• FREE ARCHIVED BLOG & PHOTOSET

    I originally wrote this for Patreon on January 28 2017. I no longer use Patreon and have replaced it with my website (here) but thought I would share some of my old blogs with you for FREE to show my appreciation for you visiting my website! <3

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    Let’s talk about mantras and positive affirmations this week! As a recap, here are the definitions:

     Merriam-Webster’s definition of mantra: a sound, word, or phrase that is repeated by someone who is praying or meditating // a word or phrase that is repeated often or that expresses someone’s basic beliefs

    Merriam-Webster’s definition of affirmation: a solemn and often public declaration of the truth or existence of something

    I’ll start with mantras, which have been around for thousands of years (since the Vedic period, 1500-500 BC). There are many ancient mantras in Sanskrit, some of which call upon Hindu deities, and all of which assist in awareness, mindfulness, intention, and raising your level of consciousness. Chanting mantras over and over allows your mind to become quiet and focus solely on the sounds and vibrations of the mantra. Once your mind isn’t thinking you’re able to feel the space where the mind is silent, allowing you to connect to your true inner self.

    The most well-known mantra is “Om” (said like aum or ohm), which represents everything, the entire universe. It is believed to be the first sound the universe made when it was created, the original vibration. Chanting Om while meditating alters your consciousness and allows you to transcend to a higher state.

    Another well-known mantra is “Om Gam Ganapataye Namaha” which translates roughly to “Invocation to Ganesh, who is the remover of obstacles, who guards the doorway to the enlightened realms. His blessings are essential for good beginnings.” or more simply “The devotee bows/offers salutations to Ganesh/the Lord of the World.” This mantra calls upon Lord Ganesh, who is best known as the “breaker of obstacles.” This mantra assists in releasing blocked energy in your physical, mental, and emotional bodies.

    “Om Namah Shivaya” is another Sanskrit mantra which is interpreted as bowing or honoring your true highest self.

    Positive affirmations are very similar to mantras but are actually quite different. They were developed by neuroscientists in the 1970’s as a type of neuro-linguistic programming. People repeat positive affirmations in order to change their perception of their circumstances and the way they feel about themselves. Increasing positive thoughts and decreasing negative ones allows you to achieve success and happiness. For instance, someone who is very anxious and timid can say positive affirmations such as “I am brave, I am strong, and confidence comes naturally to me” to re-wire their brain to allow them to become brave, strong, and confident. Have you heard of a self-fulfilling prophecy or the law of attraction? Our beliefs influence our actions, so if you repeat to yourself every day that you are happy, creative, and loved, then you will become happy, creative, and loved!

    Some of the positive affirmations I say every day are:

    I am joyous in all that I do
    I laugh every day
    I am motivated and work toward my goals every day
    I spend quality time with quality people
    I spend quality time with myself
    I am strong of mind, body, and spirit
    I make time for yoga every day
    I am a money magnet and I attract wealth and abundance
    I am a world traveler
    I nourish my body with healthy food
    I let go of that which no longer serves me
    I make room for growth and change
    I am receptive to messages from the universe
    I learn something new every day

    Positive affirmations can be whatever you want or need in your life, just make sure it is positive and in the current tense. For instance, if you hate your job, don’t say “I hate my job so I’m finding a new one,” say “I’m attracting the perfect job for me.”

    Do you use mantras and/or positive affirmations? Do you want to? I’d love to hear about it!

    I saw these sunflowers at the store the other day and HAD to get them, sunflowers are my absolute favorite! The cats were interested in them too, look for a bunch cat-photobombed photos. I have a couple of sets by myself with the sunflowers that I’ll post soon. First I want to show you the self portraits that I took with Marianna Lane!

    Antisocialdisposition is wonderful and sometimes takes the time to model with me even when he’s swamped with electrical engineering schoolwork. There are totally butt grabs, giggles, and kisses happening in this set.

    All members have access to this complete 45 image photoset with Marianna Lane by clicking here.

    All members have access to this complete 58 image photoset with Antisocialdisposition by clicking here.

