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FREE ARCHIVED BLOG & PHOTOSET
I originally wrote this for Patreon on December 16th 2017. I no longer use Patreon and have replaced it with my website (here) but thought I would share some of my old blogs with you for FREE to show my appreciation for you visiting my website! <3
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Yay I’m excited to share this self portrait set with you! I took it in August when I went to Tampa to take my brother in law’s girlfriend’s maternity photos. She was even comfortable with me taking a few rolls of her nude, and has allowed me to share them with you! That set is for some time in the future (but First Look members have access to it now!). Back to this set, now that I have you all excited about that future maternity set haha sorry for the tease!
I took this self portrait set in the airbnb I stayed in on the very first morning I was there. I took advantage of the morning light, and you probably recognize that kitchen! I’ve already shared a digital self portrait set I shot there the same day. It was really wonderful to wake up and have an entire house all to myself to do whatever I wanted. Of course I wanted to take a bunch of photos for all of you! This is when I used my Nikon N80 for the first time, and I took a chance and used expired film on top of not testing out the camera before I left, which I probably should have done. I guess I’m super lucky that there was nothing wrong with the camera OR the film! I just got some fun funky colors, but I love that kind of unexpected surprise from expired film. I shot an expired roll once that all the photos came out in pinks and purples! I will probably never stop shooting film, it is absolutely my favorite artistic medium. Film forever! <3
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Video members have a bunch of awesome new videos to watch! I’ve added a 7.5 minute video of me nude exploring shapes and body movements AND I’ve also added 6 aerial silks videos to the galleries!
All members have access to this complete 24 image photoset by clicking here, the 7.5 minute video of me nude exploring shapes and body movements by clicking here, and 6 aerial silks videos by clicking here.
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MASS UPLOAD + future plans + virtual nude gathering + other events
CAPTION FOR THE VIDEO ABOVE:
Hello friends! Welcome to another vlog post. I have a whole list of things right here that I want to talk about and I’m going to try to not ramble too much so it’s not too long of a video and/or post. Welcome to the 2nd and last mass upload for my archives! I have 11 photosets and 18 video folders that are now accessible to all members! So yeah this is officially the… now I have no set schedule for these blog posts, for new content coming out in terms of photos and videos for members. (EDIT AFTER RECORDING: This also includes the “weekly free posts” that I was sharing from my old blog archive.) Sooo… I wanted to be abundantly clear about the changes that have been happening and are continuing to happen, what’s going on.
Okay so, literally thousands of things for you to look at whenever you want. Archives are massive. The new things are… I’ll be doing a virtual nude gathering every month, starting, well I already started it because I had one last weekend which was awesome! Thank you to those of you who came. Virtual nude gatherings, I’ve decided in order for more people to be able to have access to these really awesome experiences of being naked in community together in a non sexual setting that’s just fun and we connect to each other and we also connect to our own bodies in embodied physical reality kind of way, even though we’re on the internet and screens with each other, I think it’s really special and I want to make sure that more people are able to experience that. I’ll be opening them up, starting next month in April, to the public, but members will always get free tickets! Public tickets, there’s a range of prices, I’m doing sliding scale and offering some free tickets to non-members also, but members of course always get free tickets. The info on how to join us for free at the virtual nude gathering starting April 10th at 1pm, I’ll put the link in the stuff below so you click that, go to to purchase a ticket and use the discount code, it’s BLMBR. Short for Bunny Luna Member, so BLMBR gets you a free ticket. I’ll have that below too.
CLICK HERE FOR NUDE GATHERING INFO + TICKETS
(CHOOSE A SLIDING SCALE TICKET AND USE CODE “BLMBR” TO GET IN FOR FREE)What else do I want to share? Oh today, the day that this comes out, is the art share for Going Beyond the Lens. If you’re new here… I’ve had a few new people, and I don’t want to repeat myself too much but I also don’t want people to have to search to find information so sorry to those who already know but I’m going to repeat myself a little bit. Going Beyond the Lens is a creative community that I’ve cofounded with Lior Allay + Roarie Yum, and we host monthly art shares, which are available free for everyone, whoever wants to come can come. The community submits their artwork to us and we all hang out and admire it together and talk about what we love about it and we hear the story of the artist who created it and their process and behind the scenes of that and it’s a really special time and I super love it so please come! It’s today at 1pm, I’ll have the link below for you to sign up, it’s free!
CLICK HERE FOR FREE ART SHARE TICKETS
Then also next weekend for Going Beyond the Lens, which is Sunday the 28th we have the community conversation. Oh I should tell you the theme! This month the theme is NUDITY so the art share and the community conversation are both going to be centered around NUDITY! Yay naked! So I’m excited. The conversation, we have several questions that are listed in the conversation eventbrite link which I’ll also link below, the questions are in there, we have everyone, when they sign up, if they want to answer the questions… it’s about art and nudity and how you think about nudity. So if you want to answer the questions, that’s great so then we have more material to talk about during the conversation. We mainly go over these questions but they’re kindof like conversation starters, we definitely continue the conversation in a lot more depth in the actual conversation space than what you type in your answer when you sign up. It’s really special and we really dive into the topic. I always learn something, I just love hearing everyones different perspective and the way they think about the world and the things they’ve learned and I’ve learned so much, it’s really wonderful! If you want to be in creative community with an accepting and loving group of people, join us! So today, Saturday the 20th at 1pm is the art share. Sorry by now it’s too late to submit your art, but yeah there’s gonna be art! Then next Sunday the 28th is the community conversation! Yay!
CLICK HERE FOR CHOOSE YOUR DONATION COMMUNITY CONVERSATION TICKETS
Okay so those are all the really main things. I also want to talk about future plans. So going into the future from right now, okay so right now, the things that you as members will receive from me on a monthly basis are: nude gatherings! We get to hang out “in person” and spend time together naked! Uhm that’s really special, so we get to do that, yall get in for free!
