• How to make a stinging nettle infusion!

    I’ve shared a bit on instagram about drinking nettle infusions every day and people have asked me to make a video about how to make it for themselves, so here you go!

    *I am not a doctor or healthcare professional, consult with them before starting any herbal remedies.*

    Stinging nettle (Urtica dioica) is good for your urinary, digestive, and immune systems, and is a natural antihistamine (so it helps with allergies!). It also contains iron, vitamins, minerals and other nutrients to support your overall health.

    I love nettle and I’ve been drinking it every day for several years (at least since 2016). I hope you like it too!

    Places I get dried nettle leaves: Mountain Rose Herbs (based in Oregon) and Red Moon Herbs (based in North Carolina).

  • FREE ARCHIVED BLOG & PHOTOSET

    I originally wrote this for Patreon on July 8, 10-12, 15, & 17 2016 during my first long distance road trip (to Colorado and Utah!). I no longer use Patreon and have replaced it with my website (here) but thought I would share some of my old blogs with you for FREE to show my appreciation for you visiting my website! <3

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    Wow, time has flown and so much has happened! We left at about 6am on Saturday. We drove 1575 miles in 32 hours. Two time zones over we arrived in Denver (Sunday). Before meeting up with the friends we’re staying with we went to Red Rocks, which was beautiful of course. We hung out with our friends on Monday. Tuesday we were going to hike to Lake Isabelle but about 1000 feet up the mountain my car’s alternator decided to die. We spent the rest of the day getting that fixed. Hooray. The place we took it to was wonderful and drove us to a nearby park while we waited for them to fix it. The park ended up being a locked fenced baseball field and it started raining soon after we got there. We jumped the fence and found an unlocked door which ended up being the electrical room. We hung out in there until the rain stopped then we chilled on the bleachers the rest of the time. Once the car was fixed we drove around Boulder for a bit. Wednesday/yesterday we drove to Rocky Mountain National Park and hiked about 5 or 6 miles on Timber Lake trail. We camped overnight and today we hiked over 10 miles from Green Mountain trail to Granite Falls. Omg we are so tired and sore! That was the longest hike we’ve ever done in one day. We took a few rolls of film yesterday and today and I’m looking forward to getting them developed!

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    We had to stop and get a few photos here yesterday on our way to Black Canyon of the Gunnison. We even got a couple of quick nudes on film! Black Canyon is so amazing. Photos and words cannot describe the enormity, magnificence, and wonder of this place. We took some landscapes and nudes (and the sunset!) and camped here last night. We got up early enough to shoot some sunrise nudes. I’m so anxious to see all this film!!! We just showered at a truck stop and are getting lunch before heading to Arches National Park!

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    We made it to Utah yesterday and spent the night next to the Colorado River. Camping in the canyon we could see so many stars! Tonight we’ll be camping in a different section of the canyon and getting up super early (again) for more sunrise nudes. Most of the nudes are on film but we’re trying to get some digital samples to share until we get the film developed.

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    We camped in the canyon again last night after our sunset hike/shoot at Dead Horse Point State Park. We’ve really been roughing it: living out of my car, sleeping in a tent, brushing our teeth at gas stations, wearing the same clothes 2 days in a row. I’ve actually really loved it even though some parts have been stressful. We don’t even know where we’re sleeping tonight yet! But that’s part of the adventure. 😊

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    Hi guys! I’m currently in the back of my car attempting to get some sleep while we drive through Amarillo and northern Texas on our way back home to Charlotte. I’m sad that our epic road trip is almost over but all good things must come to an end, right? I wasn’t able to post as much as I wanted while we were gone. I didn’t think beforehand that we would be mostly in national parks and therefore wouldn’t have much signal at all. But! Now that we’re on the road 4G is on and I’m able to post stuff to pass the time! Don’t worry, I won’t totally flood your patreon feed/email. I just want to share a couple more photos of the places we’ve been since I last posted. Once we get back home I’ll start taking batches of film to get developed and I’ll be able to share so much more from the trip! I have several rolls that I used to take landscapes that are earmarked to be doubled over with self portraits or a model so Colorado & Utah will show up on here for a while. Yay!