  • FREE ARCHIVED BLOG & PHOTOSET

    I originally wrote this for Patreon on December 18th 2016. I no longer use Patreon and have replaced it with my website (here) but thought I would share some of my old blogs with you for FREE to show my appreciation for you visiting my website! <3

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    I have been reading a book that I found in Marie Laveau’s house of Voodoo while we were in New Orleans: Circle of Eight by Jane Meredith. It’s about creating rituals and magic based on your relationship with the land. It has me thinking a lot about rituals that I want to begin and magic that I want to create. It definitely inspired this self portrait set I’m sharing today.

    Everything has been so up in the air and unfinished and scattered since we moved. I’m looking forward to the time when we are completely unpacked and settled and can really start getting into a routine again. A priority for me (after making art for y’all of course) is to learn much more about magic and energy and all things metaphysical.

    Antisocialdisposition had a few shots left in his camera so we set up a shoot to finish off the roll involving a circle of eight with some of my skulls and larger quartz crystals. I’ll be sharing his photos as a bonus for everyone (a public post!) in a few days. I took the opportunity to shoot a large self portrait set in the circle after our shoot to share with you. I’ll be incorporating this kind of imagery/props/theme in future sets. More crystals and bones, some of my favorite things! Yay!

    What are your thoughts about incorporating metaphysical imagery? Let me know in the comments!

    Antisocialdisposition‘s 35mm photos:

    All members have access to this complete 90 image self portrait set by clicking here.

  • FREE ARCHIVED BLOG & PHOTOSET

    I originally wrote this for Patreon on December 2nd 2016. I no longer use Patreon and have replaced it with my website (here) but thought I would share some of my old blogs with you for FREE to show my appreciation for you visiting my website! <3

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    Early post this week because WE’RE MOVING THIS WEEKEND!!! I’m so ready for this big change and can’t wait to start creating in our new place. We will be renting a couple of rooms from a good friend of ours in her nice big house built in 1940. We’re going to have our first roommate! She’s super awesome and I’m stoked to get to see her all the time. We’re going to be hippies together: composting, planting an herb garden, learning more about crystals and herbs and essential oils, hopefully even learning some witchcraft together. I’m also dreaming about hanging aerial silks from the big tree in the back yard!

    I was going through some old photos the other day and found the first nude self portrait set I ever took with Antisocialdisposition from way back in February 2010! We look like babies! We were both over 18, don’t worry, we weren’t ACTUALLY babies. I thought I would share this nostalgic set here with y’all.

    We took these in my childhood bedroom at my parents house. We had been dating for a little over a year and I think that even then you can tell how close we are and how much love we have between us. In December we’ll have been together for 8 years. We moved in together about 5 years ago and have been married for over 3 years now. Time flies. I’m so excited to grow old with him. <3

    (EDIT: Little did I know that in March 2019, after over 10 years together, we would be having the divorce conversation, getting legally separated in April, and he would be moving to another state in May… but that’s a story for another time. It was amicable and we are still friends.)

    This week I also wanted to share another set from our time in New Orleans. I’m finally getting through a bunch of them, I took a huge amount of photos while we were there. The Airbnb we stayed at was super cute and had the best wood floors and an awesome staircase! I just had to take a ton of photos with those stairs!

    All members have access to this complete 21 image self portrait set with AD by clicking here.

    All members have access to this complete 71 image self portrait set by clicking here.

  • FREE ARCHIVED BLOG & PHOTOSET

    I originally wrote this for Patreon on November 25th 2016. I no longer use Patreon and have replaced it with my website (here) but thought I would share some of my old blogs with you for FREE to show my appreciation for you visiting my website! <3

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    I love taking self portraits, but I love modeling for photographers too. There’s nothing like seeing yourself the way others see you.

    Colorvibes is a local art student, photographer, and model, and has started taking figurative nude images on film (and digital). We finally met up one day a few weeks ago right when it was starting to get cold when the sun went down. I took her to a spot I’ve used once or twice for photos and we shot for a couple of hours. I love seeing how others view and use places that I’ve shot at before. There are always new ways of seeing places and things that I hadn’t thought of. She was kind enough to allow me to share our photos with you.

