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Art Nuance & Evyenia Karapolous
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Hello! So… gosh weeks go by so fast now. This week I’m sharing I think it’s 3 photosets actually, that I have modeled for, for my friend Nuance Artistry. One of the sets is in a studio, one of the sets is in an abandoned mill, and the other set is with another model. I always say her name wrong. I can spell it really well, but I don’t know if I’m going to say it right so I’m sorry. Evyenia Karapolous, she goes by a different name in real life, that’s her modeling name so I just call her the name that she goes by in real life but that’s not her modeling name. I think these are really great, these are older sets taken probably… 2 more more years ago now. Which feels weird, because time is really really weird.
I think the stuff that’s going into first look is the last time I saw Roarie Yum in person. They modeled for a photographer friend of mine PhotoWyse and I took some behind the scenes stuff and that’s what I’m sharing in First Look is the behind the scenes stuff that I took of Roarie during their shoot with Terry. I’m also sharing to video people the nude yoga video for this month! So yay.
I dont have a lot to say today, I feel like…. so I think I might switch up my schedule again in terms of what I’m doing during the week. I don’t know. Because after July I don’t have very much planned. On Mondays on youtube I’m doing that ecosexual series, and that’ll be finished in 2 weeks I think. I don’t really have anything planned for after that so I might take a break on that. I’ve really been enjoying the Thursday group hangout member gathering things, the video hangouts, but I also feel like maybe I should have more structure around it or change it up for something else. I haven’t decided. I feel like I’m perpetually switching up what I want to do. So I appreciate that yall want to hang around! I for sure am going to do the members hangout this week, which by the time you get this will have already happened because it’s tonight, Thursday night, not Saturday when this is going to be uploaded. Part of me wants to pause those for a little bit and recalibrate. I started doing them kindof at the beginning of quarantine as a way to stay connected, and they’ve been really fun, but at the same time… it’s just hanging out. And I feel like I want more than that, but I also don’t know exactly what I want that to be. But I also know that I want to have time for expanding things in the future like maybe teaching courses, queer hangouts, trans support group… I don’t know! I might switch stuff up, I might slow down or have more structure to or cancel or change the schedule for the group chats. I just know that something isn’t quite how I want it to be yet and I just don’t know where I want to go yet. I change so much! I’m glad that I’m not stagnant and stuck in the same thing over and over again, but I am noticing the need for change, I’m just not quite in the place where I know what that is yet.
I probably will no longer model for photographers, at least for a while, unless they’re like queer and/or trans people. I haven’t really wanted to model in a while and it just feels like another way for people to consume me in a way that is not really me. Because my naked body most people think (some flying thing just came into my space)… my naked body gets attention from people that I don’t necessarily want attention from, and I definitely don’t want sexual attention from like anybody. I feel like if I’m less naked (AHH what’s with the bugs today! there was a bug that was crawling on my foot!) I feel like if I’m less naked on the internet I’ll get less attention in the ways that I don’t want. I also feel like me being naked on the internet is a good chunk of the reason why people give me money and how I can pay my rent so that’s complicated. I definitely want to switch to a more queer trans ecosexual healing kindof platform, but I don’t know how to do that in a way that I’m still sustaining my self financially. I just know that I have way too many cis straight men who follow me and want to work with me, and that’s not really the like… I mean I love all of you people who are here of course… but in terms of new people finding me I’d much rather them be queer or trans or women or you know… not cis straight men. Sorry. Queer people are my people! Trans people are my people! Ecosexual people are my people! Cis straight men are not really my people. I have some wonderful cis straight men in my life that I super appreciate and love a whole lot, but in terms of the audience that I want to gather around myself and the community I want to create around myself and my business is not going to be catered to cis straight men and they are not the people I want to gather around me in large quantities. Because most of them probably see me as a woman and probably see me as somebody they want to have sex with and I do not want either of those things from them. Maybe that’s me not having enough faith in cis straight men to understand my queerness and to not objectify me and sexualize me, but based on my 30 years of life experience, I don’t have a lot of faith in cis straight men doing those things, unfortunately.