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    AD told me this bed was his new best friend. I don’t blame him, it was the first real bed we slept in in 2 weeks. Our last night we decided to splurge and stay at a bed & breakfast called Kelly Place outside of Mesa Verde National Park. One of the best decisions ever! It felt amazing to sleep in a bed and have an actual bathroom. The breakfast the next morning was delicious! This B&B is special because it’s also an archaeological site with ancient Puebloan kivas, pueblos, and other artifacts on the property. They give a booklet to all guests so they are able to do a self guided tour around the property and even encourage guests to enter the kivas! I have a video from inside one of the kivas that I’ll upload to the Smugmug once we get home. Kivas are ancient Puebloan sacred spaces that were used for religious and ceremonial purposes. They are circular underground rooms with a fire pit that you enter from above using a ladder. The thing that impressed me the most was the intricate way they stacked the logs for the roof. I don’t have a photo because it was too dark inside but wait for that video! I’ll be doing a lot of uploading this weekend after we get home.

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    Got home safe and sound yesterday! Our trip by the numbers:

    32 hours driving there
    5 national parks
    2 state parks
    33 miles hiking beautiful landscapes
    15 rolls of 35mm film
    5 nights with friends
    5 nights in a tent
    3 nights in a car
    1 night in a B&B
    42 hours driving back
    5100 total miles driven

    So sad that it’s over but glad to be home.

    All the images below were taken on film by Antisocialdisposition during our road trip.

    All members have access to this complete 82 image photoset by clicking here.

  • FREE ARCHIVED BLOG & PHOTOSET

    I originally wrote this for Patreon on June 30 2016. I no longer use Patreon and have replaced it with my website (here) but thought I would share some of my old blogs with you for FREE to show my appreciation for you visiting my website! <3

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    We’re leaving super early on Saturday morning! Probably something like 5 am. We’ll be driving for two days straight to get to our friend’s place in Denver. I’m so ready to be in the mountains exploring, hiking, creating. My wanderlust has just gotten more intense, pulling me toward unfamiliar landscapes. I am so ready to hit the road.

    The only thing is… we still have to pack! I’m working until 1 pm  so I’ll only have half of the day to finish getting ready to leave. We’re also making time at some point tomorrow to visit friends, one of which is about to move all the way across the country to Portland. Now we really have no reason to NOT visit the west coast, hopefully in the next year or so. I’ve been wanting to visit that side of the country for so long, it’s about time I finally made the trip out there. I’m gonna make it happen. Wanderlust. I has it.

    The above are all self portraits from a weekend in the NC mountains.

    The above images are double exposures I took of Roarie Yum on medium format film.

    All members have access to these complete photosets by clicking here and here.

  • FREE ARCHIVED BLOG & PHOTOSET

    I originally wrote this for Patreon on June 25 2016. I no longer use Patreon and have replaced it with my website (here) but thought I would share some of my old blogs with you for FREE to show my appreciation for you visiting my website! <3

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    A week from today we’ll be leaving for Colorado! I’m so so so excited. There will be lots of hiking and nature and photos. And driving. Lots of driving. It’s about a 24 hour drive to get there. We’ve turned the back of my little hatchback into a tiny bed so that we can switch off driving and sleeping. The goal is to get there as quickly as possible! But we might make some stops along the way to stretch our legs and walk around in cities we haven’t been to before. Who knows. It’s going to be an adventure! We really don’t have much planned other than what city or national park we’ll be in each day. I’m usually a super planner and have EVERYTHING planned, almost down to the hour. I’ve been changing a lot this year so I’m excited to make the plans as we go along. This is so not 2015 Bunny but 2016 Bunny is kinda scared and mostly thrilled. We’ll be staying with a friend in Denver and most likely camping/roughing it in the national parks. We might possibly get an airbnb or cheap hotel at some point. Anything is possible when you don’t have a solid plan!

    All members have access to these complete photosets by clicking here and here.

