I’ve realized I haven’t shared a lot of videos with the public, probably because I want to share them on social media but CAN’T because they’re nude. I’ll just share them here instead, where I don’t have to censor them. It brings me a lot of joy to be able to look back at these moments, to experience them again + again. Enjoy this random assortment of behind the scenes videos from photoshoots throughout the years! ❤
First up, me + Mommy taking self portraits in the shower to recreate my earliest memory. (Click here if trouble viewing) And my favorite photo from that shoot…
Next video is from a creative day with AnaloguePapi + Rhivnnun (Click here if trouble viewing) My favorite image from that shoot:
This video is from the nude gathering I facilitated outside of Portland Oregon in July 2019!!!
(Click here if trouble viewing) My favorite image from that day:
From my most recent photoshoot (in June 2021!), with Rachel + Hendrix, where I double exposed them with landscapes from Zion. (Click here if trouble viewing) My favorite image from this shoot!!! Members of my website have access to all the full length videos + photosets. Members are the reason I’m able to create in the first place! THANK YOU!
NEW PHOTOS, WHAAAAT?! I’m actually doing a few photoshoots + seeing PEOPLE again?!
It feels kinda weird, + I need a lot of along time before + after, but/and I’ve really been enjoying slowly + intentionally beginning to put myself out there creatively again. Very selectively choosing when I’m available to others + when I need time for myself. Not pushing or striving, just going with the flow. I’ve really been leaning into slowness + rest + it feels good!
• a nude vlog
• 2 photosets
• 4 behind the scenes videos
I wanted to at least share SOME of these wonderful images with EVERYONE!!!
I am continuously reminded of the importance of connection.
Connection with self, loved ones, community, nature, + spirit.
I hope these images help you visualize connection + remind you of the ways we are all interconnected. ❤
Rachel + Hendrix double exposed with Zion
Meredith lakeside at a nature preserve
CAPTION FOR VIDEO ABOVE:
Hi friends! It’s been a little bit since I’ve done a video blog thing so I’m here to do that and say hi. I actually have a photoset to share with you that I took with Prana. She was traveling + was in NC + I was like “hey I’m in Charlotte if you’re in the area feel free to come visit me it’d be awesome to hang out + meet you in person!” She met me + she came to my house + we hung out + took some photos together. I have a couple rolls of landscapes that I hadn’t doubled over yet, so she picked out her favorite + we shot a whole roll of doubles + I love how they came out so much!
We did the photoshoot here in the back yard. We hung a black blanket from the fence right here + did the whole photoshoot here in a makeshift studio in my backyard. It was amazing! I’m sooooo happy with how the photos came out. We doubled her over images of Bryce Canyon + Zion + they’re amazing! I’m sure you can see how amazing they are by scrolling down because I’m sharing a few samples of the roll with you. I’m sharing the entire roll with all of the members of my website so you can see all 37 images from the shoot. And the behind the scenes videos! We took video while we were shooting so you can see how we hang out + talk + interact + stuff during a shoot! Yay! You can see what the setup was too, literally I was right over here.
I don’t want to be in the sun too long because I don’t have sunscreen on but I wanted to be outside because light. I just wanted to share these photos with you + to tell you how awesome Prana is! We just hung out in my back yard all day, we took 1 roll of film + then after that we just laid on a blanket + chatted. She took self portraits here + we just hung out, it was great. It was so relaxing + enjoyable. I laughed + smiled a whole lot so it was great. Yeahhhh I don’t think that’s… I have really anything else to tell you right now. But yeah I just wanted to share this photoset with you, because I think it’s awesome + I think you’ll like them too.
Samples below if you want to see some of my faves + if you want to see ALL of the photos members can click the links underneath those photos to go straight to the gallery + to see the behind the scenes video, yay!!!
I believe Prana is also sharing all of this on her patreon, so I’ll link to her patreon in the caption below so you can check out her patreon too (CLICK HERE!!!) She takes incredible self portraits…. I don’t know if you can hear that? *helicopter flying overhead* Very loud helicopter.
But yeah Prana takes amazing self portraits + she travels a decent amount, so you can see her self portraits from her travels + they’re incredible + amazing. I really love how she uses self portraiture as a way to heal + to be in her body when it’s hard to be in her body. I very much appreciate that + admire her ability to do that. So yeah, go check out her work, it’s amazing. I hope you enjoy these photos. Have a great day! Mwah!
CAPTION FOR THE VIDEO ABOVE:
Hi friends! I just wanted to quickly come on here and show you my face. Hiiii I’m alive! And also share with you a photoset that I actually took really recently, last weekend May 2nd. My friend Karolina Von (I’ll link her information below because you should totally be following her on her website) she’s currently pregnant and she’s due in July and we took some double exposures of her with Glacier National Park. I think they’re absolutely gorgeous.