    Do you remember when AD and I went to the mountains for our waterfall weekend with Drake Avenue? If you don’t remember or are new check out this post if you’d like to read the blog/look at photos. He sent me the behind the scenes film photos he took that weekend! He said I could share them with you too. =]

    All members have access to this complete 31 image photoset from Colorvibes by clicking here.

    All members have access to this complete 19 image photoset from Drake Avenue by clicking here.

  • FREE ARCHIVED BLOG & PHOTOSET

    I originally wrote this for Patreon on October 22nd 2016. I no longer use Patreon and have replaced it with my website (here) but thought I would share some of my old blogs with you for FREE to show my appreciation for you visiting my website! <3

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    I’ve already made a blog post about our waterfall weekend when I shared the Instax so instead of a blog I’ll share some fun facts about me! It’s been a long time since I did fun facts on here so it’s about time for more. =]

    • I have a growing skull collection. I currently have a pit bull, a cow, 3 deer, a badger, a rabbit, 2 mice, & a raccoon. We just found the raccoon in the woods this week!
    • I’ve never paid for a skull, they’ve either been gifted to me or I’ve found them. I found the pit bull during a shoot several years ago at an abandoned mill.
    • I started collecting crystals & rocks when I was really young. I have become more and more preoccupied with them.
    • My breakfast every morning is a fruit & veggie smoothie. I make a few days at a time so I don’t have to make them every day. 90% of the time they’re 100% fresh fruits & veggies, but sometimes when I don’t have enough I’ll use some frozen fruit.
    • I drink a nettle infusion daily. It has lots of vitamins & minerals (& tons of iron!), and is good for your urinary, digestive, and immune systems. Plus it helps me drink more water.
    • I freaking love lime tostitos and cheese puffs. And just about everything sugary.
    • I never thought I would but I’ve grown to like beets. When I was a kid I would eat SO MUCH of that canned cranberry sauce at Thanksgiving and one time there was some round red-colored stuff in a bowl and I just knew it was cranberry sauce so I ate some but NO it was BEETS and I was SO disappointed. I didn’t even try them for years after that. Beets are actually really good in smoothies!
    • I’m making plans and moving towards living in a campervan full time. I am totally obsessed. The plan is to buy a big work van sometime late next year and spend the year after that building it out to become our new mobile apartment. Hoping to move in when AD finishes his engineering degree.
    • I have 2 associate’s degrees: Associate in Arts & Associate in Fine Arts. I think I’d like to go back to school to get a bachelor’s but I’m still not sure yet. This summer I was planning on going back but changed my mind.
    • I’m better at meditating when I have crystals and I’m sitting in the bathtub.

    Ok enough about me, now for waterfall photos! Antisocialdisposition took photos of me & I took photos of him. This is becoming a trend and I rather enjoy it.

    All members have access to the complete 16 image photoset of me by clicking here and the 12 image photoset of AD by clicking here.

  • FREE ARCHIVED BLOG & PHOTOSET

    I originally wrote this for Patreon on October 15th 2016. I no longer use Patreon and have replaced it with my website (here) but thought I would share some of my old blogs with you for FREE to show my appreciation for you visiting my website! <3

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    A couple of weeks ago I told y’all all about shooting with Kyotocat & Antisocialdisposition, now we have the film back to share with you! I’m always very excited to get the film back from a roll of double exposures, there are always surprises. I never know what I’m going to get and for me that’s part of the magic. I love seeing the images for the first time and seeing how the background works with the figure(s). Most of the time when I shoot a roll of double exposures there are weeks or even months between shooting the background images and shooting the model so by the time I photograph the model I really don’t remember what all the backgrounds are. Double exposures are serendipitous and that’s why they are my absolute favorite.

    We shot 2 rolls, the first one I took of Kyotocat and the other one was a shared roll between the 3 of us. 2 of us would model and the other took the photos, so Kyotocat took the photos of AD & I and AD took the ones of Kyotocat & I. The backgrounds for both rolls are from our time in Utah this summer.

    Here’s a bonus silly one of Kyotocat & me being dinosaurs (T-REX!) and not being able to keep a straight face.

    All members have access to the complete 31 image photoset I took of Kyotocat by clicking here, and the complete 30 image shared roll here.