I just don’t know what to do to change things to be more of what I want them to be. I guess I just need to show up in the way that is authentic to myself and that will draw the right people around me because if I’m myself then more people like me will find me. I just feel like, I don’t want my work to be centered around…. okay so I love nudity and I DO want my work to be centered around nudity, but I want it to be centered around nudity in a non-sexual way that is healing and affirming and inclusive and NOT in a sexual or exploitative or objectifying in any way. I don’t know, I just know things need to change and I’m not exactly sure what that is yet or what that means. I just appreciate yall being here along for the ride. I’m always changing so my website is always changing and the things I’m doing are always changing. So I appreciate you being here in whatever capacity you’re here, if you’re a cis straight man I hope I didn’t make you too upset. Maybe go through my youtube and look at all my ecosexual stuff and in my resources here on my website I have a video on gender and sexuality that’s over an hour long. So if some of the queerness things are intriguing to you, I have resources already that I would love for you to check out, that’s more of my face talking to you!
I think it’s kinda interesting that… I was looking at some of the videos that I made last summer during my cross country road trip and I was thinking about how different I am from the person that I was last year and it’s made me a little bit sad because I was so much happier last summer when I was in all the nature. Here now is like, quarantine and stress and isolation and stuckness and a lot of numbness so I don’t quite know how to reconcile that and I realize that the whole entire planet is going through a lot right now with all of the oppression and fear and all the bullshit. It makes sense that I’m not the same happy person that I was last year. I also miss that person! I miss being completely overjoyed by rounding a corner and finding some vast amazing landscape, I miss being able to get in my van and just GO and stop anywhere and hang out and not worry about germs and play naked in a pile with other naked people and hang out and cuddle. I just… you probably feel it too. Everything’s harder this year. Thanks 2020!
I just want to find a way that I can share and affirm and honor queerness and transness and uplift that, and heal through that. I’m not quite sure what that means yet, but I’m working in that direction. Thank you for exploring existence with me. I love you, thank you for being here, I appreciate you so much. Bye!
Video members:
click here to view the full studio photoset with Nuance Artistry
click here for the abandoned mill photoset
click here for the photoset with Evyenia Karapolous
click here to view the BTS videos
click here to view the nude yoga video for JulyFirst Look members:
click here to view the BTS photos & videos from Roarie Yum‘s shoot with PhotoWyse -
V & baby
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vlog with the story behind this photoset of V & her son
- 24 image complete photoset
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36 minutes Scorpio Full Moon life reset video from May 2019 – watch me reorganize my crystals and magickal supplies
- 14+ minute nude yoga video
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12 minute vlog at Colorado National Monument (Live Life For You)
- 6 minute vlog at Colorado National Monument (before I found the cave!)
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V & baby
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Hello! Good morning! I kinda feel like just walking around a little bit today so I’m probably going to walk and do this, I hope it’s not too distracting to yall. So much has been happening, I’m excited that systemic racism is becoming very apparent to most of society because that is important because we can’t fix anything if we don’t know what’s wrong. I just keep getting very angry when I go on social media so today I’m going to focus on work because the last few days I’ve basically gotten stuck on social media for several hours at a time sometimes and that is not good for my mental health. I’m sure it’s not good for anybody’s really.