  • Double Exposures!!! <3

    I feel like I’m always talking about double exposures… well, probably because I am. I love them. They’re my favorite kind of image to create. They’re magickal. They’re serendipitous. They’re always a surprise and I love giving control to the universe.

    You might be wondering… what the heck is a double exposure?!

    A double exposure is when two (or more) images are taken on the same piece of film. When two (or more) images are superimposed to create a single image. A lot of people do this with photoshop or fancy apps now, but the kind of double exposures that *I* am always talking about are taken on FILM. Analogue. 35mm or medium format film. These are TRULY magickal to me.

    I took my first double exposure on accident, in a Holga camera (does anyone remember those?!). I took a photo, forgot to wind the film, and took another photo. The two images overlapped each other to create one single image! I was amazed and fell in love immediately.

    You mean I can take a photo of a landscape, and then take a photo of a person in a studio or an empty room or next to a tree, and the end result makes the person look like they’re IN the landscape?! THEY BECOME A PART OF THE LANDSCAPE?! Hell YES!!!

    If you know me or if you’ve followed me for any length of time, you know that I am ecosexual and that the earth, the environment, natural landscapes are where my heart is, where my SOUL is. The fact that I am able to take images that make it look like people BECOME A PART OF the environment makes me so incredibly happy. Being one with ferns, waterfalls as shimmering “clothes”, a crown of butterflies in flight.

    It’s important for me to show people that we are not separate from the earth, we are a part of it. We are all connected and this planet, our home, everything we’ve ever known, is the MOST IMPORTANT thing and needs to be loved, protected, cherished. I hope that my double exposures help people see that.

    Okay, enough explanation. The images will tell you more than I ever could with words.

    With Kyotocat in collaboration with Antisocialdisposition

    Kyotocat

    Pure Rebel

    Self portrait with Quinn Sanguine

    Roarie Yum

    Colorvibes & Swann

    Alf Posen

    Maya Tihtiyas

    Kat/Notrlygrace

    Maya Tihtiyas

    Karolina Von

    Rebby Kern

    With Tiffany Nacke in collaboration with Antisocialdisposition

    Hannah Elizabeth

    Rhivnnun

    Really magickal, right?! Now you know why I LOVE double exposures so much!

    I am in the process of creating a double exposure course with all of my tips and tricks for getting the most out of your double exposures! If you want to be the first to know when it’s available, join my mailing list (go to my home page, scroll all the way down, and enter your email!)

    Want to create your own but don’t know how and want to start RIGHT NOW?
    Guess what?! I took several rolls of landscapes while I was on my 2 month solo cross country trip that are READY TO GO for doubles!

    All you need to do is load one of these special one of a kind rolls into your 35mm camera and take photos! When you get them developed, your images will be double exposed with some of the landscapes that I took while I was traveling!

    I only have a few rolls available, so get one while they last! LIMITED TIME AVAILABILITY!
    If some of the rolls don’t sell before my birthday (November 30th) I’ll be gifting them to myself!

    Here are a few of the rolls available to give you an idea of what kind of images you can double over…

    I’m even doing a raffle for 2 of the rolls so you have a chance to get one for only $3.33!!!

    Raffles are until they sell out. Only 30 tickets, a 1/30 chance of winning!
    Several tickets have already been sold, get them while you can!

    CLICK HERE TO PURCHASE A ONE OF A KIND ROLL TO CREATE YOUR OWN DOUBLE EXPOSURES!

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  • My first YouTube video!

    I’ve been wanting to start a YouTube channel for MONTHS now and I finally uploaded my first video! It’s the IG Live that I did in August a week after I came home from my cross country trip! Click the photo above to watch the hour long video!

    It would mean the world to me if you subscribed to my channel! I plan to share a lot more videos on YouTube!

  • Summer 2019 Cross Country Road Trip

    OVERALL ROAD TRIP STATS

    -69 days on the road (ALL of June & July)
    -9 states visited
    -29 National Parks, National Monuments, and State Parks visited (+ many other natural areas)
    -10,000+ miles driven
    -41 nights spent in my van
    -20 nights spent with friends
    -7 nights spent in airbnbs
    -16 photoshoots as either the photographer or model
    -18 rolls of film taken of other people
    -20 rolls taken of landscapes for double exposures
    -29 self portrait sets taken
    -140 video blogs taken (I only missed 2 or 3 days the entire trip!)

