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V and her family
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Hello friends! This week… I guess I’ll tell you what I’m sharing first and then I’ll tell you what’s currently going on for me in my life. This week I’m sharing a photoset (sorry my phone is being funky) that I took of my friend V and her partner and their oldest baby. This was probably I think last year, 2019? Maybe late 2018? I didn’t look at the dates but it wasn’t this year because I’ve not really shot anything this year. Well I have shot like 2 things but it’s not enough for me to say that I’ve made much this year. These photos were taken at V & her partner’s house, and it was so cute because they were just doing like… you know, they were being a family and I was just there to capture some of that and it was wonderful and adorable and also funny and their baby I think he was maybe around a year and she was pregnant with her second baby, well her second baby with this partner. She has an older child that wasn’t there. Yeah so it’s the little family with another little one on the way. It was just fun photos, we didn’t really go into it with any really specific plans, we just wanted to capture their family. Her partner doesn’t model very much but it was really wonderful and adorable to just be with them as a family and just take photos, it was fun.
The video I’m sharing this week is a video I took I think it was last year in the summer, I think it was between the time I went on my road trip and chopped all my hair off, I think. It’s me just doing, nude, doing yoga and intuitive movements, dancing kindof, so it’s just like a nude movement video, which is great.
First look people have… I’m going to share a MASSIVE amount of stuff with first look this week. It’s ALL of the photos from Joshua Tree in summer 2019 when I was on my road trip. Er… all the REST of the photos. I think I’ve already shared all of the other JT photos with me and June St Paul when we shot each other. This is… there are 3 photographers, Moss Von Faustenberg, Ellin Aldana, and Lady River. They all 3 came and we hung out and traipsed around this airbnb that you’ve already seen in the other JT stuff. Airbnb compound basically, it’s a whole bunch of different little airbnbs in this main space. MASSIVE massive. I think just the photos that I’m sharing from Moss are several hundred photos, and that’s just the photos from him, so…. plus the photos from both other photographers and BTS videos. It’s like.. a fuck ton of stuff. Like, a whole lot. A lot a lot. So that’s massive, first look go enjoy those it’s gonna be a whole lot. You’ll have a lot of time to look through it because there’s so much.
I don’t know if you can hear the dogs…. I’m currently in Virginia at my grandmother’s house. This is her giant oak tree that’s in her back yard. Of course that’s where I wanted to be to make this video. It’s quite large. So I didn’t have any plans to travel for Thanksgiving or Christmas because of covid, but my grandmother, I call her Granny so I’m going to call her Granny here because that’s who she is, she’s Granny. Granny got into a car accident on 11/5 and was in the hospital for over a week and is back home now, where I am currently at her house. She’s 89, she before the accident was living by herself and doing her own thing, going to exercise class and getting her hair done, you know, taking care of herself. Since the accident she’s broken several bones, er, she broke several bones during the accident and she’s still recovering and she can’t do all the things that she used to do right now so she needs a lot of help and my 2 aunts and me, we’re all taking turns helping her around the house. She can get around with a walker but she needs a little supervision standing up and getting down and she has a few cracked vertebra in her neck so she has to wear this collar/neck brace thing which is keeping her from sleeping very well because she has to wear it 24/7, so someone has to stay with her through the night because she usually wakes up every hour or two or three. So we have to… she wakes up and wants to get out of bed, half the time she has to pee so we have to help her get to the bathroom. But yeah she needs extra help now so… I didn’t have any plans for traveling during the holidays but I’m here helping out because she needs some help, and I work on my computer so I can work from her house or my house, so I might as well be here to help her out. I did take a covid test right before I came here to make sure that I wasn’t like… having covid and just asymptomatic so I made sure that I was really safe before I came. Got a negative result obviously since I’m here. Just wanted yall to know that I’m not being.. you know… not careful. I’m definitely being careful.
I am thankful that yall are the reason that I am able to work remotely from my computer and yall are the reason that I’m able to help take care of my Granny. If I had a regular 9-5 job I wouldn’t be able to be here to help out. It’s kinda hard since she basically needs attention 24/7 ish. She’s doing really well but she needs help with certain things so you basically have to be here with her the whole time because if she needs to get up you gotta help her out. It’s a 24/7 type of thing and one of my aunts has been here for a few weeks and hasn’t gotten a lot of sleep as you can imagine. The other aunt has been working but she’s a teacher so she’s on her break for school so she’s able to help out more too. The aunt who has been here just left earlier today and is going to be at her house and resting and taking care of her house things and then coming back before I leave. So there’s going to be 2 people here with Granny for the foreseeable future. I’m here this week and then I’m going back home for my birthday and then I’m getting more of my tattoo done early December and then mid-December I’m coming back.
Yeah.. because of yall I’m able to be here and help Granny. That means SO MUCH to me, yall have no idea. I just wanted to say thank you because it means a whole lot that yall are here supporting me and that I can work remotely and help out my Granny and still be able to work because I just need a computer and internet access. So yeah yall are the reason I’m able to do that and I thank you so much. I think that’s all I have to say today. It’s cold but I’m outside because I wanted to be with the oak tree. I remember there used to be a swing that hung from this branch.. that one…. this one. There used to be a swing that hung from that branch and I would swing when I was a kid out here. There used to be a sandbox over here that I would play with my sister. That is their neighbor’s house, that’s my aunt’s house, and then Granny’s house is that way… like… there. So my one aunt is super close, my other aunt lives in Blacksburg which is a couple hours from where my Granny is. But yeah, anyway. Thank you. I love you. I’m so glad you’re here.