This weekend I’m sharing a photoset that I took of my friend V at her house. I’m lucky enough that she lives not too far from me, she lives less than an hour away. I took these sometime last year, it was not super long after she had her baby (there’s a squirrel all over that fence over there) so she had her baby and we took some photos and I think they’re wonderful. Since then she has had another baby and I believe I have already shared photos of her pregnant with that baby, I think? I can’t keep up. These photos are really great, I really enjoyed taking them. It’s always kinda funny to figure out how to take photos when babies are involved because they don’t understand language yet, and even if they did they’re going to be like “well, I’m going to do my own thing” because they’re babies. Wrangling babies isn’t my specialty, I’ve only done a couple of shoots that have involved children or babies, and I think most of them have been with V actually, so they’re a little bit more rare in terms of the quantity of shoots that I create with people that have babies, there aren’t very many. I can’t think of any others right now off the top of my head so I think the only ones I have are of V. (EDIT: I’ve since remembered that I’ve taken newborn photos for my aunt when one of my cousins was born) She’s always wonderful to take photos of, I love her enthusiasm and her willingness to be creative and try new things and just hang out, she’s super sweet.
What else do I want to talk about? The video that I’m sharing today (technically not today today when I’m making this video bc it’s Thursday but today when you’re seeing this video), the video I’m sharing I took in May of 2019. This was not long before I left for my cross country road trip last summer and it was during the Scorpio Full Moon. It was basically a life reset for me, I was energetically resetting my room, I moved around all of my furniture and I was redoing my altar and where all my crystals were. I have since moved again so everything’s different from where they were, but this video is just me redoing all my crystals and my altar stuff. Symbolically and energetically resetting my life during that full moon. I think it’s like 30 minutes of video or something, it’s a lot of video, but it’s just me doing that, so that’s pretty cool. I believe I was also on my period, which is… ah I am so connected to my period, I love having my period, it’s a really great release, physically energetically emotionally.
What else do I want to talk to you about today? I think last week I told you about how I had finished my backlog, which I am very excited about! Finally! It’s taken me like a year to finish it. What else… yes I am walking around in circles around the magnolia tree. The light here is really good I think I might just stay here though. Ok so I have some ideas for things that I want to do but I have to actually spend time doing them in order to get them done. I don’t want to say too much about that right now, I’m just thinking out loud. Yesterday I took some really experimental photos, yes I took photos again! Like twice in a month which is something I haven’t done in 6+ months. I got out a panoramic pinhole camera that my dad and I made out of wood and metal when I was in college so that was like 10 fucking years ago holy shit. I graduated from high school 12 years ago, time is weird! Time does not make sense. But my dad and I made this camera, it’s a panoramic pinhole camera and it takes medium format film. I had a roll of color, I think it’s color film, I don’t even know for sure honestly, it was expired, I think it was Konica film, I have no idea how expired it was, probably pretty expired. 220 format, so it’s 120 but twice as long, so it’s twice as many photos. I hope it’s color because I want to see them in color, but I shot this whole roll with my panoramic pinhole camera out here in the back yard yesterday. I have no fucking idea if any of it’s going to come out at all, for multiple reasons. I’m not even sure I loaded the film right! I’m pretty sure I did because I went back in and checked it before I started. I’m not sure I loaded the film right, the film was very expired, I was partially guessing on the exposure. I did check the exposure but this thing isn’t an exact science, it’s a pinhole, I can’t measure the aperture of a pinhole, so I think it’s around f/150 which is fucking tiny. I think it’s between f/150 – f/200. To give you an idea of how tiny that is, a lot of people shoot at an aperture of f/16, f/11, f/8, f/4, or f/2.8 so f/150 and f/200 is fucking tiny. It’s a pinhole, literally a pin hole in a piece of metal, like tiny hole. But I’m really excited, I hope they come out, I have no idea if they will and it’s ok if they don’t, it was a fun adventure if they don’t come out. I thought about it after the fact that I didn’t take any BTS video, so I don’t have any video, so I don’t have any evidence of it unless the photos come out. It was a fun creative activity anyway whether or not it comes out. I was outside naked in the back yard being creative, that was the fun that I wanted to have and I had it!
I think that’s all I have to share today. I just wanted to say that I love you, and I hope you’re having a wonderful day. I personally am feeling better today even though today is the start of Mercury Retrograde, I think it’s Retrograde through the 12th of July, so hopefully I don’t have any electronic problems. Maybe that’s why I’m feeling like I can’t come up with any words for this because communication is weird during Mercury Retrograde, so I’m just like… I don’t know. I hope you’re having a wonderful day. I love you, thank you so much for being here with me, and I’m excited to keep sharing… whatever I share with you. Bye!