    CLICK HERE TO VIEW ALL OF MY DAILY VIDEO BLOGS AND TRAVEL PHOTOS FOR FREE!!!

    I wrote weekly trip updates for my mailing list while I was on the road this summer. I’m going to share with you what I’ve already shared with them, that way you’ll have more details from when it all was fresh on my mind!

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    UPDATE 1

    I’m currently at Ignite! A small burn (think Burning Man but a LOT smaller – like 600 people) in the Virginia mountains. This is my second year in a row coming here. Last year was transformative and I’m excited to see what kind of experiences I have this time around!
    I get home from Ignite on Monday and I’ll have 3 days to unpack, do laundry, repack, say goodbye (for now) to loved ones, then I’m leaving on the 31st for my first solo cross country road trip!!!!
    I’ve been dreaming of visiting ALL of the National Parks for so long, and this summer I’m going to visit a BUNCH of them! First I’m heading straight over to Denver Colorado. I’ll be there for a day or two, then I’ll be off to Utah for a week or so before I make my way through California, Oregon, and Washington.
    I’ll be sending out regular updates so you can follow along on my journey!
    Here’s a list of the places I’m hoping to visit throughout June & July:
    McInnis Canyons
    Arches
    Canyonlands
    Dead Horse Point
    Capitol Reef
    Bryce Canyon
    Zion
     Castle Mountains
    Joshua Tree
    Sequoia
    Kings Canyon
    Death Valley
    Yosemite
    Lassen Volcanic
    Redwood
    Crater Lake
    North Cascades
    Mt Rainier
    Olympic
    I’ll be spending most of my time in June by myself in the desert. I’ll be taking a lot of self portraits, video blogs (vlogs), and creating courses (more on that soon!). I’ve never spent more than a week or so by myself so I’m really looking forward to getting to know myself better, and spending a LOT of time outdoors.
    In July I’ll be meeting up with creatives in Seattle and Portland, I’m so excited!
    Colorado National Mounument

    UPDATE 2

    My 2 month solo cross country road trip has officially begun! I left NC Friday the 31st and drove to southern Illinois, stayed with Tiffany Nacke for the night, photographed each other and hung out the next day, then I continued west and made it to Topeka Kansas late Saturday night. Sunday I drove all day and made it to Denver before sunset! I’m really proud of myself for making the trip from Charlotte NC to Denver CO in only 3 days. WHEW! 
    Monday I stayed with my new friend Singingsiren44 and on Tuesday we drove into the Rockies and took photos in the mountain wilderness. On Wednesday I drove to Colorado National Monument, stayed the night, and explored more on Thursday (and almost got in big trouble with a park ranger but I am privileged and LUCKY AS FUCK and didn’t). After the ranger incident I decided to go ahead and head to MY FAVORITE PLACE ON EARTH Moab Utah. I’ve been here since Thursday evening and I’m SOOOO happy to be here again. I’ve taken 11 self portrait sets (10 of them in 1 day), visited Canyonlands, Arches, Dead Horse Point, Castle Valley, and the La Sal Mountains.
    Yesterday and today I’m relaxing because I’ve been going non-stop and need a break!
    I’m making daily vlogs about my travels, click here to watch them! (And find out more about the park ranger situation haha)