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My last video was interrupted by neighbor dog Jay Jay who likes to bark a lot at me. So I’m probably going to cut that out and put this in there so if it’s cut off funky that’s why. It’s kinda startling to have a dog suddenly be barking at you. I’ll see what the video looks like, it might be funny, so I might keep it, but if it’s too startling I might cut out the part where dog’s barking at me. He’s harmless, he’s just very protective and loud. He’s the next door neighbor’s dog…. that’s Jay Jay. That’s all I have to say, I just wanted to do this little video to let you know why the other one was cut off funny. Yes, okay. I love you. Thank you. I’m so thankful that I can be here, so thank you. It’s because of you.
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More self portraits from Chicago
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Hello friends! Good morning! This week I’m sharing 2 self portrait sets from Chicago from several years ago, probably 2017… I think? 2016? 2017? I think 2017. Yeah I keep finding these that I forgot that I had so…. enjoy! They’re from 2 different airbnbs, like some of the ones I already shared. One of them is from the first airbnb that I stayed in that had cool furniture. There was this orange chair that I was like “I want to take pictures with this” and the other set is me with plants that were in the other airbnb that I stayed in. So this is from the same trip, from 2 different airbnbs.
The video I’m sharing this week was a random naked outdoor video that I took at the beginning of quarantine, the beginning of all the covid stuff. It was maybe March or April or May… maybe June. I didn’t look at the date that I took it. I randomly was like “I feel like hanging out naked outside” and why not make a video? So that’s what this is, there’s no caption, not really much sound, it’s just me doing my naked thing around the yard, so that one you can enjoy too.
The first look members, I have another self portrait set from my cross country road trip in the summer of 2019. This photoset is one of the first photosets that I took in Nevada, so we’re actually out of Utah for this one, we’re in Nevada. It was so beautiful, the colors there were so intense and just amazing, so self portrait set and behind the scenes from me in Nevada. I hope you like it. I don’t think it was that set, but it was another set from that same day. I was in Nevada, I was in a park and someone came up while I was shooting and I frantically got dressed. You’ll see it in the video, it’s not in this one, it’s in one that I’ll be sharing soon I think, maybe I shouldn’t tell this story, maybe I’ll save it for when I actually share it.
Anyway, this weekend, today is not this weekend yet when I’m recording this, but when you see this on Saturday morning, you still have a couple hours to sign up for the Erotic Art event that I’m putting on with Lior and Roarie and SPECIAL GUEST Marcus! So excited! So we’re talking about erotic art. I’m very excited, I’m also pretty nervous because it’s going to be a very vulnerable and uncomfortable conversation for me to have, but I’m still looking forward to it because I think there’s going to be a lot of really valuable information that everyone’s going to share and I’m looking forward to seeing everyone’s perspective and sharing mine (which is vulnerable and scary). If you’d like to join me, it’s ABSOLUTELY FREE, I’ll put the link in the caption below. You can sign up, it’s free, it’ll be at 1pm eastern Saturday the 21st, which is the day that I am releasing this! So you have a couple of hours from me sharing this post til the event happens, so CLICK AND REGISTER ASAP so that you can join us for FREE! Haha I rhymed. Yeah I’m really excited, I think it’s going to be amazing. We have already done (as of the time I’m recording this), we’ve already done 2 of the livestreams on the Going Beyond the Lens instagram account. I will also link that below. If you want to watch the livestreams where we give a sneak preview about what we’re going to be talking about during the event. Go watch those, most of them are around 20 minutes ish long. Today is technically Wednesday, I’m recording this a little early because I have a lot of stuff going on this week. Today is technically Wednesday, and the first 2 lives happened already so you can already go watch those. I mean by the time you watch this, the one on Friday that I’m doing with Roarie will already have also happened… but um yeah I’m excited! Please join! We would love to have you be a part of the conversation. There’s probably not going to be any time left to submit an image, but I hope there have been a lot of people that submitted images to this event so that we can share your work also. So we’re probably going to be promoting the image sharing a lot on the instagrams.
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Yeah I’m excited. I love you! Thank you for being here! That’s all I have to say today. I just think yall are wonderful and amazing and I’m glad that you’re here on my website and you mean the world to me. Love you, bye!
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When I was planning my trip to Philadelphia I reached out to several models I know that live there, and it worked out perfectly that they were all available on the same day! So of COURSE we had to all get together for an epic group shoot! Tiffany Helms, Vex Voir, Caitlin Michele, Luna Dahlia, Jeff Waters and I all met up at Fairmout Park after roaming around trying to find each other for a little while. The place is huge! Once we all converged in the same spot all 6 of us squished into my 5 seat hatchback (yeah it was pretty tightly packed in the backseat haha) and drove to a parking area near some trails. We didn’t have a solid plan for where we were going to shoot so we just started walking, knowing we would find a place. After stopping a couple of times considering different parts of the trail as a background, we stumbled upon a large open field surrounded by trees and on the far side of the field was a graffitied abandoned building! We KNEW this was the place, it was perfect! We crossed the field and explored inside. Vex brought a portable speaker and played some music while we smoked and chatted and I put film in my cameras. I took photos of all 4 models together, and then Jeff and I took turns shooting everyone individually. We weren’t interrupted the entire time we were there, which was several hours, but we did have a small scare when a couple of people walked into the field next to the building. I think they were just looking for a smoking spot and they didn’t come near or bother us at all before they went along their way. At the end of the shoot Jeff took photos of all 5 of us, some with my camera and some with his. I’ve included the photos he took with my camera in this set along with the photos I took of the group. =]
I had so much fun that day and I’m glad I have photos and a couple of videos to look back on and reminisce.