I’m so humbled and thankful that she trusted me with her ever-changing body and her safety and her image for these photos. So super wonderful. I always love spending time with her. We’ve created together 4 or 5 times, she doesn’t live super far away, she lives less than an hour away from here so we’ve created together several times. You can see a bunch of our work together in the directory, in my archives. This time we took pictures of her while she’s pregnant and they’re double exposures so of course I love them, because doubles are my favorite. I just wanted to share this photoset with you. It’s the entire roll of film, all 37 images, I’m sharing the whole thing with you. I haven’t edited them at all, it’s just as they were taken. I’m pretty excited and I think they’re wonderful.
What else do I want to say? I don’t want to say too much because I know I have the nude gathering tomorrow and posts going out about that and stuff so I don’t want to overwhelm you with too many posts. I just wanted to come on here and share this photoset with you and say hi and I love you.
If you’re new here, I only do photos every once in a while. It used to be a regular thing but it’s not anymore. I’m shifting away from doing photography and modeling stuff and going more into the community events and queer resources and peer support kind of things so if you’re here for regular new images and videos and stuff from me you might be a little disappointed because those will come sporadically.
I have like literal thousands of photos and videos in my archives for you to enjoy. It will take you a really really long time to get through all of them because there’s so many, there’s over 17,000 photos and over 2,000 videos so there’s no shortage of content to enjoy.
I’m also like… if I force myself to create on a strict regular basis, like I have to create something once a week or whatever, then it ends up being me creating things because I feel like I HAVE to instead of me creating things because I’m excited and WANTING to and inspired to, and yall deserve the kind of content that I’m really excited about making instead of the content that I feel forced to make. It’s best for all of us if I’m not forcing myself to continually make something new all the time, because nobody needs that. We need time to rest and to shift gears and change and transform and yeah… so I’m giving that to myself and I hope that you give that to yourself.
I hope you enjoy this photoset because I think it is INCREDIBLE. *mwah*
I’m going to post a few samples below and then also the link to see the whole gallery of it so, yay enjoy! Thanks for being here! I LOVE YOU! *mwah*
I was sharing memes on instagram that included nude images but deleted them all when ig did their most recent update to the terms of service because I was scared of getting my account deleted AGAIN. My original account with 22.6k followers got deleted in October 2018 and I never got it back, so I really would like that to NOT happen again.
I still love the memes that I made and want to share them, so here are some of the ones that I used to have on my ig before I deleted them!
Started bleeding yesterday during the full moon so HERE COME THE MENSTRUATION MEMES!
Almost any time I’m in a group of people with vulvas, at some point we end up talking about menstruation and I LOVE IT. I realize that a LOT of menstruators didn’t have a positive education or role model to teach them about their cycle so I want to normalize menstruation and discussions around it.
I’ve heard some horror stories about how folks first learned about menstruation and I don’t want anyone to have to go through a traumatic experience their first or 30th or 100th time having their period. Our bodies do this wonderful magical thing every month and we all deserve to be able to AT LEAST talk about it with each other and have resources available to us ABOUT OUR OWN BODIES!
Do you have a menstruation story you want to share? I’ll go first and share my story of my first time bleeding in the comments.
My first period: I was in 4th grade (yeah I started really young) and I was at the park with my mom and sister. I went to the bathroom to pee and when I wiped I saw BLOOD. At first I was scared but then I remembered that Mommy bleeds sometimes and that it’s a normal thing for some peoples bodies to do. When I left the bathroom I told my mom about it and she told me this was a special time in my life and that it means I’m growing up. After we went home, she took me out to eat, just me and her. She made me a bracelet to commemorate that time in my life, and she helped me with period products so I’d be prepared and not accidentally make a mess in my clothes. I realize that not everyone has positive “I just started my period for the first time” experiences, but I am so thankful that I was able to have these conversations with my mom.
Photo: Liam Woods / Portraitmami
Model/meme: me, Bunny Luna
It’s important for me to talk about gender in conversations about menstruation, because I’ve seen a lot of transphobic discourse around this topic.
There are women who do not menstruate (for a variety of reasons), and there are menstruators who are not women (myself included).
An incomplete list of women who do not menstruate: trans women, women who have had hysterectomies, women who have gone through menopause, some intersex folks.
An incomplete list of menstruators who are not women: trans men, some non binary folks, some intersex folks.
Menstruation is something that impacts people of many genders, so when talking about menstruation please make sure you’re doing it in a way that’s inclusive.