    Dead Horse Point State Park

    UPDATE 3

    I’m on day 22 of my road trip and whoa… out in Southern Utah amongst several National Parks it’s pretty difficult to find reliable internet and facilities. It’s been nice being semi off the grid (sometimes I get 4G on my phone so I can post to IG, answer emails etc), but now I have a BUNCH of computer work to do and there aren’t a ton of places to do it. I’ve been able to find showers and laundry easier than I’ve been able to find places with free wifi. Small town coffee shops so far have worked best for me, but they’re not in every town.
    I’ve been having a wonderful time exploring so many bucket list places since my last update: Goblin Valley, Capitol Reef, Grand Staircase – Escalante, Bryce Canyon, Zion, Valley of Fire, and Red Rock Canyon. I took a bunch of self portraits at Goblin Valley, Bryce Canyon, and Valley of Fire and I’m so excited to look through them!
    I’m currently in Vegas, even though I originally planned to skip it entirely. I’d rather be in nature than in big cities, but my body and mind needed a BREAK and I found a great airbnb for pretty cheap, so I’m here for 2 nights and it’s WONDERFUL. I took a SHOWER for the first time in a week, I did LAUNDRY, I’m sleeping in a bed that’s not in the back of my van for the first time in 2 weeks. It feels so gooooooooooood to be in a climate controlled house, in a big bed, on my computer getting stuff done. Also relaxing. Bigtime relaxing. Doing heavy emotional work on myself. Celebrating the fact that I still have over a month of road trip adventure left on this trip and I’ve listened to myself and my BODY when I needed a break from the constant go go go.
    If I can find a place to work for like, one day a week, I feel wayyyyy less stressed. I have a lot of stuff I can do on my phone with 4G, but there’s a LOT of stuff that I need my laptop and wifi to do, like this newsletter and uploading videos etc and if I wait for over a week to do anything I start to get really stressed out because I see the work piling up on me. I am here and being productive and also RESTING and RELAXING at the same time and ohhhhhh it feels great. <3

    I’ve continued to make at least one vlog every day so you can follow along on my journey, click here for the entire gallery of videos! There’s a LOT.


    Valley of Fire State Park


    UPDATE 4

    Officially one month on the road and I’m exhausted, but very happy.
    Since my last update I…
    -Spent a few days at an amazing Airbnb in Joshua Tree with some friends and made some AWESOME art (coming soon to my website!)
    -Got a stick n poke tattoo
    -Spent an afternoon in Joshua Tree National Park
    -Spent 2 days driving through and exploring Sequoia and Kings Canyon National Parks (holy shit Sequoias are huge and old, wow such energy)
    -Spent 3.5 days driving north through the Eastern Sierras, visiting Alabama Hills, Sabrina Lake, Mammoth Lakes, June Lake, Silver Lake, Mono Lake, and Lake Tahoe
    -Had a few days of freaking out because I took the saniderm off of my tattoo too early (late night bad decision that I REGRET), and was scared that I got it infected which turned into me feeling like I’m not taking care of myself and like I’m a failure (it’s healing better now but I’ll probably need to get it touched up)
    -Learned that I should probably not get tattoos while on the road
    -Had my first experience since being on the road of having trouble finding a place to sleep… a couple nights ago I went to FIVE different places before finally settling down at the SIXTH place. Drove around for an hour and a half trying to find a place I felt safe to sleep. Whew. Glad that’s only happened once so far.
    -Spent a lot of time next to rivers, lakes, and waterfalls. If you’re ever at Lake Tahoe I HIGHLY recommend Eagle Falls! It gets busy really fast so go early morning!
    -Decided to skip Yosemite because the main road into the park doesn’t open until after the timeframe I’ve planned to be in that area. Plus, I believe Yosemite deserves more of my time than just 2 days. I want to come back next year for at least a week. Apparently there’s a Vipassana center there?! I REALLY want to do a Vipassana and OMG how amazing would it be to do one in YOSEMITE?!
    -Am FINALLY spotting on day 45 of my cycle!!!! Last time I went on a road trip my body did this… waited a LONG time before bleeding. I guess it’s the extra stress on my body from all the traveling.
    July is when ALL THE THINGS happen! I spent pretty much all of June completely by myself, but July is when I’m being hosted by model friends, having a bunch of photoshoots, and hopefully doing even more hiking!
    I serendipitously scheduled myself to be in Portland on the same weekend as the Oregon County Fair and I’ve heard about how amazing it is so I plan to go at some point during that weekend. =]

    I’m currently at an airbnb outside of Reno for the weekend so I can do a TON of computer work, shower, and DO LAUNDRYYYYYYY! Clean sheets and wifi are such a luxury.