I’ll share the individual shots I took of them in the next few weeks, so look out for those soon!
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And just because, I’ve also included 17 cheeky fun boomerangs of me in various stages of undress. =]
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Buddy’s Blue Room
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Hello friends! Okay so this week I’m not on my period so I’m more present and not in pain so that’s nice. This week *clears throat* I swear I’ve been awake for several hours. Oooh a squirrel! There’s a fence right outside my window and it’s a normal thing for a squirrel to be scurrying across the top of the fence and I just saw one do that and it’s cute.
This week the photoset I’m sharing with you is a photoset that I took of self portraits in May of 2019 that was taken in a photographer’s house. I went to Nashville TN back in May of 2019, time is weird yall. The photographer hosted me, he had a lot of good references so I felt safe to be hosted there. The room that he had available for me was this blue room with a big really cool painting in it of a big face and there was a real huge mirror in there so I of course took advantage of the cool space and took some self portraits in that room, so that’s the ones I’m sharing with you today. I was going to be shooting with this photographer but he wasn’t feeling well so we ended up not shooting and I just stayed at his house. It’s this cool big old house and he had been renovating rooms a bit at a time. The bathroom was really cool, he had a clawfoot tub and a fancy walk-in tiled shower. I think I took a video of me taking a shower in that shower, and I don’t recall if I’ve share that yet or not. I have so much content it’s hard for me to keep up with what I’ve shared and what I haven’t. I should look and see if I can find that because I know I made that video, of me taking a shower in that cool shower. Yeah I really liked his house it was really cool and it was like, close to a lot of stuff. There’s some fancy restaurants that were basically walking distance, I could have walked to them, but I didn’t know how close they were so I drove and I was like “why didn’t I just walk?” I had a good time staying at his place and I… one of my two favorite colors is blue, my other favorite color is green, and if I had a third favorite color it would be purple. My colors are blue green and purple. I also really like brown but that’s beside the point. So of course this blue room with a big mirror and a cool painting I had to take some self portraits so, here you are!
The videos I’m sharing this week are from several years ago to be honest. Maybe 2017? 2018? 2016? I’m not positive, I could look but I didn’t look before this so.. whoops. From several years ago and these videos are of me doing aerial silks, they’re 3 different videos of me doing ankle hangs. So me just like hanging by my ankles in silks, so that was really fun, I love being upside down. Silks are the best, I love them, they’re so much fun. I miss going to the studio, I haven’t been in quite a while. Probably over a year now because with my budget I was either going to continue doing aerial silks or get a van, so you know which one I did. I got a van so I could do my cross country road trip. So yeah I haven’t done silks in a while, except…. now I have silks at home! It’s not the same though because this is.. the way I have it set up now is a hammock and what I super miss is the full on silk pole. They call it a pole, but it’s when the silk is, the two halves of it are coming down all the way to the ground so you have two separate pieces that are connected at the top that just come all the way to the ground. This, it’s one silk but it’s in a loop so it’s a hammock so its different but still super fun. I love hanging upside down! It’s very different from the classic silk setup, which I really miss, but my ceilings aren’t really high and it’s… the rig that I have is portable, I can move it, and it goes up to 11 feet, but it’s kindof an ordeal to move it. I mean, I can, it’s possible, but it definitely takes 2 people and I would LOVE to set it up outside and do some regular classic silk stuff on it and set it up that way. I have the ability to do that, I just haven’t because I don’t want to have it outside and get rained on and I don’t want to have to move it a lot so I’ve just left it inside because it’s always available for me to play on the hammock. I’m hoping maybe once it warms up again in the spring or summer, I’ll set it up outside for a longer amount of time and do some classic silk things. So the videos I’m sharing this week are me doing ankle hangs in silks from when I was going to the studio so it’s a few years ago. My strength is not quite what it used to be. I used to be way stronger because I was doing silks 2 or 3 times a week every week for a couple of years so I was really fuckin strong. I was doing like 6-8 pull ups at a time, I was really strong. I can barely do one pull up now, that’s how I measure my strength is by how many pull ups I can do. I’m not very strong right now, I still have some muscle, but yeah, I miss silks so I hope you enjoy these videos of me playing in silks and doing ankle hangs.
The first look people have a self portrait set that I took in Utah in the summer of 2019, I still have a few of those to share with you. So it’s the self portrait set and the BTS video. This one is in southern Utah. I don’t want to say exactly where it is because, most of the places I’ve been I don’t want to say exactly where it is. I feel like if I publicly am like “these are the places that I took photos” there could be not so good consequences to that. I’m aware of when “influencers” I wouldn’t count myself as an influencer, but, when people have semi large or large followings sharing locations where they shoot then suddenly a lot of people show up at those places and trash them, so I’m going to just tell you broadly… southern Utah. You might recognize this place if you’ve been there though, because of where it is. I’m excited to share this with you.
