallery showing previews of my work, and links to all other podcasts and publications that my work has been featured in.This is where I post my uncensored work that I don’t post anywhere else. It has photos and videos of people and couples making love, in moments of self pleasure, and simply embracing their bodies in the most raw, real, and vulnerable ways..Social Media:Snapchat: @expuntld
I originally wrote this for Patreon on April 4 2016. I’m planning on switching everything over from Patreon to my website (here) over the next few months and thought I would share some of my old blogs with you for FREE to show my appreciation for you visiting my website! <3
Okay, so I hardly ever post anything personal on tumblr or instagram (or any social media for that matter) but I thought I would share more here with you guys. If this is something you’ve been wanting, yay! If not… I guess let me know? Hopefully you’d like to know more about me since you support my photography & modeling & whatnot.
Anyway, on to personal stuff… I had my IUD removed today and replaced it with a different kind. I’ve been at home ever since with cramps and just generally not feeling great or motivated. Thankfully I’m not working today so that’s helped. I had a Skyla IUD which slowly releases small amounts of a progestin hormone into my uterus. Sadly (and embarrassingly) it took me 2 years to realize that this has to be the source of some of the health issues that started in June/July 2014. I got Skyla in March 2014. Coincidence? I don’t think so. Why didn’t I make the correlation sooner?! My body suddenly had more hormones in it than ever, of course it freaked out.
As of today I’ve switched to ParaGuard, which is a non-hormonal IUD that is just as effective in preventing pregnancy. I expect to start seeing an improvement in my health in the next few months. It was really nice not having a period for 2 years but I’ll take menstruation over health issues any day.
I took this self portrait set in November 2014!
- In 1 month on the road I’ve:-driven over 4500 miles-visited 18 National Parks, National Monuments, and State Parks-visited 4 different states (Colorado, Utah, Nevada, California)-taken 5 showers-spent 24 nights sleeping in my van-spent 5 nights in airbnbs-spent 2 nights hosted by a friend-shot 15 rolls of landscapes for double exposures (MORE ON THESE SOON!!)-shot 28 self portrait sets (holy shit I counted just now and didn’t realize I’d taken that many already wowwww)-made 86 daily travel vlogs (for you to watch for free! see below!)-made 26 videos with my digital camera-made hundreds of videos with my cell phone
Now that I’ve put all of this info together I feel SUPER pleased about how much I’ve accomplished. Wow. And to think I was feeling some kinda way about productivity earlier this month… pshhhh.
All of my relaxing or “doing nothing” time is ALSO time that *all the things* are in the process of being done. Things need to marinate sometimes. I cultivate my creative energy by doing things for ME, and the BEST time to create is when I am filled with creative energy, wouldn’t you agree?!
Wow, I’m really typing this to remind myself more than anything. I have such a tendency to push myself to work and check things off to do lists that it’s easy to put myself last. I can talk all day about self care and the importance of doing things for yourself, just because… but when it comes to myself sometimes I forget.
This trip has really helped me remember the importance of just… laying in the grass. Climbing rocks. Crying next to a river. Sitting between two massive trees and watching the wind in their crowns.
We as a society tend to go and do and think about what’s next and and and
I’m catching myself speeding up, feeling more inadequate, more anxious, in my head too much when I’m looking at screens a lot of the day.
There’s been a new kind of anxiety of not knowing when I’ll have internet again, or even phone service because of some of the remote landscape locations I’m visiting. But it’s SO FREEING at the same time.
I have my own full attention. No notifications from the computer in my pocket.
The relief of being completely alone.
I am able to see more details, like the little bird flitting around under the bush, the secret little nook in the hollow of a tree, or the way the light shines through the trees in just the right way to see a spider web high above.
This is my reminder to come back to myself.
This trip is showing me how to just BE with myself. I so often avoid introspection because I have a hard time disentangling my thoughts and feelings and I don’t usually know how to explain what I’m feeling or why. It’s easier to just fill my schedule with tons of things to do so that I don’t have to sit with myself.
That’s made my thoughts and feelings just get more confused and intense and it’s time. Time for me to sit with them. Disentangle them. Ask them their names and why they’re here inside of me. Acknowledge their presence in my life and ALLOW THEM TO BE THERE. Take the time to sit with them, feel through them…. let them tell me whatever it is I need to know. And let them pass.
Time with myself makes me want to spend even MORE time alone. I’m at this point in my life where I feel like I’m finally starting to figure out who I really am. Not what’s been expected of me by our monogamous cisheteropatriarchal racist capitalist society. That version of life is too constricting, too hollow, too exclusionary.
Time with myself allows me to stretch and learn and grow and BLOOM.
And I feel like I’ve only just started.
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