• How Self Portraiture Connects Me to Myself

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    Hi friends! Welcome to another week of me making a vlog. Today I want to talk about how self-portraiture connects me to myself.

    I first started taking self-portraits in…. I actually don’t know what year because it’s been a very long time. I started seriously taking self-portraits, like for specific art purposes in maybe 2010? but I was definitely taking self-portraits way before that, maybe since I was like 14 or 15, but I didn’t start taking nude ones until I was 18 and older for obvious reasons. 

    I learned quickly that self-portraiture helps me feel more into my body and feel more connected to my emotions and myself, and part of that is because I feel like I’m more able to release all of everything else like societal bullshit and just be myself when I’m in front of a camera and it’s just me that’s taking the photos.

    It’s very different when I’m posing for someone else taking photos, because I feel more like, “oh, I need to take pictures that they will be happy with” but when it’s self portraits, I can do whatever I want because it’s me taking the photos. So it’s whatever I’m feeling and if I like them, I can share them. But if I don’t have to, and there’s no pressure of like, “oh I have this expectation from someone else”.

    So because I don’t have the limitations of someone else’s ideas of what they would like in these photos, I’m able to really connect with “Okay, how am I feeling today, in this moment? And how would I like to portray that in these images?” And sometimes I just take photos, and I never share them. And it’s just so that I can get emotions out, because sometimes I feel like it’s hard for me to just, like, sit in my emotions if I don’t have something that I’m doing to allow me to move through them, if that makes sense.

    I think it’s kind of hard to just be like, “Oh, I’m having feelings and this is it. Like I’m just experiencing them in my body” because I kind of tend to want to like do something else instead and push away the emotions but when I have the container of a photoshoot with myself, then I’m able to really like focus and be like, “okay, the whole purpose of this moment is for me to connect with myself and my emotions and my body, and how I’m feeling and move through those emotions in a way that allows me to express them in my body and that shows in the images”. And for me, usually the most powerful images that I’ve taken have been self-portraits where I’ve allowed myself to FEEL. 

    So yeah, that’s the cliff notes of how self-portraiture connects me to myself. I’m also able to kind of experiment with who I am and who I want to be, and if I want to pretend to be someone else, and express different parts of myself, because I feel like there aren’t a lot of chances for us to explore different facets of our personalities and our thoughts and desires. There’s not a lot of context for that most times, but if I’m taking self-portraits, it can be whatever I want it to be and I can be an evil villain or I can be an innocent child, or I can be totally myself or someone else. I can be anything and it doesn’t really matter because they’re photos that I’m taking for myself. So I feel way less pressure to create something specific and I can just, I can be all of those selves in one photo shoot if I want and I think that’s very special.

    So I hope you are inspired to take self portraits. I would love for you to do that. I would love to see what you create! I have a Discord server, I’ll link below, but if you’d like to take self-portraits and share them with people that appreciate art and nudity and self-portraiture, you can share them on my Discord, it’s free! You can join for free. Just come on and join us! Yeah, I’d love to see what you create.

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    If you would like to create self portraits in a group setting, where you are off doing your own thing, but then you can come back and communicate and collaborate with others or do a group self-portrait. We will be doing Conscious Creativity, August 27th and 28th in Ypsilanti, Michigan with Lior Allay and Roarie Yum. I’m so excited! This is gonna be our first in-person workshop since the pandemic started, so that’s quite an opportunity. I would love for you to join us if you’re able. I’ll share the Eventbrite information below. It has all the details of all the information you’ll need to know. But if there’s anything that you’re wondering about and the information is not the Eventbrite, just shoot me an email or comment below and I will do my best to get back to you and give you the information that you need. Yeah. I’m going to link the Eventbrite below. I’d love for you to join us. 

    All the information about Conscious Creativity is at this link!

    Let’s take self portraits together! August 27th and 28th, it’s 2days, they’re both half days. And yeah, I’m super stoked for this event. I’m very excited! So, if you’d like to join us, information’s below and I will talk to you soon. I love you! Bye!

    Create self portraits with me at Conscious Creativity!