Photo: Liam Woods / Portraitmami
Model/meme: me, Bunny Luna
I have more to say about this than there is room in an ig caption, so here’s a list of thoughts…
-menstrual blood has healing powers
-menstrual blood is not “dirty” or “gross”, it is literally used to GROW A HUMAN BABY. If that’s not powerful magic then I don’t know what is
-abortion is a human right
-folks with vulvas aren’t solely here to procreate, and not everyone with a vulva even wants to have children
-every person has the right to choose what they do with/to/for their body
-menstruating humans have the ability to harness the healing and creative power of their menstrual blood
-I love using my blood for face masks and blood baths, the stem cells in my blood were MADE BY ME FOR ME and are excellent for my skin (you can do the same with yours too!)
-my blood connects me to the Earth and to myself, reminding me that I go through my own cycles of death and rebirth
Do you have anything to share about menstruation? I’d love to talk about the power of our bodies in the comments!
Photo: Liam Woods / Portraitmami
Model/meme: me, Bunny Luna
I originally wrote this for Patreon on December 2nd 2017. I no longer use Patreon and have replaced it with my website (here) but thought I would share some of my old blogs with you for FREE to show my appreciation for you visiting my website! <3
If you’ve been here for a little while or you have archive access, you’ve probably already seen some of the sets that Edgar and I created last time I was in Chicago. We created so much that day and I’m excited to share this bathtub set with you! We started out with a plain bath and then added one of my favorite bath bombs from Blood Lily Bath that turns the water dramatically black. The bathtub was huge and super slippery of course so it was actually pretty difficult for me to pose in but we were able to create a lot of really great images despite the bathtub challenge.
In other news, my birthday was on Thursday (Nov 30) and it was wonderful! Antisocialdisposition took some time off from school and working on the NASA USLI project to spend extra time with me which made me feel extra special. Wednesday night we drove almost 2 hours to Greensboro to watch Devin Townsend in concert. He is one of AD & my favorite musicians and we have made it a point to see him every time he visits anywhere near us. The 2 times we saw him before this one we drove all the way to Atlanta (4 hrs away)! The show was amazing as always, and I bought my favorite album of his (Addicted) at the merch booth before we left. It has been playing nonstop in my car since the concert. We got home late, went to bed, slept in and had a lazy morning, then he went to campus to work for a few hours and I had the afternoon to myself. I treated myself to an awesome bath, complete with a crystal grid of course, and read from my new book that AD got me for my birthday, The Hidden Life of Trees. I’m only a couple of chapters in and I really love it so far! I worked on a special new project for a couple of hours, then AD came home and we went to our favorite sushi place! I’m one lucky human.
I hope you have a fantastic weekend filled with all of your favorite things! <3
Video tier! I’ve just uploaded:
10 videos to show you how I celebrated my birthday (Devin Townsend concert, bathtime with crystals, & sugar consumption yay), a butt-centric body movement video, &9 cheeky boomerangs with my sister Gemini.
All members have access to this complete 36 image photoset by clicking here, the 10 videos to show you how I celebrated my birthday by clicking here, the body movement video by clicking here, & 9 cheeky boomerangs with my sister Gemini by clicking here.
I originally wrote this for Patreon on November 25th 2017. I no longer use Patreon and have replaced it with my website (here) but thought I would share some of my old blogs with you for FREE to show my appreciation for you visiting my website! <3
You may recognize this location, last month I posted a set I took of Colorvibes in this same house. I’m so lucky that I know some really wonderful and talented artists locally. I really enjoy being able to create with people multiple times, I feel like each time we come together we’re able to pick up where we left off, nurturing a deeper sense of connection and making more meaningful images each time. This location was special to her, an abandoned house owned by her dad that we had permission to shoot in. She was hurt when he had contractors start tearing it up for renovation and we were lucky enough to be able to shoot there before it was changed forever. We photographed each other and she used expired film to shoot me which gave all of the images a really interesting green hue. I love being surprised by film.
I hope everyone has had a wonderful holiday! I’ve been spending time with family and friends, which is the only thing that’s important to me during this season. I love and appreciate each and every one of you! <3
I’ve got lots of awesome silks videos for you this week! 9 to be exact… with lots of drops! Chair drop, 3 different fuseballs, & tick tock drop. Tick tock was the hardest for me so the exit is pretty messy but I’m really proud that I did it! I can’t wait to do it again next time we’re in that unit so I can see all the progress I’ll make!
You’ll also find 35 of my favorite Instastories including some time at an art show, exploring Asheville, pondering the internet vlog, and some BTS from a recent shoot.