• Personal update: residencies + nerve injuries

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    Hi friends! I don’t know why I didn’t sit very comfortably… actually. I do know why I didn’t sit very comfortably, because things are wet, but I wanted to be outside, so I’ll be sitting weirdly to try to not get too wet. I have some I guess news to share. It’s not really news? I have been working on an application for a residency in Virginia that would be a month in the spring. I want it so muuuuuch! So I’ve been working on it a lot this last week and I’m close to being finished with it. I’m getting some more feedback from people that I value their opinions. So taking that into consideration. I have some more edits to do but I’m really excited and I’m pretty happy with it so far. And I really, really, really, really, really, really hope that I get this residency. It would be perfect. It’s an hour from Shenandoah, so you know I would be spending a lot of time there! Yeah, so I really hope I get it! I’m really excited, working really hard on it, so hopefully that will happen.

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    Another new thing. I had a routine STI test because you know, safe sex is hot! And the third time in my life I have a nerve injury. Yay… That’s a very sarcastic yay if you couldn’t tell. Wow, there’s a lot of mosquitoes! I’m not gonna be out here for too long. Okay, so I got my blood drawn in the usual place, you know the crook of your arm, and as soon as the needle went in I knew they nicked a nerve because I felt it like electricity down my hand, down my arm and into my hand. So it’s like the section here and then into the bottom of my thumb, is randomly has lightning strikes in it of pain and little random places of tingly and numbness.

    I’m apparently prone to getting nerve injuries. If you were here in 2016, you knew about the wrist drop that I had for three months where I like, couldn’t lift my wrist like this. I couldn’t make a thumbs up and I couldn’t open, I couldn’t expand my fingers all the way. It was on my right hand, which is my dominant hand. I might link to it, if you want to see it. It’s been a really long time, but for three months, I didn’t have use of my right hand. I mean, obviously, I do now, but it was pretty scary. Nerve injuries are not fun.

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    But in 2019, the same thing happened with the blood draw. I had a blood draw and it was the same thing and I still have a little numb spot right here, from that in 2019. Luckily I don’t have the pain anymore, that part of the nerve has healed, but I still never regained the feeling in this little spot right here. So hopefully this feels and goes away quickly. It’s not fun, nerve injuries are weird.

    I’m like surrounded by mosquitoes right now! Holy moly. Okay. Try to move to make them not land on me. Please don’t, I don’t want you sucking my blood! Yeah. So those are the main new things happening in my life. I’m going camping next week, I’m really excited! I get to see my friend and then I have a whole lot going on in October.

    Yeah, I still have a whole bunch of self portraits that I took last year I think, or also some this year, but I have a whole bunch of self portraits that I’ve taken more recently that I haven’t had the energy to go through them because there’s so many and it’s kind of overwhelming and I want to, like, pare them down to my favorites, but I’m just overwhelmed by how many there are so I haven’t really looked at them, but I do have them and I need to look through them. It’s just very daunting to me right now at this point. Mosquitoes, goodness! I will have more self portraits for you at some point soon hopefully, I just need to take the time to look through them.

    Actually, you know what might be fun? Maybe we can do a thing where you look through them with me and it’s like a co-working thing, except you just tell me which photos are your favorites. Maybe we will do that at some point. I need to like, find the time schedule that because that might actually be really fun. And y’all might like that. I don’t know, but it will definitely help me look through those photos if I had some friend accountability to do it. It’s just so… I it’s like overwhelming because there’s too many to look at and I feel like I need to do it all in one sitting. Maybe that’s my problem is I feel like I need to do it all in one sitting, why do I feel that way?

    (I HAVE A SURVEY BELOW WHERE YOU CAN SHARE FEEDBACK!)

    Oh my gosh mosquitoes, oh a squirrel! Okay, I’m getting it distracted now. I’ve talked about the important things. It’s already been 5 minutes. Okay. I just want to say y’all are amazing. I am thinking about you all the time. I am stressed out by computer work things, which is why I haven’t been posting that much recently. I think about you all the time and I want to figure out a way to be more consistent and like, actually share things on here that is sustainable for me. Because being on the computer for hours a day is not my favorite thing. It stresses me out a lot and it’s not enjoyable. So I need to figure out how to do things in a way that I’m still able to share with you, but it doesn’t require as much time on the computer. 

    So, if you have any ideas, I’m definitely open to that because I really want to share more with you and spend more time with you. Maybe I maybe instead of having Vlogs, we can just hang out live because that to me doesn’t take as much energy. That’s more fun than just like sitting at a desk. Okay, Yeah. Into feedback! I love you all so much! Thank you for being here and I’ll talk to you soon!


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  • Traveling + creation on the horizon!

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    Hi friends! 

    So, I wanted to try something new, I am making this early, that’s not new, but I’m making this early, because I will be traveling for the first three weeks of August. and I’m excited!! But I also know that while I’m traveling, I probably will not be able to make a new blog post and stuff for y’all or post them because I don’t know what my internet access is going to be like, so I wanted to do a little bit of stuff in preparation for my trip, so that y’all still had things to enjoy from me while I’m gone + I don’t have to worry about like, “oh no, I need to do something now, but I don’t have internet.” So to alleviate my stress and to make sure that y’all still have fun things from me, I’m making some stuff early Yay! So I don’t have a super plan. I have some self portraits that I’ve taken that I haven’t shared anywhere yet and I haven’t even looked through all of them yet either if I can look through them and like, pick my favorites before my trip, I’m going to share those with you. Otherwise I might have to wait till after but we’ll see how much time I have and if I can look through them and share them before I leave or like at least schedule them. 