There’s still time if you’d like to join the Erotic Art event that I’m putting on with Lior and Roarie for Going Beyond the Lens. We have a special guest I’m so excited! that is going to be taking Roarie’s spot when 3 of us talk about Erotic Art before we go into the community discussion so I’m very excited for our special guest! So excited! So yeah if you’d like to come to this event, it’s free and it’s on freeconferencecall, so it’s a group video chat. Usually the events last around 3 hours, we’re going to be talking about erotic art the whole time. We have a slideshow that we’ll share with you that will show images and at the end we have an art share which is probably my favorite part, where people who are participating in the event have the ability to share your art with us and we’ll put it in the slideshow so everyone can see your art and we can talk about it. It’s always amazing and I’m always blown away by the art that people share, it’s really cool. I’d say that’s my favorite part of them usually, is the art share at the end. If you’d like to join it’s absolutely free, I’ll put the link in the caption below. Also if you’d like to submit your erotic art to be shared at the event please do so, I’ll put the link below also. Yeah come join us! It’s on Saturday November 21st and it’ll start at 1pm eastern, so yeah, coming up, I’m so excited, it’s going to be awesome.
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I love you, thanks for being here, yall make my life. I know that I’ve been very up and down in terms of emotion and what I want to do and motivation, but that’s part of life so I appreciate yall hanging with me and being a part of this. Your support means everything, including me being able to have food on my table. It’s not just the monetary part of it. It’s the love and care that yall share with me, the conversations we have together, the feedback that I get from yall, it’s just wonderful. This squirrel is like.. you know how they flick their tail? It’s just sitting on the fence looking at me flicking it’s tail, it’s like *makes wooshing sounds & moves hand pretending to be a squirrel tail* it’s really cute, okay, um yes. I hope you have a wonderful day and I’ll talk to you next week! *blows kiss*
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Self Portraits in Utah
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Good morning friends. I’m trying to not be too distracted. I started my period this morning so I’m in pain but I wanted to continue to, you know, be consistent with yall. *sigh* It’s hard to focus when your uterus is trying to turn itself inside out. So this week I’m sharing another self portrait set that I took in Utah in the summer of 2019 and the behind the scenes video and first look is getting another self portrait set from Utah in 2019 and the BTS video. The first look BTS video makes me laugh because when I was taking these self portraits I was on this really long dirt road outside of Grand Staircase Escalante and I thought I was the only one there but there were like, I think 2 instances where a car drove by and I had to grab my camera and hide behind my van. So you get to see that happening and that’s kinda funny of me rushing “oh shit I gotta hide!” so yeah that’s a thing. That’s for first look people. The BTS this week for everybody isn’t as exciting, I mean it IS exciting because you get to see me taking self portraits, but nobody catches me which is good.
Yeah so this morning I’m in pain because I’m menstruating and the last maybe year or so I’ve been having menstrual pain the first day of my period, which didn’t really happen before when I had an IUD, but since I’ve taken that out, around a year ago now, my period has changed a little bit. Getting to know my body without any medical intervention things has been good, but yeah painful. I woke up at like 6:30 this morning in pain and I haven’t really been able to go back to sleep so I figured I might as well do this. The… I don’t really have much else to say about the photosets, I really love them, I hope you do too. I want to go back to Utah. Hopefully later this week I’ll be going to the mountains by myself, depending on how my period goes and if I think it’s safe to be out there sleeping in my van for a couple of days, because I do still want to like, use public restrooms and things because that’s slightly more comfortable when you’re on your period, to use a public restroom than to use a bush.
It’s hard to concentrate. Uhm oh hi squirrely. Oh I realized that I’m shadowbanned on instagram which makes me angry and I just switched to a creator profile because the analytics and stuff are cool but I feel like that’s probably part of why I got shadowbanned, and also because I had a photo that was deleted because it “violates community guidelines” except it DOESN’T, there’s no nipple or anything, you just see a little bit of underboob and it’s not the highlight of the photo, so I just am… I feel like I dislike instagram more every day but sadly that’s where most of the people I want to follow and see what they’re doing and meet with are existing online so it’s complicated. I have a very much love hate relationship with instagram. I just wish instagram was run by like, queer anarchists or something you know, then everything would be better, but sadly IG is run by cis white men that have lots of money so we know how that goes. I really wanted to be slightly more interesting this week but my period is fogging my brain and I don’t have much else to say. I got my haircut, I like having it really short like this because it feels really good to rub it.
I do want to tell you about the next Going Beyond the Lens event that’s coming up that I’m excited about. It’s going to be on Sep… oop September, I’m not going back in time. It’s going to be on November 21st which is a Saturday, at 1pm eastern and we are going to be discussing erotic art! If you’ve read my last few Saturday posts you know that I don’t want sexual attention so this erotic art event is uncomfortable for me and feels vulnerable but I’m basically going to be like the asexual representation at this event, so you’ll get a well-rounded conversation about erotic art. I’m excited and nervous about it, I think it’s going to be a good one. If you’d like to join us we have a special guest that’s going to be a part of it and I’m really excited. So I’ll put the link in the caption of this video so you can join us. It’s a free event, FREE, free free free, you don’t have to pay anything to join, and it’s going to be a live group video call for everybody that comes. I’m really excited, these events usually last around 3 hours. They’re always really fun and I always get a lot out of them, so while I’m kindof nervous talking about erotic art and it feels vulnerable to me, I’m still excited because I think we’re all going to learn some cool things. I’m also really excited to see what people submit for their erotic art, because you know, I always love seeing everybody else’s work. If you have erotic art you’d like to share with us for this event, there’s a link for that too. I’ll put that in the caption so you can submit your art if you want.