I’m going to start uhm I don’t know if I’ll do it in April but at some point soon, I’ll do it surely before like… lemme give myself a deadline to do it because if I don’t I don’t want to string yall along, so by June I’ll start putting out workbooks or videos or how-to things or resources around 4 topics that I’ll center my life online around, in terms of the things that I provide for other people. I in the past have been doing model/photographer things for a really long time, like 10 years, longer than 10 years, and I’m shifting gears from that world to self love, creativity (which is through Going Beyond the Lens), ecosexuality and queerness in general. Self love is big and encompasses all of those, and they kindof all work together, but those are the 4 main things that I’m going to focus on. I’m going to be creating resources and information and videos and there’s a ton of things I have ideas about, so resources in general. I’m going to be creating and offering a lot of them for free, so of course yall can have them too because they’re going to be free for everybody. Everything that I make yall will have access to first, and also can give feedback if you wanna tell me what your thoughts are, that would be super cool! And… so yeah resources of the queer, self love, ecosexuality, creative type, which you can also find resources for GBTL. I feel like I’m being all over the place, I’m sorry, that’s just how I feel today I guess, I hope it’s not too confusing.
So in addition to all of that, yall already have archive access to my 10+ years of photography and modeling so enjoy that, tons of nude… all the fun things, shenanigans, hangouts, all the things, behind the scenes, interviews, nature videos, me doing aerial, there’s a shit ton of stuff in there, but it’s mostly photography of… my work of other people. It’s also photography of people taking photos of me, from when I used to model and I don’t really anymore. It’s kindof fun to not model right now. So in addition to your archive access, another thing yall get is the satisfaction of knowing that literally as a member you are the reason that I can provide resources for self love and creativity and ecosexuality and queerness for free to the public because yall are the reason I can do any of this, literally. You’re the reason I do it, and you make it happen with your support, and it means so much and I am so excited to go into this new and kindof scary but very exciting direction for myself. Rebranding of my website is coming soon, I don’t have a time on that yet, but we’re like… Lior is actually working with me for branding and I am so excited. So yeah my website will be changing a lot soon, it’s going to be even more awesome than it already is. Don’t worry, you’re still going to have access to the archives and all of the member things.
Yeah I just wanted to let you know that I’ll have no set schedule or regularity that I will be posting vlogs like this and new photosets and whatever (EDIT AFTER RECORDING: This also includes the “weekly free posts” that I was sharing from my old blog archive.), but when things are happening, you’ll know first. I’ll come here and be like “hey guess what?! I’m excited about this thing or that thing or like look at all these resources I’m making or look at this new video” yeah all the things.
Also be spammed a lot about GBTL because creativity *raises hands*. Since I have the immense pleasure of creating that community of 2 other amazing artists, that’s the creativity aspect of my 4 main things that I’m going to be focusing on. Creativity is for GBTL and the 3 others are my personal, “yeah let’s get queer ecosexual self love!” Well, self love really goes for GBTL too, but *smile*
Okay I feel like I’ve talked a mile a minute and it’s been a really long video and I’ve told you so many things, I hope it hasn’t been overwhelming. I’m glad that you can watch this over again or rewind it or pause it or just read the thing because all of these words are gonna also be typed up below. I made my job harder by making it a long video. Okay but I had a lot to say so I wrote it down. Okay *laughs* *sighs*
I’m gonna take a breath because I feel like I got wound up and I hope I didn’t also get you wound up, unless you wanted to get wound up, in that case, you’re welcome, but I’m going to take a breath so that if you got wound up with me, we can both be a little more chill by the time this video is over.
*inhale in through the nose and out of the mouth 3 times*
I love you, thank you for being here, I’m so glad that you’re here. I love you a lot. I’m excited to see the things I create with your support. I love youuuuu! Bye!
Samples of some of the photosets now in the archives:
(Portraitmami on film, this set is more explicit than the majority of my photography, we took these for their onlyfans which you can subscribe to for more, including the videos I took of them that were only released on OF)
(Portraitmami on film, this set is more explicit than the majority of my photography, we took these for their onlyfans which you can subscribe to for more, including the videos I took of them that were only released on OF)
(with Portraitmami photographed by Rhivnnun)
(with Joey Emanuel)
(with Stevie Macaroni + PhotoWyse, actually taken in 2014 even though the watermark on it says 2020 lol)
(with PhotoWyse when we accidentally came upon a small forest fire, don’t worry firepeople came to contain it, actually taken in 2014 even though the watermark on it says 2020 lol)
(with Morgan Marlowe)
(rainbow selfies from a few days ago)
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MASS UPLOAD!!! + member’s only event scheduled
CAPTION FOR THE VIDEO ABOVE:
Hi friends! It’s been a while, or it feels like it has because I pre-recorded the last couple of vlogs I did on here, but HIII!! So it’s officially March, which means that the changes have been started for my website. I still have a lot of work to do in terms of redoing my website, but I’ve already done a mass upload, so everything that was in First Look is now available for everyone! Which is really exciting because it was literally a fuck ton of things. I haven’t even counted but it’s like, a LOT. I kinda wanna see if I can find how many things it is… um…. 55 photosets and let’s see how many videos… 34 video folders, which means that most of those have multiple videos in them. It’s a fuck ton of things, literally like so many things! Right now I’m only uploading the First Look stuff. I still have a backlog that’s not as much content as this but it’s still the backlog that no one has seen yet, that I’ll be uploading later this month. I just wanted to go ahead and get First Look in there for yall because it’s a whole lot and I love the content that’s in there and just excited to share it with you. It’s so much, it’s kindof overwhelming. I’m going to link the directories in this post, because I’m not going to link every single photoset and video because that would take forever and I just did that for the 34 video folders and the how many was it? 55 photosets, I’ve already done that for the directory. So I’ll link to the directories below, there’s a photo directory and a video directory, and from there you can find what you want to look at. I have everything listed, you just click it and see things like you usually do in the directory. I’m really excited, it’s so much, so much!