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    Happy day-after-the-full-moon-eclipse! The self portrait sets I’m sharing this week kinda don’t really match what I want to talk to you about… I’ll explain. These self portraits were taken when I was feeling pretty low. Scared for the future of our country, scared for my future and your future, feeling hopeless because I didn’t know the actions to take to make any kind of difference, upset because I had read too much online about all the terrible things happening. Some of my emotions show up in these photos and I’m glad I took them when I did, when I was sad/upset/hopeless/scared. I used self portraiture to work out some of my feelings and it helped me feel a little better.

    What I want to talk to you about this week is positivity and the power of our minds. The power of positive thinking. All week I’ve been listening to youtube videos of Abraham Hicks  speaking about the law of attraction, Eckhart Tolle speaking about the power of now, Louise Hay‘s positive affirmations, and various other positive affirmations. I’ve spent at least 4-9 hours each day, Monday through Friday, listening to all these uplifting, encouraging, powerful speakers. It has honestly changed my life already. I know I did an intro to positive affirmations blog post recently, but I can’t tell you enough how influential and POWERFUL they are! A day or two ago (after listening to a couple of day’s worth of these videos) I made a vow to myself that I will be positive in all aspects of my life, and I have already felt so much more joy and beauty and happiness since then. I am choosing to see everything from a positive perspective and boy is my life wonderful!!! I took a wrong turn and totally didn’t go where I meant to? Well look at this super cute little town I discovered on accident! I had to go grocery shopping after work yesterday? I wouldn’t have seen that amazingly beautiful sunset as I walked out of the store if I hadn’t gone! I spent a bunch of money on art supplies? I’m super excited to start making those color zines for you next month!

    I highly encourage you to click some of the links above (any of them, or even better, all of them) and do some reading. You know those days when you wake up on the wrong side of the bed and your day starts out shitty and continues to be shitty or gets even shittier? That’s because of the law of attraction, when you start your day thinking about how crappy it is, the rest of your day is of course going to be crappy! That’s the energy you’re sending out so it’s the energy you receive. It works the other way around, too. If you wake up thankful for having a bed to sleep in, a house to live in, thankful that you’re ALIVE and you WOKE UP for another day, thankful that there are a million other things to be thankful for, happy that today is a brand new day that you get to be one more step closer to making your dream come true… the rest of your day and week and month and year are going to be amazing! If you send out the energy of gratitude, love, happiness, joy, and abundance, then that is exactly what you’re going to get back. If you set your mind to something, whatever that something is will happen. It may not be immediately or this week or this month or this year, but if you truly want it and work toward it and think about it excitedly and happily and as if it is on it’s way to you, it will happen.

    My dad has said that he wishes he had reached higher, because he has gotten everything he has ever asked for and worked toward: a loving wife and children, a successful career, even a white cadillac. And you know what? It’s not too late to reach higher. He just recently got the best job he’s ever had (and he’s had some pretty good jobs already), he’s working LESS and making MORE.

    REACH FOR THE SKY! Things may not happen the way that you expect them to but if you travel through life with gratitude and love then you will always be happy and successful.

    You never lose, you either learn or you win.

    I might go into this more in depth in the next couple weeks, I really want to talk to you more about Abraham Hicks, Eckhart Tolle, and Louise Hay. I just think this blog is pretty long already haha. I may start doing some videos about this too….. I’ll probably do a poll to see what you think, and I always love getting comments and messages from you!

    I love you, thank you so much for being here with me and I hope I can bring some love and light into your life, even if it’s just through a computer screen.

    ***EDIT*** March 24 2020 as I’m scheduling this post: Three years ago I didn’t know what spiritual bypassing was, and this post sounds a lot like spiritual bypassing. Here’s a definition from Wikipedia: “A spiritual bypass or spiritual bypassing is a “tendency to use spiritual ideas and practices to sidestep or avoid facing unresolved emotional issues, psychological wounds, and unfinished developmental tasks”. The term was introduced in the early 1980s by John Welwood, a Buddhist teacher and psychotherapist.”

    I want to point out that while being positive is certainly a good thing, it is NOT good to ignore or avoid the full range of emotions and experiences that are an integral part of our lives. We are allowed to have “bad” days. It’s okay to not feel/be okay. Whatever you’re feeling is worthy of your attention, curiosity, and care. I might do a post sometime about feeling ALL of our emotions, and why it’s important.

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