Video members:
click here to view the full photoset of V & her son
click here to view the Scorpio Full Moon life reset video from May 2019 – watch me reorganize my crystals and magickal supplies
click here to view the nude yoga video for this monthFirst Look members:
click here to view the vlog at Colorado National Monument (Live Life For You)
click here to view the vlog at Colorado National Monument (before I found the cave!) -
Sura & Shawnna Lee
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Hi friends! I actually have my camera set up on a surface so I have my hands! And it’s not gonna be jiggly, so yay! This week I’m sharing with you a photoset that I took of Sura & Shawnna Lee at a nude beach outside of Portland Oregon, during the nude beach gathering that I shared with you last weekend. We took these next to/inside of this structure that we found on the beach, it was really beautiful. It was such a fun time! This was after the group stuff we did at the beginning, we split off into our own little groups, and me and one or two other photographers photographed Sura & Shawnna at this wooden structure that was already on the beach, so it was a beautiful wonderful fun time! I’m also playing ball with Pax. I’ve already talked about the nude beach gathering so I don’t feel like I have much to talk about it, plus I have one or two photosets from that day to still share with you, the big group one where we had the cuddle pile so I’m excited about that one. That one’s coming very soon.My time right now, so today is Thursday, and I’m sharing all of this stuff on Saturday like usual, so I’m feeling MUCH better than last week. I tend to forget how awful I feel emotionally right before I start my period, so I’m in a deep dark hole of my mind for a while, then I start bleeding and I feel a thousand times better. So here I am feeling a thousand times better. I started bleeding a day or two after I made the last video and immediately started feeling so much better. I should remember this, it happens every month, so I shouldn’t have that hard of a time remembering, but I’m so in my feels that I forget that it’s a monthly thing and it’s going to pass, I just feel like shit because I’m going to start my period. Hehe Pax loves to play ball, I’ll show you. Are you gonna drop it? There you go! So that’s what I’m doing today, is playing ball with Pax and getting all of your content ready for this weekend.
So… yeah I feel way better. I’m actually planning some online interviews with model friends of mine, actually modelographers, so far everyone’s a model and photographer. Right now I have something coming up on Sunday, so the day after this is posted it’ll be tomorrow. We haven’t completely ironed out a time yet, but I’ll post it on my IG. It’ll be an IG live, where we’re together in the IG live, not in person, but split screen I think. I haven’t actually done a 2 person live before so I’m excited about that, we’ll see how that works. We’re going to be interviewing each other and talking about our art and our feelings probably, so I’m excited about that. I have another friend model/photographer that we just started talking about it today, so hopefully we’ll be doing an interview in the coming weeks, don’t know when yet. (Okay I’ll throw the ball…. ready? ready? He’s so cute!) So I’m excited for that, I have more things online for yall. I don’t know where I’ll do the second one yet, but I know the first one with my friend Babexland, aka Bette Machete, you’ve seen lots of photos of her on my website, because I’ve taken a bunch of photos with her which is super great because she’s local to Charlotte so we’ve been able to get together several times. I’m excited to talk about all kinds of art things with her and hopefully schedule other interviews with other creators. (What do you see Pax? Is it a squirrel? There’s a squirrel in the tree.) Yeah, so that’s kinda all I have going on right now, just planning things to do online to share with people.