Let’s see, what else do I want to tell you? So this month also marks the beginning of our members only video hangout community education learning together, I don’t know what I want to call it yet, but video hangouts for us as members of my website, so excited! So I think I’ll be scheduling it for next Saturday the 13th, 1pm eastern. Very excited. It’ll be one hour of us hanging out and I think I’m going to have the topic as ecosexuality so we can have a whole conversation around that. I’ve already written down a lot of questions to ask yall that we can discuss together about ecosexuality. I’m going to go ahead and also link the zoom link invite thing down below. I’ll also resend that zoom link, I’m going to schedule a couple posts to remind yall that it’s next Saturday at 1pm and you gotta use the link to join so there’s that, I’m excited.
I’m hoping maybe I’ll be able to have my rebranding of my website, redoing my website, I’m hoping to have it done by April? Maybe? And then hopefully also in April I might start doing nude gatherings, virtual nude gatherings. Nude gatherings was what I was really gung ho set on doing and moving forward with at the end of 2019 after doing a couple in 2019 in person and then covid happened and you know the rest. So I’m excited to take nude gatherings to the virtual realm! We’re going to see how that goes. I think I might start doing those in April maybe? Hopefully? I’ll of course let you know. The virtual nude gatherings, the official ones that I don’t have any dates for yet, hoping to maybe start in April. Those will be available for the public to pay to join, and I’m also going to have a discount code that I will give to all of yall so you can get in for free. Those nude gatherings you’ll have to sign up via the eventbrite link eventually once I make the site, so that’s coming, I just wanted to give you a head’s up because I’m excited.
I do like doing these vlogs when I have things to tell you because I personally as a consumer of content really like to have a visual and audio thing to pay attention to instead of just reading so I like to offer that to yall so you have this and the transcript of this below so I’ll be doing that and uh…. *shrugs* anytime I have things to really talk to you about that are anything lengthy at all. If it’s short like “reminder! The member’s only gathering will be this day this time! Reminder!” If it’s that kind of thing I won’t do a video like this, but if it’s something like “hey let’s talk about something” I’ll probably do a video because I like to receive this kind of content so I hope that you also do.
What else do I want to say? I think that’s about it right now so… RECAP!
Lots and lots and lots of new content is now available for everyone to see, which is all of the First Look. The backlog that I have I’ll be uploading later this month, it’ll be part 2. It’s not as much as this, but this will take you a while to go through. Maybe I’ll do the backlog in April because this is just a lot. We’ll see. Either way I’ll let you know. Go enjoy the first look that is now… actually the first look folder no longer exists because it’s available for everybody now. I’ll be rebranding, redoing my website soon hopefully. I’ll start doing our members only events which will be once a month and the first one is next Saturday the 13th at 1pm eastern time and hopefully maybe April I’ll start doing virtual nude gatherings that yall will be able to access for free. So.. excited! I hope you’re excited too! I don’t know when I’ll be updating yall next, but here’s this. Yall have a LOT to look at. Okay, bye!!EDIT/ADDITION: It’s official, the member’s only event will be a VIRTUAL NUDE GATHERING (and we’ll discuss ecosexuality)!!! AHHHHHH!!!!! I’m stoked yall! In 2019 after facilitating 3 in-person nude gatherings I decided that they were the direction I wanted to go, they were the times that I LIVE for. We all know what happened in 2020. I’m so ready for the adventure + challenge of bringing these events online. So looking forward to seeing you there. <3
Enjoy these samples from the mass upload, there are 55 photosets + 34 video folders, this small sample doesn’t even scratch the surface!!!!!!
(Lior Allay double exposed with Bryce Canyon during the Backstage Pass event for GBTL)
(Leopold, Canischromatis, Anon, Anon, + me – self portrait during Creative Nude Gathering Aug 2019)
(self portrait on medium format film from the panoramic pinhole camera I made in college with my dad)
(self portrait with Mommy)
(Bainbridge Island with Jeff Waters + Tiffany Helms)
(self portrait at Quinn’s in Tacoma)
(self portrait in Joshua Tree)
(Joshua Tree with Moss Von Faustenberg)
(Joshua Tree with Moss Von Faustenberg)
(Joshua Tree with Ellin Aldana)
(Kara Perry photographs Embodoe wearing WhiskeyDog Wares doubled with a roll I took in Wyoming + NC)
(Kara Perry photographs Tatyebar wearing WhiskeyDog Wares doubled with a roll I took in Yellowstone)
(Dawn Iler / Coconutdreamin double exposed with Glacier National Park)
(me photographed by Dawn Iler / Coconutdreamin)
(self portrait in Nevada)
(self portrait in Utah)
(self portrait in Utah)
(self portrait in Utah)
(self portrait in Utah)
(self portrait in Colorado)
(with Lior Allay in Pittsburgh)
(self portrait with Lior Allay + Jacs Fishburne in Columbus Ohio)
(with Lior Allay photographed by Jacs Fishburne)
(Nashville Tennessee with Bashing Bagpipes)
(Nashville Tennessee with Chris Widick)
(self portrait in North Carolina)
(self portrait in North Carolina)
(with Mike Tyger in an abandoned house in North Carolina)
(self portrait from 2010!!! BABY BUNNY! I was about 20 years old)
MEMBERS ONLY NUDE GATHERING SIGN UP FREE HERE
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Self Portraits in Utah
CAPTION FOR THE VIDEO ABOVE:
Hiii! This is the last week of these weekly posts, can you believe it? I kindof can’t to be honest, it’s here already. So this week I’m sharing a self portrait set that I took in the summer of 2019 during my cross country road trip, I have so many to share from there. This I took outside of Grand Staircase Escalante in Utah. Most of the self portrait sets that I took on my cross country road trip were in Utah because I spent all of June in Utah basically because I fucking love Utah. So I was outside of Grand Staircase Escalante and I was parked on the side of a dirt road, that I honestly don’t know where it went, I don’t know where the dirt road would have taken me to if I had driven the whole way. I was basically just parked on the side of a dirt road and taking photos behind my van, and don’t be startled please, hopefully, I hope I don’t scare you but HERE’S YOUR WARNING, in the BTS video for this photoset I think at the end of both of them, because I had to do 2 videos for it because cars kept driving by and I kept getting spooked and having to grab my phone and hide behind my van because I really thought I was alone but occasionally I wasn’t so yeah uhm I hope you’re not too startled when I grab the phone and run when I was taking these videos. To me its pretty funny, I hope you think it’s funny too. I have one of those sticker phone protector things on my cell phone and this is the same phone that I had when I was on my trip and I still have Utah dirt under some of the sticker on my phone because of this. When I was taking self portraits I took them with a digital camera because it has an interval timer and I could do self portraits way faster and take way more in a shorter amount of time than I could do with film. So I had my digital camera on a tripod a cute little mini tripod with these movable leg things where I would attach my phone on the top of the camera, so I would have like digital camera, cell phone. When I had to grab the camera, I would grab the whole camera and tripod, and when I grabbed the camera/tripod because I was trying to hide to make sure nobody saw me naked out in the middle of nowhere, my cell phone that was on top of the camera had fallen off of the camera because it wasn’t super securely attached, so I would grab my stuff and run and my phone would drop and I was like “oh shit.” I just think it’s funny, so you get to experience that in video form from the perspective of my cell phone camera, I hope you enjoy.