    Joshua Tree National Park


    UPDATE 5

    Since my last email I’ve visited Lassen Volcanic National Park, Arcata CA, Redwoods National & State Parks, and (briefly) Eugene OR. I had an overnight camping and half day shoot adventure with a photographer in Lassen, which was a trip! I was NOT expecting it to be as cold or for THAT MUCH SNOW to still be on the ground! There were sections of the park that were still under about 6 feet of snow… IN JULY! A couple of lakes were still ice and snow covered, with just the tiniest bit of BRIGHT BLUE water peeking out underneath. The campground we stayed at was not in the snowy area (thank goodness) but there was definitely a fair amount of snow still on the ground in the forest nearby. Lassen was definitely on the more extreme side of landscapes to model in. I scraped my body up posing on sharp pine needles, rough tree bark, and even inside of a burnt-out tree!
    I spent a couple days with friends in Arcata CA, and I fell in LOVE! <3 They live NEXT TO A REDWOOD FOREST so of course I took a walk in the forest every day I was there. It was incredible, I wish I lived close to a space like that. Ferns as tall as I am, clovers as big as my palm, and Redwoods towering above. It’s magickal in there. Not only is Arcata beautiful forest-wise, but it’s also only a few minutes away from the Pacific Coast. They took me to Moonstone beach and my first time seeing/touching the Pacific ocean did NOT disappoint. There were huge rocks, lush green caves, and TIDE POOLS! My first time seeing tide pools, too… such a beautiful mini-ecosystem.
    After I left Arcata I went through Redwoods National & State Parks, Prairie Creek Redwoods State Park, and Jedidiah Smith Redwoods State Park. I spent most of the day driving through groves of enormous trees and happened to park at the trailhead for Big Tree which is 286 feet tall, over 23 feet in diameter, and estimated to be about 1500 years old. All of the parks were wonderful, but I think my favorite was Howland Hill Road through Jedidiah Smith. It’s a really narrow 2 way dirt road that’s 10 miles long and takes you through a big chunk of the park and has lots of places to stop along the road. There are a few places where the massive trees are growing so close together that only one vehicle can get through at a time. I did part of the Boy Scout Tree trail which was GORGEOUS, but it was almost sunset and I ran out of time to walk the whole trail. I definitely want to go back and spend more time there in the future.
    I just got to Portland (after a very brief stop in Eugene for food and sleep), and I’m in a coffee shop getting some computer work done until I can meet my friend at his place after he gets off work. I have an exciting few days coming up! I have a half day shoot with a photographer outdoors somewhere, and the next day I have a modelographer group shoot at a nude beach! AHHHH so excited!

    As always, I have lots of new daily travel vlogs for you to watch! click here


    Columbia River Gorge

    UPDATE 6

    Oregon is GORGEOUS, y’all!
    I’ve spent the last several days here in Portland and I’m LOVING IT! I’ve had a shoot every day, including the nude beach gathering group shoot a few days ago which was SUPER FUN! By the end we had a naked cuddle pile of 8 people on the beach while a photographer photographed us with their drone! AHHH! I am SO EXCITED to see all of the images from that day, I got a sneak peek of the drone shots and OMGGGG <3
    If you’re ever in Portland and want to see lots of gorgeous nature stuff, go to the Columbia River Gorge area. Just… wow. I’ve spent 2 days there this week and I’m in LOVE. Beaches, waterfalls, forests, mountains… it’s all there.

    I’m heading to Seattle soon for another week full of photoshoots. I’m meeting up with some friends I’ve shot with before and also meeting several new people I’ve followed for a long time, so I’m looking forward to creating lots of art. As always. =]


    Mt Rainier National Park

    UPDATE 7

    I’ve been spending the last 2 weeks with a shoot just about every day, and they’ve all been wonderful! The shoot that I’m most excited to tell you about is the nude beach group shoot I organized outside of Portland.
    None of us knew everyone, most of us knew one or two people, and some of us had never even met anyone… and we all came together with creativity and love. We spent a decent amount of time just hanging out at first, then once most of us were there we all got in a circle and introduced ourselves and said what we could contribute to the group (photographer, model, assistant, BTS etc). I led us through a really short group meditation, then we talked about what we all wanted to do first, made some vague plans, then started shooting! The group morphed and changed, smaller groups broke off from the whole, people moved from group to group, and by the end of the day we had an 8 person nude cuddle pile while Jake took drone shots of us from above!