    So that’s a potential thing that I will be sharing, maybe. Yes, I actually took some self-portraits this year and I also thought it might be fun to share some photos and videos from shoots from my past to be like “hey if you’re new here, this is some stuff that I used to do” or like “this is what I used to look like before all the tattoos and the no hair. I looked different. So yeah, I am here to, I guess, just tell you expect some fun interesting things from me that I’m not sure what I’m going to share yet, but it’s going to be cool! I’m excited to share something with you even though I don’t know what it is yet! Yeah I’m excited! So right now today is I think July 22nd? or 23rd? 22nd?

    Does it really matter exactly what day it is? It’s the second to last week of July, right now as I’m recording this. So I have a post coming out on the 24th which is this Saturday, which you’ll probably see this before this video comes out but I’m excited about that because I worked really hard on it and it’s about how queer nature is! Well it’s not even all the examples of how queer nature is but it’s a few examples to share with you. So I’m excited for that. August 1st is the virtual nude gathering for August, which…

    Oh my, I’m sorry for dropping you. That was not supposed to happen. Okay, I think it’s because I had it leaned a lot because I was like, I don’t.. yeah, sorry, you fell. I already forgot what I was saying. 

    Oh yeah. The nature is queer post that’s coming out on 24th and then the virtual nude gathering is on August 1st. I’m not sure if you’ll see this before then or not so I’m mentioning it.  I have a Blog that I made that I read a part of a book but I think I’m going to post that for the free part of my website. I wanted to post some stuff for just members because y’all are special and I love you and because you need all like I want to share all of the coolest things with you. But I also want to share a lot of cool things for free too because I think it’s important for people to have access to my content without having to pay for it. While also having extra awesome things for the people who do pay for it because the people who pay for it, which is you, are the reason that I am able to like, pay my rent and like have food and go on trips and take photos. So y’all are the reason I’m able to do any of this. So I just wanted to share my appreciation for you and let you know that I have some cool stuff coming up. I’m just not sure exactly what I’m going to share yet because I have a lot of options and it’s hard for me to pick, so yeah.

     

    Also, I don’t know if you’ve seen, I have more color now! Can I show you that? So this one I got already last time… this I already had but all the stuff above my knee is new, can you see it? And then obviously we’re not done because there’s a lot more to go because *gestures at all the outlines not colored in yet* yeah, but… done 2 color sessions! I’m closer to being a tree in color!

    Okay, yeah, I don’t want to make this too long and I would like to go and pick what I want to share with you, so I’m going to go do that. I love you! Thank you so much for being here! It means the world. I actually might share a survey here so that you can let me know the kinds of things that you like the most, because that’s important for me to know and I would love to hear what yall are most interested in, so I’ll put a link to that in this blog post too so you can share with me whatever you want to see. And then I can be like, oh, now I know what they want to see, I can do more of that! Okay, I love you! Thank you for being here! I’ll talk to you soon. Maybe before I leave on my trip, maybe during my trip, maybe after. Who knows?! But I’ll have plenty of stuff to share with you while I’m gone. I’ll just queue stuff up because…  yeah, I like to plan ahead. I love you! Thank you for being here! I’ll talk to you soon! Mwah!


     


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  • Members-only events survey reminder!

    YAYYYYY it’s official, I’m going to be hosting members-only events again starting in March!

    I plan on one members-only event per month to start off with with the potential to include more in the future.

    I want to do them a little differently than I did before by having a topic to focus on and expand on together. I also want to make sure I’m offering the events on days/times that the most people are available, so I’ve created a survey as an easy way for yall to let me know when works best for you and what topics you’re most interested in. I obviously can’t cater to everyone’s needs, but I will do my best.

    If you haven’t already answered this survey, please do so now! I will be making scheduling and topic decisions soon =D

    To help make all of our members-only event dreams come true, please answer this quick 5 question survey below!

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  • Members-only events!

    YAYYYYY it’s official, I’m going to be hosting members-only events again starting in March!

    I plan on one members-only event per month to start off with with the potential to include more in the future.

    I want to do them a little differently than I did before by having a topic to focus on and expand on together. I also want to make sure I’m offering the events on days/times that the most people are available, so I’ve created a survey as an easy way for yall to let me know when works best for you and what topics you’re most interested in. I obviously can’t cater to everyone’s needs, but I will do my best.

    To help make all of our members-only event dreams come true, please answer this quick 5 question survey below!

    CLICK HERE FOR SURVEY (or fill out below)

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  • Help me help you! (Quick survey for members)

    I’ve created a survey for all of you wonderful members to see how I can make your experience on my website the best that it can be!

    The survey should take about 2 minutes to complete, and will help me know what to focus my energy on.

    Click here to take the survey.

    Thank you so much for your input!

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