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CLICK HERE TO SUBMIT YOUR EROTIC ARTI think that’s all I have to say, I love you so much, thank you for being here with me every week. I will continue to be here with you every week, at whatever capacity is possible, even if it’s like today and I’m kinda out of it because I’m in pain. Y’all are important to me so I want to continue to be consistent and sometimes that means I’m partially present and other times that means I’m very present. Today I’m partially present because my uterus is screaming at me. I love being on my period, once the pain goes away on the first day it’s a great time. I like the cycle of my body and how it usually follows the full moon and how it connects me to myself so I really like that. Also speaking of menstruation and censorship, I have a video on Youtube about why I love menstruating as an agender person and the cover photo I have for it was a photo of me that my friend Portraitmami took. It’s basically me in white underwear with blood on them and blood on my leg. You can’t see any genitalia, it’s just underwear with period blood on it but youtube decided that that was either violent or nude, even though it’s neither of those things, but youtube decided to delete my cover photo for that video because it said youtube doesn’t like seeing menstrual blood even though I think it’s awesome. More annoyance at censorship and bullshit online platforms that I feel like are also necessary because everybody is using them. So this is me ranting about bullshit censorship and bullshit social media things but… I digress. Okay yeah that’s all I have for this week. This is already a longer video than I usually make. Yeah I just wanted to say hi and I love you and I’m so glad that you’re here and literally youre the reason I’m able to pay rent and buy myself food so that means a lot. I also really like speaking to yall and seeing the things you’re interested in that I’m doing and I love hearing feedback so yeah the conversations that I’ve had with yall have been really wonderful and I’d like to continue that. Please comment on this post or send me an email or whatever feels best for you. I’m open to chatting about the things that you like and the things you’re inspired by and any questions you have.
Oh yeah how could I forget?! I was interviewed for Lenscratch which is a big photography magazine kinda thing and I was interviewed and it was amazing so I’m going to put a link here too because I think it’s a really great introduction to my work. The person who did the interview with me, Kat Davis, asked really excellent questions that really helped me articulate my process and the meaning behind my work so that’s great. So if you’d like to check out that interview I’ll put the link to that in the caption also. Yeah okay now I’m just rambling. I love you, thank you for being here, check out all the things, yeah thank you. Hopefully my cramps go away soon. You get to witness me and my crampiness. Ok. I love you! Bye.
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Yay here’s the first set from my super fun adventure to Pennsylvania a couple weeks ago! I finally met Vinny Kim on the first morning of my trip after talking to him online and admiring his photographs forEVER. We met up at a Cracker Barrel parking lot in the middle of nowhere Pennsylvania. He drove me to an abandoned school he has permission to shoot in… that place is a dreamland! We barely scratched the surface of the huge beautiful building. There are SO MANY places to shoot there that are all totally different. There was one room that had 2 walls full of windows and grass growing on the floor that I really wanted to model in but we didn’t even get around to shooting there! I had a fantastic time exploring and experimenting with Vinny. We shot all morning and afterward we went back to the Cracker Barrel for lunch and some much needed running water to wash my hands hahaha. I was totally covered in dust from head to toe. It felt SOOOOO good to take a shower once I finally got to Tiffany Helms‘ place in Philly later that afternoon.
I have a few more sets from this shoot to share with you in the coming weeks, be on the lookout for those soon!
(Models: Please email me at bunnyluna@pm.me for references about photographers in the industry)
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I’ve uploaded 6 behind the scenes videos from the abandoned school, make sure to check those out! They really help show you the scale of this place.
July’s monthly nude yoga video (it’s 10 minutes long!) has also been uploaded!! This month’s video is extra special because my mom joined me! YES, she’s nude too! I love my family… my dad participated by helping me film the video. I am so lucky to have such a supportive family. <3
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Joshua Tree Pool with June St Paul
CAPTION FOR THE VIDEO ABOVE:
Hello friends! Okay so this week I’m sharing a photoset of me that was taken last summer, or not last summer, I keep wanting to say last summer. Summer 2019 during my cross country road trip, this photoset was taken outside of Joshua Tree at an amazing airbnb. I met up with June St Paul… let’s see if I can get this to be still right here. Oop be still! I met up with June St Paul and we took some photos of each other and it was a fun time. There was this really amazing pool that had just finished being built at this airbnb we were at, so of course we took advantage of hanging out at the pool. The airbnb owner, his name is Tao Ruspoli, he’s in the like, film movie world and apparently knows a bunch of famous people, I guess he also is famous in some capacity, whatever famous means. But he has this like, compound kind of area right outside of Joshua Tree in the desert, kinda in the mountains… sortof? Kinda like a mountain area. He has old small schoolbuses that he’s converted into bedrooms and airstreams that you can rent out and he has a boat, like a sailboat next to his house that you could get in and walk around and do things, I had a photoshoot in there with Moss Von Faustenberg and a couple of other folks, that was really cool. I’ll eventually be sharing those too. But yeah it’s just this huge area that was really beautiful and had all these cool building type places and the place that I stayed at was a mini bus, one of those short buses, that was converted into a bedroom so there’s just this big bed in there and it was real cozy. So that was a fun part of my trip, so these are photos of me next to the really cool pool. I think we were one of the first people to swim in it, or in the first handful of people to swim in it because it had just finished being built. It was really beautiful, the way he planned the space was that, it’s this big long and narrow pool and he has it facing a certain mountain range that’s off in the distance and at sunset the sunset is over those mountains and the pool points straight to it and it’s really beautiful. As I was there he was starting construction on additional building things for his airbnb. He was putting in this really huge long narrow kinda similar to the pool but it was a table instead, like a giant table you’d sit at to eat a family dinner, really long and narrow. So you have the pool here, and he put the table in line with the pool but 50-100 feet away. So you’ve got this table that points to the pool and the pool that points to the mountains that points to when sunset is, it’s really beautiful. He has a couple of Joshua Trees on his property so yeah, it was a fun time. Uhmmm I hadn’t seen June in a while, so it was nice to catch up. We have a… insteresting history… uh.. interesting connection, I’m not going to go too into that because reasons.