    It was an incredible experience and now I’m more excited than ever to start planning more in-person creative gatherings.


    Glacier National Park

    UPDATE 8

    Holy moly why have I never made a trip to Montana or Wyoming before?! It’s GORGEOUS here!!!
    Since my last newsletter, I’ve spent a decent amount of time in Glacier National Park, Yellowstone National Park, and Grand Tetons National Park! After I was in Tacoma for about a week, I went back to Portland for another last minute shoot, then I headed East for the first time in about 2 months. I drove from Portland to Glacier, spent a couple nights there, then a couple nights in Yellowstone, drove through some of Grand Teton, and now I’m in Thermopolis WY staying with friends of the family for a couple nights. I’m doing as much computer stuff as I can today while I have wifi, and this evening I’ll probably go check out the hot springs in town! I’ve been near a lot of hot springs on this trip but I have yet to get in one… hopefully I’ll have experienced a natural hot spring for myself before my next newsletter!
    I probably won’t be doing these newsletters every week (like I have been) once I’m back home because I won’t have as much to talk about. I plan on locking myself in the house and going through the THOUSANDS of photos I’ve taken on this cross country adventure and getting them ready to share with members of my website. I’ll probably do newsletters every 2 weeks or once a month in the future.
    *If you follow my instagram and watch my stories regularly, you’ve probably seen that I’ve been going through a lot of emotional stuff lately. I made a really vulnerable vlog about what’s going on with me personally that’s in there with my other daily vlogs. If you’re curious what’s been going on with me, that video explains it really well.*

    click here for the daily travel vlogs I’ve been making for this trip!


    Yellowstone National Park

    UPDATE 9

    I got home on August 7th after 69 days on the road. This is by far the longest trip I have ever been on, and the longest time I’ve been on my own in my entire life. It changed my life, honestly. I now enjoy spending time by myself, and look forward to it! I never wanted to be alone before. I care even LESS what people think of me, which is really awesome because now I have a lot more room in my brain for much better things like what I want to eat and where I want to explore next! haha
    I have complete faith in myself that no matter what life throws at me, I can handle it. It might be hard and uncomfortable, but I am capable. I have a large support system of wonderful family and friends and if I should falter, I know they will help pick me back up. I am so grateful.
    Since July 1st….
     I’ve visited: Lake Tahoe, Lassen Volcanic, Arcata, Redwood, Portland, Tacoma, Mt Rainier, Bainbridge Island, Olympia, Glacier, Yellowstone, Grand Teton, Thermopolis, and Bloomington! (California, Oregon, Washington, Montana, Wyoming, Illinois)
    I had 13 photoshoots. I organized a nude beach gathering with 8 other people. I went to 2 different nude beaches. I drove over 5000 miles. I stayed with friends for 20 nights and slept in my van 17 nights.
    I saw the Pacific ocean for the first time, saw tidepools for the first time, and had my first natural hot spring experience!
    I became single, by choice, for basically the first time in my life. I’ve learned that solo polyamory and relationship anarchy feel the best for me in terms of relationship at this point in my life.

    Now I have 18 rolls of film to get developed… OH MY GOSH I’ll have SO MUCH to share with members of my website once I get all of my photos back and in order! I so look forward to sharing all of this wonderful nude art!!!

