I originally wrote this for Patreon on June 12 2016. I’m planning on switching everything over from Patreon to my website (here) over the next few months and thought I would share some of my old blogs with you for FREE to show my appreciation for you visiting my website! <3
I experimented with rope again the other night and really like the results! I did a self tied body harness that I just made up, it was pretty fun. I’m practicing more with rope now, I really enjoy it. I’ve always been interested in rope and #dancingbearsvacay intensified my interest. I did a couple of harnesses on my sister Kitty (edit 8/20/19 she now goes by Gemini) yesterday too! I’ve made a new folder in the galleries where I’ll put all the photos from my rope practice on others. =]
Antisocialdisposition and I are taking a 2 week trip to Colorado at the beginning of July!!! We’re going to Denver, Rocky Mountain National Park, Black Canyon of the Gunnison National Park, Arches National Park (Utah), and Mesa Verde National Park. Lots of photos and videos and hiking and camping and edibles will be happening, I am so stoked! While we’re gone I definitely still plan on posting content on here but it will most likely be only a couple of photos at a time since I’ll be posting from my phone. I will be posting more frequently than my normal once a week since the posts will be smaller. Look for a couple of huge posts after we get back and I get all the film developed!
The complete sets have 49 images (with rope) and 40 images (without rope), I’m sharing 14 of my faves here with you.
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I originally wrote this for Patreon on April 24 2016. I’m planning on switching everything over from Patreon to my website (here) over the next few months and thought I would share some of my old blogs with you for FREE to show my appreciation for you visiting my website! <3
There are lots of changes coming up for me, the soonest being getting rid of a huge bookshelf and cutting my hair. My mom is on her way here now to help me load up the giant bookshelf and take it to my sister and tomorrow I’m getting a lot of my hair chopped off. It’ll be the shortest it’s ever been and I’m both excited and scared. I just finished up my last self portrait shoot before getting my hair cut so of course I had to incorporate the now-empty bookshelf. Tomorrow I’ll be lighter, one less piece of furniture and a lot less hair. I’m taking a couple of small steps toward the major changes that are going to take place this year: going back to college, possibly (most likely) quitting my desk job, and moving. I’m changing and learning and growing. I’m looking forward to everything that’s going to happen this year.
Little did I know I didn’t actually end up going back to school and DID end up at another job I didn’t like that much… but not all plans work out like we think they will!
This self portrait photoset from April 2016 has 70 images total, but I’m just sharing 20 of my faves. =] This is the photoset/bookshelf I mentioned in the blog!
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This blog post was originally shared to patreon on April 15 2016. I’m in the process of moving everything from patreon over here to my website, and thought I’d share this with you for FREE as my way of saying thank you for visiting my site! <3
Happy Friday! Things are usually too hectic for me to be able to post more than once a week but yay a Friday with less going on! I thought I’d share some fun facts with you:
- Modeling for figure drawing groups/classes is super fun. Especially if I’m able to model with antisocialdisposition like in this drawing!
- I’m a vegetarian, but a new vegetarian. I only started in September. It really wasn’t much of a change for me though since I never ate much meat anyway.
- I have a cool scar next to my left eye from when I was 2 and jumping on the bed instead of taking a nap like I was supposed to and fell off landing on the bed frame with my face. I needed a bunch of stitches and I’m super lucky I didn’t fall any further down because otherwise I’d be a cyclops right now.-I like scars and their stories. What’s your coolest scar?
- I’ve only moved 3 times in my entire life, once when I was 2 or 3 so it doesn’t count, and twice within the past 4 years.
- Moving sucks.
- This Indian food I’m eating right now is delicious.
- I plan on getting a Harry Potter tattoo sleeve when I have the money for it.
- Thanks to aerial silks I can do 6 pull ups in a row.
- The first time I’ve ever been able to do a pull up was within the past 6 months. Lady muscles! Yeah!
- I’m going back to college in the fall and should have more time for photos and traveling and exploring!
- I already have 2 associate degrees.
- I have a younger sister named Kitty. People always thought we were twins when we were little. We’re pretty sure we’re Irish Twins. I’m only a year and a half older than her.
- I believe in energy and it’s healing powers.
- I do not believe in god. I have never believed in god for as long as I can remember.
- I carry 5 stones with me every day. They’re always different ones, whichever I feel are the ones I should have for that day.
- I used to squat down and watch ants scurrying across the ground when I was a kid.
- I still do sometimes.
Several of those ^^ facts above are no longer accurate, but it’s fun to see where I was in life over 3 years ago…
Enjoy this self portrait photoset I took in October 2014!