First look has access now to the self portrait double exposures that I took in June of 2020, this is one of the few photosets that I took. I had a roll of film that I took during my cross country road trip that was from Dead Horse Point State Park which is one of my favorite places in the world that I’ve been to, several times now because it’s incredible. That’s where the landscape part of it is from, the self portrait part was here at my house in June of 2020 in my makeshift studio, which is my black blanket draped over the couch that’s in front of the window in the living room. I had a little bit of trouble with these actually, I didn’t know until I got them developed, you’ll see when you see the photoset, a lot of them the image of me wasn’t exposed enough, it was underexposed, so you can’t really see me and it’s mostly just landscape. I think it’s because I was taking self portraits and I was doing this number where I was back here and reaching to the camera to press the camera to get it to do the self timer and then I would come back, so I think in the moving… it would assume it was taking the picture of me this close and then I would move back and the exposure needed to be different than when I was this close, so yeah so that didn’t work very well. But I still really love the photos that did show up, you’ll see what I mean when you see them. They’re still amazing landscapes so you’ll enjoy them either way hopefully. Then I also have, to make up for some of the only landscape photos, I also have some self portraits that I took in the summer of 2020, some of the very few things that I created in 2020, they’re medium format panoramic pinhole self portraits. The panoramic pinhole camera is one that I made with my dad when I was in college. Actually, if you hold on one second I’m going to get the camera and show you what it looks like because it’s really cool. Okay thank you for your patience.
This is the camera, there’s a pinhole in here, you probably can’t see because it’s really tiny, but that’s essentially the “lens” and this is my shutter, and this is the film advance. It is panoramic because it has the curved film plane, and it takes medium format film. So yeah I think it’s pretty cool. I need to re-glue this thing in here, because last time I shot with it this nut/bolt thing that came out, it’s just glued in there. There’s a photo in one of these self portraits that looks like a double exposure of me against a fence and then the sky and trees. That’s on accident because this fell off the tripod and was exposed to the sky and trees and I was like “fuck it, I’m going to still try to take a picture anyway” and then took a self portrait with that part of the film, so that’s what happened there. Some of these, not all of these, but some of these panoramic pinhole self portraits, I took during a live video chat with a few of you members. We just hung out on video chat while I was taking these photos in the back yard. Sorry I haven’t shown them to you yet, it’s been a while but uhm… here they are. So yeah if you want to know more about this camera I can talk to you more about it. It was pretty fun to make, I don’t know if I’ll ever do it again. You have to open it with a little screwdriver because this is the only way it opens, and also this is how I take the photos. I have this chart, I do a meter reading and find where it matches up. Say if it was f/8 1/60 of a second, then I would go all the way over here… so that means between 6 and 10 seconds I need to have the exposure, beacuse my aperture is tiny as fuck, it’s somewhere between f/150-f/200. So since it was between 6-10 seconds I would probably do an 8 second exposure, so that’s how I did all of those, is with this. And they turned out really well. Also if they were longer exposures, like some of them were probably around the 30 second range, yeah long exposure, you’ll see this because I did it a lot. I would go to one place and then count a third or a half of the time that I was supposed to take, and then move, so that it looked like a double exposure, but it’s really a single exposure, it’s just a long exposure and I moved. Yay photography.
This is a long video already but I want to give you a short recap of what is about to happen. This is the last weekly post like this for the foreseeable future, unless I change my mind. The things that will be happening soon: sometime in March I will be making a mass upload of all of the first look and all of my backlog content, photos and videos, so it’s a fuck ton, I’ll be doing a mass upload sometime in March. I’m also working on overhauling my whole website. I might be starting to do some of that before this comes out, we’ll see. I will be doing at least once a month members-only community gatherings online, virtual hangouts, and right now that’s the plan. I might be changing other things but right now at this point I’ll be doing the members-only events like online hangout topic let’s talk let’s learn let’s do things together. I would really like to experiment with virtual nude gatherings and focus more on creating free resources for people and talking more about queerness and gender and ecosexuality and non monogamy and… what else? I have a whole list, energy healing, movement as medicine, spirituality, plant medicine, all kinds of stuff. So more on that soon. I don’t want to give it all away.
