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I’ve been changing my mind a lot lately because I’m scared I’m making the wrong decision. I hastily decided a few months ago that I wanted to go back to school and finally get a bachelor’s degree. I did all the paperwork and whatnot, signed up for financial aid, went to open house, started thinking about where I would want to go for study abroad….
And today I’m cancelling all of it. My husband AD is currently a full time student taking on about 10k in loans per year and I am the one paying the bills. I no longer enjoy my job and it is so stressful sometimes I come home and just cry. Or I’ll be in such a sour mood when I come home I won’t want to do anything but bitch and complain and he doesn’t deserve that, he’s working hard too, just on calculus and physics homework and stressing out about his new research position. I rushed into my decision to go back to school without putting a lot of thought into it, I just wanted to escape my stressful day job and make a major change. When we actually looked at our finances and how much we were about to be in debt I just couldn’t justify going back to school. That stressful job I have has amazing benefits and I have a steady paycheck. I’m going to stay but keep an eye out for a different job within the company. Or outside of the company, who knows. I’m still ready for a major change, I just don’t know what that change is yet. We are moving to a different apartment in November, maybe that will be the major change that I need. I think I need more of a change than that, but it’s at least a start.
I got approved for 2 weeks of vacation in July so we’re going to make the most of it and go on a big trip. We’ve talked a lot about where we’re going to go and I think we’ve decided on Colorado. Unless I change my mind again. I don’t think I will but we’ll see.
This full photoset has 48 images, I’m sharing 7 of my faves!
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FREE E-BOOK! 10 Meditation Tips for Beginners
I’ve been meditating a LOT the last few months and have talked to a lot of people who struggle with it. It’s intimidating to think about having to shut your brain off and sit still in order to meditate… well, this is me telling you that’s not the only way. There are as many ways to meditate as there are people in this world. It’s more about finding what works best for YOU, not what you think meditation SHOULD BE.
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Archives with Stevie Macaroni
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blog post with the story behind this massive archives photoset taken by Stevie Macaroni (the image above features Melissa Troutt!)
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7 image mini set
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113 image complete photoset
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a nude video of me at Mobius Arch in California (and a clothed video too but that’s not as exciting)
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5 aerial silks videos of me doing Salto Dive! Sooooo fun!
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3 minute BTS video
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a mini video tour of my van (that I lived out of while road tripping for 2 months)
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FREE ARCHIVED BLOG & PHOTOSET
I originally wrote this for Patreon on May 9 2016. I’m planning on switching everything over from Patreon to my website (here) over the next few months and thought I would share some of my old blogs with you for FREE to show my appreciation for you visiting my website! <3
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My mirror experiments took longer and were more difficult than I expected. Each mirror I added brought it’s own complications. Overall I had fun and though I’m not as satisfied with the images as I want to be I still really like some of them. I want to explore a lot more but I definitely need to find a new space to shoot in, my bedroom isn’t empty enough to really get some good angles and I need better light, too.
(This photoset has 99 images, I’m sharing 10 of my favorites here, the rest of the set can be found in the member galleries!)
I met Kaiman Kazazian once almost exactly 3 years ago when I was fortunate enough to be able to work with her since she was only in town for a short amount of time. The two of us along with several other photographers and models were all hanging out and shooting in an apartment with bare walls and minimal furniture. It was a really quick shoot and we only got one roll but there are so many wonderful photos from it. She is kindhearted and inspiring and I hope our paths cross again.
(This is a 10 image set, here’s 3 of my faves! The rest can be found in the member galleries.)
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Self portraits with Karolina Von
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18 image Instax set
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20 image film double exposure photoset of Hannah
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FREE ARCHIVED BLOG & PHOTOSET
I originally wrote this for Patreon on April 24 2016. I’m planning on switching everything over from Patreon to my website (here) over the next few months and thought I would share some of my old blogs with you for FREE to show my appreciation for you visiting my website! <3
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There are lots of changes coming up for me, the soonest being getting rid of a huge bookshelf and cutting my hair. My mom is on her way here now to help me load up the giant bookshelf and take it to my sister and tomorrow I’m getting a lot of my hair chopped off. It’ll be the shortest it’s ever been and I’m both excited and scared. I just finished up my last self portrait shoot before getting my hair cut so of course I had to incorporate the now-empty bookshelf. Tomorrow I’ll be lighter, one less piece of furniture and a lot less hair. I’m taking a couple of small steps toward the major changes that are going to take place this year: going back to college, possibly (most likely) quitting my desk job, and moving. I’m changing and learning and growing. I’m looking forward to everything that’s going to happen this year.