If you haven’t watched it yet, I last week, no at the beginning of this week, I did a livestream on my youtube channel about ecosexuality so if you’ve been curious about what that is, if you scroll back through my posts, I posted that video, it’s over an hour long, I just talked about ecosexuality because I have so much to say! So if you’re curious about what ecosexuality is and how I embody that, you can scroll back a bit to watch that video. (CLICK HERE TO WATCH)
Today is Thursday so I have our members only live video gathering coming up tonight, which I’m excited about. I have some ideas for some other videos I want to make, but right now I’m gonna just be winging it for the youtube livestreams. I have more of a plan for the member live chats, I might have them be similar to each other, the Monday and Thursday ones, I haven’t completely decided. I’m just kinda going with how I feel on that day to be honest. I do have the schedule on bunnyluna.com/schedule with a basic overview of what the topics could be, but those are up for change and based on what everybody’s interested in. The video tonight, Thursday, which will have already happened by the time this posts, I’ll be talking about topics and what yall are interested in doing and talking about for the Thursday video gatherings together. I’m excited about that.
I think that’s most of what I have to say. I’m still figuring out what I want to do and how I want to do it. I appreciate yall being here and going on this journey with me. I want to go more in the metaphysical direction, and the healing direction, and the feelings direction. I don’t want to just focus on photography. I love photography, but I feel like I have a lot more to say than just “hey here are my photos” so I’m excited to share all of that with you. I appreciate yall being here and I love you so much and I look forward to spending all of these Thursday evenings with you! I think that’s all for today! I love you! Thank you for being here with me! I literally could not do this without you, I appreciate you so much! MWAH!
Photo members: click here to view the full photoset of Sura & Shawnna Lee at a nude beach outside of Portland Oregon
Video members: click here to view the BTS video & click here to watch this month’s nude yoga video
First Look members: click here to view the self portrait photoset at the edge of the world in Colorado National Monument & click here to view the 4 short inspirational videos -
Sura & Shawnna Lee
Photo members now have access to:
- vlog with the story behind this photoset I took of Sura & Shawnna Lee at a nude beach outside of Portland Oregon + updates on my current life stuff =]
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34 image complete photoset
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everything above
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10 minutes of BTS video
- 12+ minute nude yoga video
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everything above
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36 image complete self portrait photoset at the edge of the world in Colorado National Monument
- 4 short inspirational videos
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Sura with Pegasus & self portraits
I have soooo much to still share with you from the nude beach gathering I facilitated last summer outside of Portland Oregon! This set of Sura is from that day on the beach! She has such a fun, wild, and exuberant energy and is an absolute pleasure to create with. You can probably imagine how much fun she is just by looking at these photos of her with the Pegasus float she brought with her for the event!
The self portraits I’ve shared this week are from August 2018 (I have several more sets from that trip to share with you too!) when I took my first solo trip to the NC mountains. That was a time of growth and learning for me, when I first started understanding that I can do things on my own instead of having to always have someone with me to have a good experience. That trip really helped me know that I could for sure do the cross country trip by myself last summer.
CURRENTLY: Today is the 10th (getting ready early as always) and I started my period yesterday (during the full moon) and today I have been feeling not so great emotionally. I continue to feel stuck and unfulfilled and like I need more things to change in my life and I’m still not quite to the place where I know what those changes are yet. I do know that I have been gravitating much more toward doing more videos for y’all instead of text and/or photo posts, and I’m VERY seriously considering not doing the daily photo posts anymore because of the time commitment it is for me to get them all prepped for you every month, plus from my understanding most of you probably only sign on to my website once a week or so anyway. Also, you ALL have access to ALL of my photos anyway… so you literally won’t be missing much at all. I feel like I could bring a lot more value to you here if I did MORE video content for EVERYONE and stop doing the daily photos. I do enjoy doing the weekly photoset releases and blogs, so I probably will continue those.
What do you think? No more daily photo posts, and replace them with videos/vlogs 1-4x a month? Comment below or email me at bunnyluna@pm.me!
I have daily photo posts scheduled through the end of this month… the change would start in April.
Depending on how well the group live video chat goes on Sunday I may do those with you every month as well.
REMINDER: Sunday the 15th at 7pm EST is the intimate members only group live video chat with me!