So basically if you’re a member here you’re a sponsor of me creating things that will hopefully help everyone. I don’t want to gatekeep the information that I have that is helpful for a lot of people, whether or not they can afford it, like the queerness and ecosexuality kind of stuff. So yall will be the reason that I’m able to do that if that makes sense. Like, you’re a member to get perks, but also you’re allowing me to create things and share things that help everybody, so that means a lot, a whole lot. So that’s where I’m at right now. I will probably, my guess is I will still make some videos like this because vlogs are fun and I like to let yall know what’s going on so… it just won’t be, I won’t have a set schedule of when I’ll be posting stuff like this. I will probably make a schedule for our monthly video hangouts. Comment below or email me (OR CLICK HERE FOR A QUICK AND EASY SURVEY!) and tell me what days of the week work best for you, what times, I’m assuming nights and weekends, people probably work, let me know… I obviously probably can’t accommodate everyone’s schedule, but I’ll do my best to do the members-only virtual hangouts when the most amount of people are available. So that’s the plan right now, yay.
I can’t believe this is the last week. I love you, thank you for being here, it means so much! You are the reason that I can do any of this in the first place, so I appreciate it greatly. I love you. If you want to know more about my fancy wooden and metal panoramic pinhole camera, let me know, it might be fun to make a youtube video about it or something. Maybe we can do… maybe I can take more self portraits with it and you can be there live with me while I do it, that was pretty fun last time. Let me know if you want to do that again. Okay, I love you, thank you for being here, thank you so much, I’m excited to see where all these changes take all of us. Yeah I’m doing my overhaul of my website, some of it might already be done by the time this comes out. I’m doing some of these videos early so that I can get ahead and make sure I’m not too stressed last minute. I love you, thank you. *blows kiss* Love you! Bye!
All members:
click here to view the 27 image self portrait photoset taken outside of Grand Staircase Escalante during my cross country road trip summer 2019
click here to view the 2.5 minutes of BTS video
Click here for access to my archive of 12,500+ photos & 2,000+ videos
Click here for the passwords, they change the 1st of every monthFirst Look/All Access members:
click here to view the 38 image self portrait photoset double exposed with images from Dead Horse Point State Park in Utah
click here to view 29.5+ minutes of BTS video
click here to view the 14 image self portrait photoset taken on medium format film with the panoramic pinhole camera that my dad and I built when I was in college -
FREE ARCHIVED BLOG & PHOTOSET
I originally wrote this for Patreon on November 11th 2017. I no longer use Patreon and have replaced it with my website (here) but thought I would share some of my old blogs with you for FREE to show my appreciation for you visiting my website! <3
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I shot this self portrait set on my Nikon N80 film camera when I visited Tampa in August. My airbnb was so photogenic both inside and out so I was able to create several sets for you while I was there. This set is from right outside the side door of the airbnb! It had a really nice privacy fence with a ton of pretty vines all over it so of course I had to shoot a set with all the greenery! I can’t resist a lush leafy natural background. The chair had a trash can lid behind it that I moved out of the way for the photos (and put back when I was done, of course!). It was kinda odd because there was a large hole in the fence that I guess they were using the trash can lid to keep things from coming in? going out? Maybe the neighbor had a dog or something, but thankfully I didn’t run into any critters while I was there. =]
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I’ve just uploaded this month’s nude yoga video, it’s 19 minutes and 40 seconds long!!! Holy cow I think this is the longest nude yoga video I’ve made so far! I’ve also uploaded 13 videos from an overnight hiking trip to a waterfall, and 10 photos from that trip.
All members have access to this complete 18 image photoset by clicking here, the nude yoga video by clicking here, the hiking trip photos & videos by clicking here.
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Self Portraits in Utah – Among Goblins
CAPTION FOR THE VIDEO ABOVE:
Hi friends! Welcome to the.. what is it? Third to last week of these weekly posts like this, whaaat? So this week I’m sharing another photoset from my cross country road trip in the summer of 2019 because I have to much to share from that. I’m not even going to be sharing them weekly like this. I have so many that they won’t fit into the last weeks of February so you’ll get most of them when I mass upload them in March. It’s going to be a lot, a whole lot.
So this week, are photos, I think it’s over 100 photos, self portraits that I took in Goblin Valley, very exciting, I really like them, I hope you do too. I have BTS videos for these photos also. First look is getting access to the self portrait photoset that I took at my friend Quinn Sanguine‘s house in Tacoma Washington, also during my cross country road trip in the summer of 2019. These I took in Quinn’s bedroom, they had a cool setup with lights on their wall, it was really cute and I really like the orange tone in their room, so I took advantage and took a bunch of self portraits while I was there. So that’s it for what’s new this week.
To recap the changes that will be happening soon. February is the last month I’ll be doing weekly posts like this. In March I will be mass-uploading everything from my backlog and first look galleries, which is a WHOLE lot, a whole whole lot. So I’m not sure exactly when I’ll be dropping that mass upload, but that will be coming in March hopefully. Also in March start doing at least once a month members-only video hangouts so we can be together live “in person” virtually. I’m starting off with once a month because I don’t want to overwhelm myself with too many things all the time, which is another reason why I am not pressuring myself to do these weekly posts, not pressuring myself to create work constantly because as you know, if you’ve been here for any amount of time, I created like 4 or 5 photosets in the entirety of 2020. I know that my work, it’s not conducive to pressure and the requirement of “oh I have to do this thing right now” that just means I’m going to create something that doesn’t have intention and thought and real creativity behind it if I’m stressed about it and feeling like “oh I have to make something right now” then it’s just going to be something I made because I felt like I needed to. That doesn’t do justice to me as an artist and it doesn’t do justice to you as a member of my website enjoying my art, because if it’s something I feel like I have to do that I rush through then the quality of it is diminished and it’s just not as good. I’m committed to doing things in the timing that works for me, which is not going to necessarily be consistent. So yeah I hope that you also give yourself grace in that way if you’re able to if you’re a creator.