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Little did I know I didn’t actually end up going back to school and DID end up at another job I didn’t like that much… but not all plans work out like we think they will!
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This self portrait photoset from April 2016 has 70 images total, but I’m just sharing 20 of my faves. =] This is the photoset/bookshelf I mentioned in the blog!
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Self Portraits with Mommy! <3
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blog post with the story behind this self portrait set I took with Mommy to recreate my earliest memory (this photo isn’t the memory, but it’s my FAVORITE photo from the set! I’m sure you can see why)
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4 image mini set
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28 image complete photoset
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55+ minutes of BTS video
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50 image self portrait set at a hidden pool near a waterfall
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2x 2 minute videos of me nude at Colorado National Monument
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FREE ARCHIVED BLOG & PHOTOSET
This blog post was originally shared to patreon on April 15 2016. I’m in the process of moving everything from patreon over here to my website, and thought I’d share this with you for FREE as my way of saying thank you for visiting my site! <3
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Happy Friday! Things are usually too hectic for me to be able to post more than once a week but yay a Friday with less going on! I thought I’d share some fun facts with you:
- Modeling for figure drawing groups/classes is super fun. Especially if I’m able to model with antisocialdisposition like in this drawing!
- I’m a vegetarian, but a new vegetarian. I only started in September. It really wasn’t much of a change for me though since I never ate much meat anyway.
- I have a cool scar next to my left eye from when I was 2 and jumping on the bed instead of taking a nap like I was supposed to and fell off landing on the bed frame with my face. I needed a bunch of stitches and I’m super lucky I didn’t fall any further down because otherwise I’d be a cyclops right now.-I like scars and their stories. What’s your coolest scar?
- I’ve only moved 3 times in my entire life, once when I was 2 or 3 so it doesn’t count, and twice within the past 4 years.
- Moving sucks.
- This Indian food I’m eating right now is delicious.
- I plan on getting a Harry Potter tattoo sleeve when I have the money for it.
- Thanks to aerial silks I can do 6 pull ups in a row.
- The first time I’ve ever been able to do a pull up was within the past 6 months. Lady muscles! Yeah!
- I’m going back to college in the fall and should have more time for photos and traveling and exploring!
- I already have 2 associate degrees.
- I have a younger sister named Kitty. People always thought we were twins when we were little. We’re pretty sure we’re Irish Twins. I’m only a year and a half older than her.
- I believe in energy and it’s healing powers.
- I do not believe in god. I have never believed in god for as long as I can remember.
- I carry 5 stones with me every day. They’re always different ones, whichever I feel are the ones I should have for that day.
- I used to squat down and watch ants scurrying across the ground when I was a kid.
- I still do sometimes.
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Several of those ^^ facts above are no longer accurate, but it’s fun to see where I was in life over 3 years ago…
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Enjoy this self portrait photoset I took in October 2014!
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Roarie Yum at Durham Fruit
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9 minute nude yoga video at Goblin Valley
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38 image self portrait set I took in my host’s house in Tennessee
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9 minutes of me being super excited and showing off a cave I found in Colorado (nude!)
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FREE ARCHIVED BLOG & PHOTOS
This blog was originally posted to patreon on April 10th 2016. I am currently in the process of moving everything from patreon over here to my website, because I don’t trust patreon to continue to allow me to have nude content, but here on my website I have COMPLETE CONTROL. I’m hoping to have everything moved over by the end of the year. =]
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I’ve been thinking today about how much I love exploring and remembering all the wonderful places I’ve been. I’ve clambered up a mountain and climbed down waterfalls to find the perfect little pool in which to photograph a new friend. I’ve been soot-covered in a burned down abandoned house in which I found a death certificate from 20 years ago. I’ve spent 10 minutes just walking around a mansion to see every room, most of which were named after a spice or herb. It was large enough to need 2 staircases and had the most beautiful tree outside the front door, leaves bright yellow in October. I’ve continuously returned to the big abandoned house owned by a peacock and frequented by geese. I’ve been sunburned from not realizing how long I had been taking self portraits in a quarry within walking distance of my apartment. I’ve ran back home after a whirlwind shoot in the quarry right before a thunderstorm started. I’ve been to an abandoned 3 story college with an enormous & prominent staircase on the first floor, all of the giant windows completely broken and gone. I climbed the crooked beams at the back of the college which were mangled as a result of a fire.
I’m so thankful for these and many other amazing unmentioned places I’ve visited. Don’t even get me started on how lucky I am to have met so many fantastic people. =] <3
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