Today, well, yesterday, I started some of the energy healing 101 video that I’ve been wanting to make. I’ve been brainstorming it for a while and I actually recorded some stuff for it yesterday. I may or may not record more for it, I know I have a lot of editing to do which is the part that I’m kindof dreading because it’s something that I’m not as good at yet so it takes me a really long time and I’m not the kind of person that likes to sit on my computer or phone for an extended amount of time. I’d rather be outside not looking at screens. I’m excited to share this energy healing information with people, because I know that each of us has the ability to heal, it’s just a matter of finding what works for you personally. What works for you as a person isn’t going to work for everyone, and what works for someone else may not necessarily work for you. So I think it’s important to share a lot of different ways that we can help ourselves, because maybe some of those ways will resonate and some wont, but as long as something works for you that’s all that really matters. So yeah I’m kinda excited about that. I have a lot of video editing work to do, but hopefully in the next little while I’ll be sharing an energy healing 101 video with you, yay!
I don’t have much else to talk about today, ummm yeah. I thank you again so much for being here and checking out my content and all of the members of my website I am thinking of you all so fondly every day. You’re literally the reason that I’m able to do any of this! It means a lot that you care enough about me and my work that you want to support me in any way that you do, so I love you so much, thank you for being here with me, and I’ll talk to you again next week. Bye!
(Models: Please email me at bunnyluna@pm.me for references about photographers in the industry)
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Self Portraits in Utah
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*sigh* Hello friends! I was just outside to make this video but then a bunch of my neighbors decided to have big loud machines so it kinda made more sense to do it in here. This week I have a bunch more self portrait sets and BTS videos from my cross country road trip last summer, well its not even last summer anymore, summer 2019, that I’m sharing with you for both the photo/video/PWYC members and for first look members. First look gets more access to more things, as usual, but I’m excited to share these with you. I really love all the self portraits that I took last…. summer 2019. It’s kinda weird watching them and looking at them because I know it’s me, but it’s a version of me that’s no longer with us, it’s kinda like looking at a ghost in a way. It’s me but it’s not me. It’s me then, it’s not me now. It’s hard to describe. But I have those photos that I’m sharing with you.
I want to talk about the nude yoga video, bc I’m technically sharing what I’d call a nude yoga video with you this month. I’ve been doing nude yoga videos, I think every month since 2017. They’ve increasingly become less like traditional what people would think of as yoga and more of… like energy releasing more than yoga, especially this month. I’ve felt a resistance to “traditional yoga” over the last few months and I’m not exactly sure why. I guess what I’m really trying to say is, I may not do a monthly nude yoga video in the future. I might discontinue those and change it to something else. I would like to focus more on self care and community care and healing and energy healing and energy releasing and energy in general. I think over the last couple of months I’ve stressed more about the nude yoga video like “oh when am I going to make it” and all of that stuff. It’s started to become something that I’m not really enjoying as much anymore so I thought that since there are like… over 30 that you can watch from the past that you might not necessarily miss them in the future if I don’t continue them. So I’m considering discontinuing the nude yoga video and doing something different instead, like energy healing stuff so I’d love to hear your feedback if you have any. That’s something I’ll probably start next month or December or maybe 2021. I haven’t decided yet, but I wanted to give you a heads up that’s something thats going to be changing soon.
I want to focus more of my time creating content that I share for free with everyone. Of course the more extensive content will be for members. I think part of what I have been missing has been having things to share with people that weren’t behind a paywall, and I think that while I’m not a fan of capitalism, I still have to live within it so I do at some point need to be paid for my experience and my art and my time. At the same time, that makes my content less accessible to those who can’t afford it, even though I do have a pay what you can membership, I realize that $5 a month isn’t accessible to EVERYONE. I want to make more content that’s for everyone, and I’m considering a change of… the weekly posts that I make for yall that comes out on Saturdays, that has a handful of the images from the whole set that yall have access to. I’m considering making that blog post accessible to everyone, and, like currently, only members have access to the FULL set and the FULL video. That’s something I’ve been thinking about. I already do have a free post, I think it’s every Tueday. I have them scheduled through the end of the year… I think it’s Tuesdays. I’m feeling like I want to benefit more people and I can do that if I have more stuff that’s free.
I’m also continuously pulling further away from doing nude art. Not because I don’t love it. I definitely extremely very much DO LOVE nude art so much. The attention that it gets me from people is not the attention that I want, so I want to make it more understood by my audience, members and non members/just people that follow me. I want to make it more understood that my nudity is not consent for you to sexualize me. What you do on your own time by yourself that I’m not involved in is up to you, that’s none of my business, but as soon as sexual comments come in my direction… like I’ve been harassed this week through people commenting in another language that I had to translate but it’s still rude as fuck, also very much sexualizing me. That further reminds me how much I am extremely uncomfortable with that and that is violating my consent. I love nude art, but it, based on people’s perception of it, that I have no control over, that brings a certain kind of attention in my direction that I don’t want. I’m going to be backing away some from making nude things and sharing nude things potentially, so that I don’t get the attention that I don’t want, and making things that are “fb & ig safe” in order to share my knowledge and experience with people without getting the kind of attention that I don’t want which is sexualization.