What else is new that I’m forgetting? By the time this comes out the EcoLove Playshop will have already happened, but you still have time to sign up for the Art Share for Going Beyond the Lens which is the 3rd Saturday of every month. I’m very excited to see your art. What else? Yeah so while I’m in this transitionary phase, I’m keeping things to a simplistic, minimalistic, sense thing… just to make sure that I’m not overwhelming myself, because I want to provide yall with quality content and quality time with me. Just because it’s not weekly like it has been in the past, I know that I’m going to be doing my best and still offering yall quality art and time with me. So yeah my archive will be available for all members and will be a lot bigger than it was, very soon in March. Like there’s SO MUCH in first look alone that it’s going to take a while to do the mass upload but I’m excited because yall are going to be in for a huge treat, with all this content. It is really scary to make changes like this and to make a leap of faith with myself and make changes in what I’m doing but I feel much more excited and… what’s the word? Maybe rejuvenated by the potential of what this could be. Right now at this point it feels like I’m talking AT you and just like “here have photos, here have videos” and while I super love all my photos and videos, it doesn’t feel like we’re connecting with each other. It feels like I’m providing content and you’re consuming it, and I would really like to start being in a community space with you instead of like “here you go!” Now it will be more like “lets hang out together and get to know each other and share our art or whatever” so yeah I’m excited for these changes even though it’s scary.
Okay uhm yeah if you have any questions comments concerns ideas whatever, comment on this post or email me or however you feel like contacting me, I would love to hear from you. I wonder if doing a 2-part content drop would be better than doing it all at once. I’ll think about it. Or you can let me know what you think! Ok I love you, thank you for being here, I appreciate that you are going on this journey of change and exploration and figuring shit out with me, it means a lot! I’m excited to go on this exploration with you and to get to know myself better and to get to know you better, and to have fun. I love you! Bye!
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Self Portraits in Utah – Enclosed
CAPTION FOR THE VIDEO ABOVE:
Hi friends, okay so this week I’m sharing a photoset with you that I took in Utah in the summer of 2019. This is a self portrait set that I took, this is also… I think recently, when did I do it, at the beginning of January I shared a photoset from the same place. This photoset is a little more closer up than that one was, and it’s more of me in this little private canyon that I had basically right behind my camping area which was incredible and wonderful and I super loved it and I spent a lot of time back there when I was staying there, which wasn’t very long, but most of the time I was there I was in this little canyon. I have several other photosets from the same place that I will be sharing in the future, but for now you have this photoset and the behind the scenes video to enjoy.
First look people I have some photos to share with you and BTS video of when I was posing for my friend Dawn Iler. You probably also know of her… actually… THEY. Dawn recently started using they/them pronouns so, excuse my error, they took photos of me back… I think it was the winter? November, December of 2019. They were visiting here on their way to… I think they were going to Texas. They live in NY State and they were traveling to Texas so they stopped by and stayed with me for a couple days on their way down there. We photographed each other which was wonderful. I don’t think I shared the photos I took of them with yall yet, but these are the photos they took of me. We took them in my living room, in like a makeshift “studio”. You’ll see what I mean when you see the video because it’s basically like, the black blanket that I keep on my bed, I’m looking around because it’s right here. Underneath my butt, I’m sitting on it. My big black blanket that I keep on my bed, it’s that blanket draped over the back of the couch, which is my “studio” in front of the big window in the living room so the light’s really nice. So these are the photos Dawn took of me.
For more information about my website: I have made some decisions, not 100% done with my decisions but I have decided to continue doing these weekly like I’ve been doing for years, doing these videos and talking to you and stuff, at least through mid-February. I’m considering if I want to do through the end of February just to keep even months. Then starting in most likely March I will… I don’t know when I’ll mass-upload all of the things, but I’m probably also going to be doing away with the first look membership because I’m just gonna take everything that’s in first look, everything that’s in my backlog, and put them all available for everybody. Yeah this feels kinda scary. So I’m pretty sure that I’ll be doing that maybe early to mid March, in terms of my mass upload of my backlog. That’s going to take some time to do because it’s a lot of things. So I think I will do these weekly posts like I have been through the end of February. I have stuff planned through Feb 13th so I have a couple weeks left to plan, and then after that I’ll sometime in March do a mass upload of everything and update the directories and stuff. And then after that I will… probably not do weekly updates, because I’ll have already shared all of my backlog with you. Right now my thinking is I will do the weekly updates through the end of February. Sometime in March, depending on how long it takes me to get it done, mass upload everything from first look and my backlog so that everyone has access to all the things. Then I will not pressure myself to create things on a weekly basis because I have done that in the past and it… basically like the quality of my work is lower if I feel like “oh I have to do this. Oh it’s Friday and I want to have something for Saturday so let me just shoot something.” That to me that is not the kind of creative artistic process that brings me the ability to do good work. It’s more stressful and “oh let me do something so I have something for them” but that doesn’t feel good. So… I will create if I feel like it. Which, as you know, hasn’t been very much at all in the last like year and a half. But I literally have SO MUCH that you haven’t seen yet so it’ll be quite a while before you’ll be like “I want new things!” I’m not going to pressure myself to… sorry I’m picking a little scab that I have on my arm but it’s really annoying and I shouldn’t be doing it but… I did. So yeah this is pretty stressful and scary for me but I feel like I’m giving myself freedom by doing this. In 2020 I took like 4 or 5 photosets the whole year. So I don’t have an expectation of myself to create constantly, and I don’t want yall to have an expectation of new things from me constantly.