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    Arches National Park

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    Hey yall! I just got home from modeling in my favorite abandoned house for a local photographer Bryan. Sadly we didn’t have enough time for me to take any self portraits but I’m going to share some with you from the archives from when I was there in October. =]

    This place has changed more since October than it ever has in the several years I’ve been going there. Some other people have found it and it seems like they’ve done some partying. They busted out all of the rest of the windows and shattered the remaining mirrors. They’ve put graffiti on the walls and this place has never had graffiti until now. They were creepy with a giant stuffed snake that they hung on the wall and put graffiti all around… this stuffed snake is like 12 foot long and they have the head hung about 8 feet off the ground in one of the bedrooms. It’s this weird stuffed “sculpture” thing that’s taller than me with the tail dragging on the ground. That was the worst part about all the changes the house has gone through since I’ve been there.  I know it’s a dirty old abandoned house but they didn’t have to ruin it with graffiti that says “I love xanax more than my parents” and a giant stuffed snake nailed to the wall. So much disrespect. I guess it just bothers me because I know how nice the house was a couple of years ago. I can’t expect it to stay the same forever though, that would be unreasonable and naive. At least I have photos from it’s “better” days when a peacock lived there, the mirrors were still intact, and only a few of the windows were broken. Yes, I just said a peacock lived there. We saw it!! (Once, when I went there with Sarah Voss, J.Noxious, and antisocialdisposition). There are still some feathers scattered around the house.

    Oh, I got my hair dyed purple & blue! I love it so much and really want to dye it ALL purple/blue but my day job won’t let me. I’m going to work on my manager though… I think I might hopefully be able to convince her to let me dye all of it. =D

    Self portraits from the archives at my favorite abandoned house:

    All of those windows are shattered now. Including 3 of the 4 skylights.

    There’s broken glass in this ivy now.

    The single garage door is gone now. Sorry, I’m totally a little bothered by these people ruining this place.

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    I experimented with rope again the other night and really like the results! I did a self tied body harness that I just made up, it was pretty fun. I’m practicing more with rope now, I really enjoy it. I’ve always been interested in rope and #dancingbearsvacay intensified my interest. I did a couple of harnesses on my sister Kitty (edit 8/20/19 she now goes by Gemini) yesterday too! I’ve made a new folder in the galleries where I’ll put all the photos from my rope practice on others. =]

    Antisocialdisposition and I are taking a 2 week trip to Colorado at the beginning of July!!! We’re going to Denver, Rocky Mountain National Park, Black Canyon of the Gunnison National Park, Arches National Park (Utah), and Mesa Verde National Park. Lots of photos and videos and hiking and camping and edibles will be happening, I am so stoked! While we’re gone I definitely still plan on posting content on here but it will most likely be only a couple of photos at a time since I’ll be posting from my phone. I will be posting more frequently than my normal once a week since the posts will be smaller. Look for a couple of huge posts after we get back and I get all the film developed!

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    I’ve been changing my mind a lot lately because I’m scared I’m making the wrong decision. I hastily decided a few months ago that I wanted to go back to school and finally get a bachelor’s degree. I did all the paperwork and whatnot, signed up for financial aid, went to open house, started thinking about where I would want to go for study abroad….

    And today I’m cancelling all of it. My husband AD is currently a full time student taking on about 10k in loans per year and I am the one paying the bills. I no longer enjoy my job and it is so stressful sometimes I come home and just cry. Or I’ll be in such a sour mood when I come home I won’t want to do anything but bitch and complain and he doesn’t deserve that, he’s working hard too, just on calculus and physics homework and stressing out about his new research position.  I rushed into my decision to go back to school without putting a lot of thought into it, I just wanted to escape my stressful day job and make a major change. When we actually looked at our finances and how much we were about to be in debt I just couldn’t justify going back to school. That stressful job I have has amazing benefits and I have a steady paycheck. I’m going to stay but keep an eye out for a different job within the company. Or outside of the company, who knows. I’m still ready for a major change, I just don’t know what that change is yet. We are moving to a different apartment in November, maybe that will be the major change that I need. I think I need more of a change than that, but it’s at least a start.

    I got approved for 2 weeks of vacation in July so we’re going to make the most of it and go on a big trip. We’ve talked a lot about where we’re going to go and I think we’ve decided on Colorado. Unless I change my mind again. I don’t think I will but we’ll see.

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