I will share the login info with you HERE on my blog 5-10 minutes before the chat starts, so make sure to check back for all the info on how to join me! It will be via freeconferencecall.com (you can join on your computer/laptop OR via their app on your phone!) so make sure to give yourself 5-10 minutes or so to download the app (for computer or phone) beforehand so you can join us!
Photo members: click here to view the full photoset of Sura with a Pegasus float on a nude beach outside of Portland Oregon and click here for the full set of self portraits I took in the NC mountains
Video members: click here to view the BTS video & click here to view the nude yoga video for this month
First Look members: click here to view the photoset of me at Lassen Volcanic National Park in California taken by From the Edge Photography, click here to view the BTS video, & click here to watch my vlog on reparations -
Sura with Pegasus & self portraits
Photo members now have access to:
- blog post with the story behind these photosets: Sura with a Pegasus float on a nude beach outside of Portland Oregon and self portraits I took in the NC mountains
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- 18 image complete self portrait set
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everything above
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8 minutes of BTS video with Sura
- 21+ minute nude yoga video for this month
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everything above
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33 image complete photoset of me at Lassen Volcanic National Park in California taken by From the Edge Photography
- 8 short BTS videos
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19 minute vlog about reparations
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Magnolia with Celeste Call
All of the images I created with Celeste Call were taken in the span of a few hours, and this is the last set I have left to share with you from that wonderfully fun and creative day. Click here to see the other photoset she took of me, and click here to see the photoset I took of her!
CURRENTLY: I’ve been feeling off lately. One day I’ll feel totally fine, and another I’ll feel sad, purposeless, anxious, and irritable. Right now I think I’m in a weird in-between space, where I’m still doing most of the work-type things that I’ve been doing for years, but it doesn’t feel quite the same, or hold the same weight that it once did. I feel like there’s something more, something different that I’m supposed to be doing but I don’t quite know what that something is.
I’ve been making videos a bit more recently, but so far I’ve just saved them to my hard drive and then not touched them. The thought of editing hours of videos is overwhelming to me right now, and I still have some self portrait sets from last summer to go through and upload, though that doesn’t feel as scary as it did a few months ago. I tend to put off the computer work/organizing/editing part of my job more than anything else, because it stresses me out and it feels so big and is my least favorite part of being a photographer and content creator. The problem with putting it off, is that it gets bigger and there’s more to do the longer I put it off. I go through spurts of inspired and determined action, where I’ll spend an entire day editing photos or videos, and then not touch anything again for weeks. I get a LOT done on those days, but I don’t want to make myself feel like anytime I edit etc I have to spend an entire day on it. I can allow myself to just do one thing at a time, one day at a time. Things still get done, whether I do 15 photosets in a day or just 1. Just doing 1 is probably kinder to myself, and my eyes after staring at a screen so long.
I really enjoy creating, I just want to be able to hire someone to help me with the admin side of things. That would be so incredibly nice, and also give me more time to create instead of stare at a computer screen. That day will come, I know it will.
For now, I’ll keep doing what I’m doing and let myself figure it all out along the way.
Photo members: click here to view the full photoset of me taken by Celeste Call
Video members: click here to view the BTS video & click here to view the February nude yoga video
First Look members: click here to view the self portrait set from Colorado National Monument during my cross country road trip last summer & click here to view another self portrait set also from CNM -
Magnolia with Celeste Call
Photo members now have access to:
- blog post with the story behind this photoset of me taken by Celeste Call
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63 image complete photoset
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everything above
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6 minutes of BTS video
- 15.5+ minute nude yoga video
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everything above
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59 image complete self portrait set from Colorado National Monument during my cross country road trip last summer
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32 image complete self portrait set also from CNM
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Doubles with Singingsiren44
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- blog post with the story behind this film double exposure photoset of Singingsiren44 in the Rocky Mountains
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37 image complete photoset
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everything above
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8+ minutes of BTS video
- 30 minute nude yoga video for this month
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50 image complete photoset with Quinn Sanguine by Megan Ayn in Tacoma Washington
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24 minutes of BTS video