What I will do instead of sharing new photosets and stuff with you, I’ll be offering more online live video gathering type things when where we can hang out “in person” virtually, which I’m must more excited about than thinking about having to create more photosets. I don’t know the frequency of that yet, I’m probably going to start off with once a month to make sure that I don’t overdo myself because I’m already doing events through Going Beyond the Lens also. So basically members will have access to my archive, will be invited to members-only virtual hangouts, and I want to do more with, maybe more education kind of things, or “let’s learn things together” like I’ll tell you the kinds of things that I’m learning and you can share your personal experience with those things. I have a lot of ideas and thoughts and feelings about queerness, ecosexuality, non monogamy, gender, those kinds of things. So I’d really love to explore those more in depth. My tattoo is so itchy yall! I got my arm done recently and it’s just so itchy, it’s in the itchy stage and I’m trying really hard to not fuck with it.
So yeah, the plan is, to recap: things will continue as normal through February, and then starting in March, at some point in March, depending on how much time it takes me to do it, I will mass upload everything that’s in the backlog and in first look. This is pretty scary to think about, and then starting in March I’ll do monthly live virtual hangouts. I’ll probably have a topic for us to focus on so it’s not just like, sitting around just talking about random things. I feel better when there’s a focus, instead of just like “how was your day?” I fucking hate small talk yall, I hate it. I want to have a focus so that we can like… I feel like we’re learning together. So starting in March we’ll have virtual hangouts and uhm I’m going to try to make more free things. I don’t want to keep all of the cool and interesting things behind a paywall, so basically memberships are for people who want to help me continue to make free things for everyone, and also to have access to my archive because that’s a WHOLE LOT of photos and videos and just content in general. So that’s where I’m at right now. I’ll have it fleshed out with better plans in the future. I’m also planning on overhauling my website and making everything different than what it is currently. So also keep an eye out for that, I might do that March-ish? Maybe starting some of it in February? I don’t have a complete schedule for that yet because I’m still figuring out how I want my website to be set up.
But yeah… it’s pretty scary for me because it’s a big change. I’ve been doing basically the same thing for my website since like 2016 or 2017 so making a big change like this is scary and I’m just going to take the leap because I think I will truly be happier honestly, and less stressed, if I do it this way. I hope you’ll be along for the ride with me. I understand if you signed up for one thing and it’s changing and you no longer want to be here which I understand, no hard feelings. If you want to help support me, pay my bills, help me share queer info with other people for free, it would mean a whole lot. A whole whole lot. It already means a lot that you’re here already. Also I’m probably going to redo my art wall in my room at some point because I’m kinda tired of looking at white naked bodies all the time. Like there’s nothing wrong with it, it’s not bad, I super love naked bodies. I don’t want my work to focus on like.. nude photography. To me, nude photography is super amazing and a big part of my life, but I don’t see it being quite as big of a part of my life in the future, because I want to expand into more purpose and intention and I think that by changing the way that I’m doing things will help me to create that intention and purpose. This is a super long video! Appreciate you watching and listening or reading or whatever you’re doing. Yeah I’m excited and nervous about what is coming. If you have any ideas, questions, concerns, comments, I would love to hear them, please reach out. Comment on this post or email me or whatever way you wanna contact me. Yeah I’d love to hear your thoughts. Ok. I’m done. I love you. Goodbye.
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FREE ARCHIVED BLOG & PHOTOSET
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This self portrait set was taken when I traveled to Tampa mid-August to shoot maternity photos of my brother in law’s girlfriend. Whew that’s a mouthful. I’m really stoked about the maternity photos, she let me take a few rolls of film of her nude and is allowing me to share them with you! I’m not quite ready to post them yet but oh my GOSH you’re going to love them!
Ok, back to this set since I got side tracked haha! The airbnb I stayed at was super adorable and I created a lot while I was there! This is the first of a few self portrait sets I took. I couldn’t leave the house before I shot in this kitchen! I absolutely love the big old sink they had and the way the light was coming in through the windows. I shot some film in this location too! I’ll be sharing that with you sometime soon. =]
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I’ve uploaded 7 videos walking through the airbnb I took this set in + 25 nude body movement boomerangs showing off bruises from aerial silks class for members! Enjoy the example gif below! I’ve got bruises on the backs of my knees and on my inner and outer hips! I have a couple on my arms but you can’t see them here. I love having physical representations of fun things I’ve done. <3
All members have access to this complete 46 image photoset by clicking here, the videos of the airbnb by clicking here, and the body movement boomerangs by clicking here.
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Self portraits in Utah – Between
CAPTION FOR THE VIDEO ABOVE:
Hey friends, I have been having a rough week and I assume many of you probably have been too with all of the bullshit that’s going on in the world right now, so I’m going to try to keep this short.
This week I’m sharing a self portrait set that I took in Utah summer of 2019. I still have a lot of self portrait sets from that trip to share with you so continue to look for that in the future, I have a lot still. This photoset I took, it was actually basically behind where my camping space was. I had a campsite and behind it was this little mini canyon that was totally private to my campsite, so that was incredible and of course I took advantage of that and took a bunch of self portraits back in that little canyon, so this is one of the self portraits sets from that. I’m also sharing behind the scenes video from this self portrait set.
First look people, I’m sharing some photos that were taken with Tiffany Helms and her partner Jeff Waters. We went to this abandoned place on Bainbridge Island and it was very cool and took some photos there and it was super fun, so that’s going to First Look this week. I think there’s photos and videos.
Uhm.. anybody that’s new, if you haven’t been here very long on my website. If you scroll back to past vlogs, like every Saturday I come out with this. If you scroll back to past ones you’ll see that I have been working towards shifting to something different with my website, and I’m still figuring out exactly what that is but I feel like I’m getting closer. I know I want to focus more on community building and live online virtual hangout type things, and have less of a focus on photography, so yeah still figuring that out. I am open to any requests, questions, comments, things like that, so if you have something to say in regards to that please comment, I would love to hear it.
Yeah, I’m gonna keep this short and sweet, I hope you enjoy these photos, I love you so much, thank you for being here, and I’ll talk to you next week.