I will forever have a very special place in my heart for nude art and I will probably never fully stop making it or sharing it, but it is not my focus any longer. I am much more than a naked body and I think it’s time for me to show that through the things that I’m putting out there. Just wanted to let yall know that. If you’re only here for the nudity, that’s cool, but I’m much more than a naked body, way more than that. That’s a cool thing about me, I have a body, so do you! But yeah, I have a spirit and a heart and a mind that is within that body that needs to be respected, and I believe that I will have more respect and less violation of my consent through sexualization of me if I don’t share as much nudity as I have been. So I’m going to figure out some kind of balance for that. I don’t know exactly what that means yet.
Be prepared for potential changes such as what I’ve already mentioned: discontinuing nude videos every month and doing something different, potentially sharing these weekly vlog posts for everyone, not just members, and making it so that it’s continuing to be members that have access to the galleries and archives of my work, and posting and making less nude content in general. So head’s up there.
I appreciate yall so much, you’re the reason I’m able to do any of this at all. Literally this is my full time job is my website and doing things for yall and making art that is constantly changing I suppose. Art that I haven’t really made this year. Yeah…. I am so grateful for yall for allowing me to have this as my full time job. I dreamed of having this as my job, for years, and that dream happened and it exists in real life now! Now I’m ready to dream of new things. I don’t exactly know what that is yet, but I’m working on it and making little steps in that direction, and we’re gonna see where that goes. Thank you for being what is making me able to do that at all. I appreciate you, I love you, I hope you have a wonderful day and a wonderful weekend. I’ll talk to you next week. Bye!
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click here to view the full 61 image self portrait photoset near Canyonlands at sunset
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The new moon supermoon in Cancer is today/tomorrow and oh gosh its bringing about a lot of change for me. It’s both scary and exciting, and I’m ready for it. I don’t think I’ve told you much about my “real” life outside of photography and modeling and want to share some of it with you. Since art doesn’t currently pay the bills and antisocialdisposition is a full time electrical engineering student, it has been essential for me to have a steady income. I’ve been working full time at a major healthcare system for nearly 5 years to support myself and my husband until he finishes his degree.
Well, working in healthcare kinda started killing my soul a little. Slowly.
The first 3 years I was working the front desk at a family practice. I loved my work family, (most of) our patients were so sweet, and the benefits were amazing.
The 4th year I was promoted to the referral coordinator position which was great because it was over a dollar more an hour, but I had to do the work of 2 people. That’s when things started to change for me, I started to not really enjoy coming to work every day like I used to. I was tasked with the job of cleaning up the mess that was made before I was promoted. Trying to condense as much of the story as possible, essentially there was nobody doing referrals for 2 offices for a couple of months before I started, and I had to not only essentially teach myself referrals, I had to catch up with the backlog AND work on the new referrals being added every day. It is so disheartening to know that you’re not doing the best job you could be doing because you have SO MUCH work to do it’s not possible to do it all right. I am not the kind of person that does things half-heartedly. If I do something I want to do it 100%.
I was a referral coordinator for 1 year. In that year I taught myself how to do referrals, I cleaned up the backlog (over 500 referrals between the 2 offices down to about 40 which is doable in a couple of days), and I created cheat sheets for other referral coordinators to use to help them with their work. I felt trapped, underappreciated, and underpaid. That’s why I was fine with moving over an hour away from work. It was a good excuse to look for a job closer to home.
I wanted and got a job in the billing department for the same healthcare system that was about 20 minutes away from our new place. It was NOT the job for me. It’s an extremely monotonous job: printing out EOBs and entering them into the computer. all. day. long. I was there for about 5 months.
Today was my last day working in healthcare. I put my notice in a couple weeks ago after stressing and crying and thinking so much about it. I feel so much better already to not be in a field that I have a lot of problems with. The healthcare system in our country is dismal, and I know first hand how terrible it can be for both patients and those who take care of them. Healthcare needs an overhaul but I wouldn’t even know where to start.
I will be unemployed for 2 weeks, and on July 10th I start my new full time job at the only camera store in town that still develops black and white film in-house. I am so much happier with the direction of my life already and I haven’t even started my new job yet. Obviously photography and modeling are what I’m passionate about and I am so excited for it to be what sustains me monetarily! I am going to learn so much working there and my new knowledge will only enhance the quality of my art. I am so looking forward to it!!! Change can be so so good.
I create as much as I can whenever I can, and your support here on patreon has allowed me to allocate more time to creating than I would be able to otherwise. One day with your help I aspire to support myself full time from my art income. I yearn to travel all over the country to find the most beautiful places and photograph the nude there. My goal for after AD finishes his degree: buy a giant work van, custom build it into a mini home, and create in every national and state park I can find. And you know I’ll be sharing it all here with you. <3
(EDIT 2020: My dreams all came true last year!!! I became full time self employed (via THIS WEBSITE RIGHT HERE, because of the support of members!) in April 2019, and lived out of my minivan for 69 days during a cross country road trip last summer!)