This blog was originally posted to patreon on April 10th 2016. I am currently in the process of moving everything from patreon over here to my website, because I don’t trust patreon to continue to allow me to have nude content, but here on my website I have COMPLETE CONTROL. I’m hoping to have everything moved over by the end of the year. =]
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I’ve been thinking today about how much I love exploring and remembering all the wonderful places I’ve been. I’ve clambered up a mountain and climbed down waterfalls to find the perfect little pool in which to photograph a new friend. I’ve been soot-covered in a burned down abandoned house in which I found a death certificate from 20 years ago. I’ve spent 10 minutes just walking around a mansion to see every room, most of which were named after a spice or herb. It was large enough to need 2 staircases and had the most beautiful tree outside the front door, leaves bright yellow in October. I’ve continuously returned to the big abandoned house owned by a peacock and frequented by geese. I’ve been sunburned from not realizing how long I had been taking self portraits in a quarry within walking distance of my apartment. I’ve ran back home after a whirlwind shoot in the quarry right before a thunderstorm started. I’ve been to an abandoned 3 story college with an enormous & prominent staircase on the first floor, all of the giant windows completely broken and gone. I climbed the crooked beams at the back of the college which were mangled as a result of a fire.
I’m so thankful for these and many other amazing unmentioned places I’ve visited. Don’t even get me started on how lucky I am to have met so many fantastic people. =] <3
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I originally wrote this for Patreon on April 4 2016. I’m planning on switching everything over from Patreon to my website (here) over the next few months and thought I would share some of my old blogs with you for FREE to show my appreciation for you visiting my website! <3
Okay, so I hardly ever post anything personal on tumblr or instagram (or any social media for that matter) but I thought I would share more here with you guys. If this is something you’ve been wanting, yay! If not… I guess let me know? Hopefully you’d like to know more about me since you support my photography & modeling & whatnot.
Anyway, on to personal stuff… I had my IUD removed today and replaced it with a different kind. I’ve been at home ever since with cramps and just generally not feeling great or motivated. Thankfully I’m not working today so that’s helped. I had a Skyla IUD which slowly releases small amounts of a progestin hormone into my uterus. Sadly (and embarrassingly) it took me 2 years to realize that this has to be the source of some of the health issues that started in June/July 2014. I got Skyla in March 2014. Coincidence? I don’t think so. Why didn’t I make the correlation sooner?! My body suddenly had more hormones in it than ever, of course it freaked out.
As of today I’ve switched to ParaGuard, which is a non-hormonal IUD that is just as effective in preventing pregnancy. I expect to start seeing an improvement in my health in the next few months. It was really nice not having a period for 2 years but I’ll take menstruation over health issues any day.
I took this self portrait set in November 2014!
- In 1 month on the road I’ve:-driven over 4500 miles-visited 18 National Parks, National Monuments, and State Parks-visited 4 different states (Colorado, Utah, Nevada, California)-taken 5 showers-spent 24 nights sleeping in my van-spent 5 nights in airbnbs-spent 2 nights hosted by a friend-shot 15 rolls of landscapes for double exposures (MORE ON THESE SOON!!)-shot 28 self portrait sets (holy shit I counted just now and didn’t realize I’d taken that many already wowwww)-made 86 daily travel vlogs (for you to watch for free! see below!)-made 26 videos with my digital camera-made hundreds of videos with my cell phone
Now that I’ve put all of this info together I feel SUPER pleased about how much I’ve accomplished. Wow. And to think I was feeling some kinda way about productivity earlier this month… pshhhh.
All of my relaxing or “doing nothing” time is ALSO time that *all the things* are in the process of being done. Things need to marinate sometimes. I cultivate my creative energy by doing things for ME, and the BEST time to create is when I am filled with creative energy, wouldn’t you agree?!
Wow, I’m really typing this to remind myself more than anything. I have such a tendency to push myself to work and check things off to do lists that it’s easy to put myself last. I can talk all day about self care and the importance of doing things for yourself, just because… but when it comes to myself sometimes I forget.
This trip has really helped me remember the importance of just… laying in the grass. Climbing rocks. Crying next to a river. Sitting between two massive trees and watching the wind in their crowns.
We as a society tend to go and do and think about what’s next and and and
I’m catching myself speeding up, feeling more inadequate, more anxious, in my head too much when I’m looking at screens a lot of the day.
There’s been a new kind of anxiety of not knowing when I’ll have internet again, or even phone service because of some of the remote landscape locations I’m visiting. But it’s SO FREEING at the same time.
I have my own full attention. No notifications from the computer in my pocket.
The relief of being completely alone.
I am able to see more details, like the little bird flitting around under the bush, the secret little nook in the hollow of a tree, or the way the light shines through the trees in just the right way to see a spider web high above.
This is my reminder to come back to myself.
This trip is showing me how to just BE with myself. I so often avoid introspection because I have a hard time disentangling my thoughts and feelings and I don’t usually know how to explain what I’m feeling or why. It’s easier to just fill my schedule with tons of things to do so that I don’t have to sit with myself.
That’s made my thoughts and feelings just get more confused and intense and it’s time. Time for me to sit with them. Disentangle them. Ask them their names and why they’re here inside of me. Acknowledge their presence in my life and ALLOW THEM TO BE THERE. Take the time to sit with them, feel through them…. let them tell me whatever it is I need to know. And let them pass.
Time with myself makes me want to spend even MORE time alone. I’m at this point in my life where I feel like I’m finally starting to figure out who I really am. Not what’s been expected of me by our monogamous cisheteropatriarchal racist capitalist society. That version of life is too constricting, too hollow, too exclusionary.
Time with myself allows me to stretch and learn and grow and BLOOM.
And I feel like I’ve only just started.
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