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Eva Luna & KH
CAPTION FOR THE VIDEO ABOVE:
Hi friends! I am doing this video a week in advance and prepping this week’s content a week in advance also because when this will be happening, when I usually would have been recording this and sharing it I will be in Durham with Lior and Roarie for Going Beyond the Lens. I wanted to do this early so that I could really focus on being present with Lior and Roarie while we’re in person together in Durham. I’m so excited. By the time this video comes out the event will already have happened, but if you missed it and didn’t get to sign up for the Backstage Pass event, I’m going to link below to all the information about it, because if you missed it, I’m not sure how, but just in case I’m going to put the link below. (CLICK HERE FOR INFO) If you missed the event, because this is going to be coming out on January 2nd and the event is December 30th. If you missed the event and you didn’t sign up and you’re like “oh nooo I really wanted to watch yall create together and I really wanted to see what questions you answered and I wanted to be a part of that and I totally forgot!” or whatever, you can donate $11 or more to me or Lior or Roarie or I can link our bigcartel shop below which is where you can donate, there’s a lot of different amounts you can donate, but if you donate $11 or more we will send you the recording! (CLICK HERE TO DONATE) So if you missed it and you’re kicking yourself for it, email me or something and I can get you set up. So yeah $11 or more and you can get the recording, yay!
Okay now back to website things. This week I’m sharing a photoset that I took in the summer of 2019 with Eva Luna and KH and this was outside of Portland Oregon. We went to a nude beach, which was amazing and probably my favorite place that I went when I was in Portland. There’s a lot of places I went and I can’t say that I had one particular favorite over the whole trip, actually maybe I can I have a couple of favorites, but… In terms of my time in Portland, my favorite place that I went when I was in Portland was this nude beach. I just love being places where it’s expected for you to be naked, who would have known haha. Places where it’s okay to be naked out in nature to me are super important and super my kind of places so yeah this was a very fun shoot. I met up with Eva and KH and we drove together to this nude beach and we hung out for a few hours and took a bunch of pictures and it was super fun. I did have an upsetting thing happen while we were there. So earlier in my road trip when I was in Joshua Tree I posed for Moss Von Faustenberg and he took several polaroids and he gave me 3 or 4 of them which I was super excited about because I love having tangible things and also the photos were really amazing. So these polaroids I had in my camera bag and when we were shooting we didn’t want to lug all of our stuff all around the beach the whole time, so we found a nice spot just in the woods right off of the beach. There was this little clearing and we put all our stuff there and kept an eye on it as much as we could. We didn’t keep an eye on our stuff well enough because someone went through our stuff and I…. guess, I don’t know, they must not have cared much about stealing cameras or phones or credit cards. They just moved our stuff around and the only thing they stole from me, they stole those polaroids, and I was very sad. But I was also very thankful that it wasn’t like my whole camera bag or my phone or keys or credit card or ID or all the things, I could have been so screwed. All they stole was… I had this tin, it was like a tin that chocolate came in from Switzerland, it was like swiss chocolate, used to be swiss chocolate, it was a tin that had swiss chocolate in it, it was the perfect size to keep polaroids in. I had the polaroids in it and this like crinkley rainbowey holographicy shiny clearish paper plasticky stuff that was really fun to put in front of the lens to get cool light and color and stuff. That film paper stuff and the polaroids were in that tin and that tin is the only thing that got stolen. I guess they really liked the nude polaroids and didn’t care about my camera and credit card? I’m very thankful that that’s all they stole but also I’m really sad because the only evidence I have of those polaroids is a really short video that I took of the polaroids. If you’re in the first look tier, the Nov 28th post that I did when I shared the like fuck ton of stuff that I was a part of in Joshua Tree, you can see that really short video that includes the polaroids in it, in that content. So that’s the only evidence of those polaroids that I have. I was supposed to have the physical polaroids that I was bringing home, but they didn’t make it. Somebody stole them when I was in Portland. I was really sad about that, but I was also very thankful that it wasn’t anything more crucial that they stole from me because I could have been really screwed. Those photos, these are the single exposures that I took of Eva and KH and also I’m sharing the BTS video from that shoot. I think they’re amazing photos I’m so excited.
For First look this week I’m sharing a self portrait photoset that I took with my mom and some behind the scenes video from that. The self portraits that I took with my mom we took them in this room, my bedroom. This was before I moved in here again so this room was empty and we took advantage of that space. I’m gonna turn this… just took photos in front of my curtain. Uh yeah so self portraits with my mom in here when there was nothing here and yay.
That’s my story for this week. I love you! Thank you so much for being here! It is because of you that I’m able to do any of this and that means the world to me that you enjoy my content and you care what I have to say in some capacity, that you support me in this adventure that is my self employment as an artist, even when I barely create anything anymore. I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again: there are major changes coming to my website soon, I don’t exactly know what that is yet but I know more and more that that is coming up. Head’s up, things are changing, I don’t know what or when but it’s gonna happen at some point because I’m not totally happy with the way things are done on my website right now. Like, I have a system in place that works but it’s not as fulfilling and exciting and fun as I would like it to be, so I want to shift things around and I don’t know exactly what that is yet. You’ll know when I know.
I love you so much! Thank you for being here, it means so much to me and literally means that I can pay my bills so that means a lot, in this capitalist bullshit existence. Well the existence isn’t bullshit, it’s the capitalist stuff that’s bullshit but you know, I’m trying to live outside of capitalism in any way that I can, which is very hard, but we’re doing what we can here. I love you. *blows kiss* bye!
All members:
click here to view the 36 image photoset of Eva Luna & KH at a nude beach in Oregon summer 2019
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Click here for the passwords, they change the 1st of every monthFirst Look/All Access members:
click here to view the 41 image self portrait photoset with Mommy at home soon before I moved back in (2019)
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