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I am so excited to share these sets with you! This is the film from our member-sponsored (thank you!!! <3 ) mountain trip last month! I really love how these came out, the locations were so beautiful.
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Go explore the videos folder, I’ve just added 9 bts videos from between shooting these sets. You can really see how beautiful these locations are. There’s a video of me collecting water from the waterfall…. I almost slipped and fell in! Haha
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Self Portraits at the entrance of a Colorado cave
CAPTION FOR THE VIDEO ABOVE:
Hi friends! So this week is a little bit different. You might not really notice much different, but I usually use my cell phone for these videos but this week my cell phone is locked away in a drawer for at least the next few days because I don’t want to be on social media so I’m making myself not even touch my phone so I don’t accidentally be like “oh I wonder what’s happening?” get on social media and then be on there for like 4 hours. So yeah, it’s in a drawer and the drawer is taped shut and I’m not going to touch my phone until Friday at the earliest, yay me! I’m taking this video on my fancy digital camera which I haven’t used in a while so it’s probably good that I’m using it.
This week I’m sharing a… I think it’s the last photoset that I took in the cave in Colorado. I’m not going to say too much about it because I already told you about it last week and there’s also videos from when I was actually there that you can watch. I feel like I don’t have to go over the cave in Colorado anymore, but you’re going to have some awesome photos and BTS video from that to look at. The first look members… I believe it’s another 1 or 2 sets from Goblin Valley, so I’m excited to share those too. I don’t have my computer open and my list of all the things but I’m pretty sure that’s what it is, I’m pretty sure it’s content from Goblin Valley. Hopefully I’m right, I think I’m right. I don’t want to have to go search and find what it is but I’m pretty sure it’s from Goblin Valley.
Yesterday at the end of the day I decided that I’m not going to be on social media or my phone at least until Friday at the earliest. So I taped my phone away in a drawer and now I cleaned the whole house today and I did all of my laundry and now I’m like… what am I going to do? It’s funny how much I realize now I’m on my phone, because when I’m not on it I’m like “wow suddenly I have so much more time!” It’s wild! Yeah I’m really glad I’m not on my phone. I don’t know about you but I sometimes struggle with having boundaries with my phone. That’s something I’m working on. Also I’m taking this video early, this is.. I think today is Tuesday. I usually make the video on Thursdays. I’m taking a technology break but I’m still going to obviously be doing my weekly content for yall, so I’m not 100% off of technology because this camera is technology and my computer that I’ll be on probably Thursday is technology. I’m just not going to be on social media and I’m not going to touch my phone. I don’t have a lot to say this week because not much has changed. I’m probably not going to be leaving my house for the next 2 weeks, which will be interesting, especially while I’m not using my phone I’m going to be like, finding things to do. Which is kinda funny because I remember before back in the day I used to be like “wow I do all these things and I don’t have time for all the things I want to do!” and now today I’m like… “hmmmm what am I going to do? I don’t want to watch tv, what do I want to do?” I can’t go on a walk because it’s raining, except I’m probably going to still go on a walk, I have a rain jacket. It’s amazing how much more time you have when you’re not on your phone.
I don’t have much to say this week so I’m going to stop this video so I don’t keep rambling but I just wanted to say that I love and appreciate every single one of you so much! You are literally what keeps me fed, literally what keeps me with a roof over my head, literally what makes it so that I’m able to do any of this at all, so thank you, you mean the world to me. It’s been so awesome getting to know some of you more personally. Some of you, especially some of the newer people who have joined, I haven’t.. I don’t think we’ve ever had a conversation, so if you want to talk, you can comment on this post or send me an email. Yeah I think yall are awesome and I’m glad you’re my friends and I’m glad you’re here. I’m always open to hear what kinds of things you’re interested in, because I continually know that I’m going to be changing and shifting things with my website. I still don’t know exactly what that is yet, and I’m going to continue to mention it so nobody’s surprised when something changes. I’m of course going to let you know what the change is before I do it, and I don’t know what the change is yet because I haven’t decided!
I don’t have an infinite supply of nude art, and I’ve had a total of 2 photoshoots this entire year and I’ve taken like 2 or 3 self portrait sets this entire year and it’s like the end of September. My backlog won’t last forever. I feel like I’ll have started some kind of content before I actually run out of content to share. I’ve stopped modeling completely, and like I said I’ve done 2 photoshoots this year. I’ve been slowing down a lot, and reevaluating what’s important to me and yall are the reason I’m able to do that. That’s amazing, thank you so much. I think that bigger better things are coming. Maybe not even bigger, just different. Maybe not even better, just different, I don’t know. I keep thinking about meditation and energy healing and I keep taking videos of nature and I know I’m going to do something with them, I don’t know exactly what that is yet. Probably videos of meditation and energy healing haha. I feel kindof… I don’t want to say stuck… I’m in the liminal space between who I was a little over a year ago, who I was in the photos I’ve shared this weekend with yall. I’m in the liminal space between that and who I’m becoming, who I’m growing into. I’m figuring it out, day by day. I don’t actually know what I’m doing. Does anyone actually know what they’re doing? I don’t think so. I’m just glad yall are here with me. I appreciate you all. I love you, and I’ll talk to you next week! Bye!
Video members:
click here to view the full self portrait photoset of me at the entrance of a cave in Colorado during my cross country road trip last summer
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click here to view the complete self portrait photoset in Utah (Going In)
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click here to view the complete self portrait photoset in Utah (My Own Canyon)
click here to view the BTS video