• FREE ARCHIVED BLOG & PHOTOSET

    I originally wrote this for Patreon on May 27th 2017. I no longer use Patreon and have replaced it with my website (here) but thought I would share some of my old blogs with you for FREE to show my appreciation for you visiting my website! <3

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    Kristy Jessica/Pure Rebel had just gotten into town an hour or two before I picked her up. I drove us to my parents house (ok, you can probably tell I love being there and creating there) and I told her my ideas for our shoot. I had already prepped a roll of film by taking flower & nature images to double expose over. I wanted to take silhouettes to show off the doubles & the great lines and shapes I knew Kristy would create. She did some wonderful and strong yoga poses! I then got some crystals together and arranged them around her for the rest of our photos. We listened to Red Hot Chili Peppers while we shot. Afterward we walked around one of the ponds in the neighborhood before I drove her home. I enjoyed talking to her, she’s a smart, talented, and compassionate person.

     It was so incredibly difficult to choose which pictures to post today! There are so many amazing ones, I hope you have the time to look through them all!

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    I’ve added 2 behind the scenes timelapses from our shoot so don’t forget to check the video folder!

    All members have access to this complete 36 image photoset by clicking here and the videos by clicking here.

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  • FREE ARCHIVED BLOG & PHOTOSET

    I originally wrote this for Patreon on May 20th 2017. I no longer use Patreon and have replaced it with my website (here) but thought I would share some of my old blogs with you for FREE to show my appreciation for you visiting my website! <3

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    Celebrating 1 year since I got wrist drop! Well, technically the official 1 year is May 22nd but… close enough. =] If you’ve been a member for a while you probably remember this time last year when I got wrist drop from too much time and pressure on my radial nerve during a shibari suspension. I didn’t have the use of my (dominant) right hand for about 3 months and wasn’t able to go to aerial silks class for 7-8 months. Watch the video in the archives to see how bad it was… it was pretty bad. I couldn’t lift my hand from my wrist or do a “thumbs up,” it was just constantly limp.

    Honestly, I’m really thankful that it happened. It taught me a lot about myself & made me appreciate what I have. I learned that I really need physical activity in my life & that I can really lean on Antisocialdisposition. I already knew that he will do just about anything for me but for the first week or two he helped me do things that you really take for granted when you have two hands to do it with and suddenly you only have 1: wash my hair, get dressed, open jars, carry lots of things, etc. I became more ambidextrous because of this and I even became more confident in myself over time because I learned that I could still do pretty much everything for myself with just my left hand. I did definitely have several days after it happened that I freaked out about it because I wasn’t seeing ANY improvement and I was so scared that it would never get better. It did, very slowly, but it did start to get better. As soon as possible I started doing yoga at home (only simple stuff I knew wouldn’t aggravate the injury). I honestly think it would have taken much longer to heal if I wasn’t staying active, exercising it as much as possible, saying positive affirmations, and visualizing it getting and being better. I am SO SO thankful that it got better. I am also thankful that it happened. It was a challenge and a lesson. It happened for a reason: for me to learn to appreciate what I have and to learn how important being active is to me because I really didn’t know that before. It strengthened me and it strengthened my relationship with AD.

    What is something “bad” that’s happened to you that you now realize was actually beneficial in the long run?

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    To celebrate being able to do silks again, check out the 2 new silks videos I added! In one of them I somersault in the air to a single ankle hang, I mean how badass does that description sound?! It’s really fun. The other video is a crazy difficult core strengthening exercise: spinal roll down from straddle. You’re supposed to take as long as possible on the way down which is what makes it difficult and REALLY works your core.

    All members have access to this complete 59 image self portrait photoset by clicking here and the aerial silks videos by clicking here.

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  • HAPPINESS / FREE ARCHIVED BLOG & PHOTOSET

    I originally wrote this for Patreon on May 13th 2017. I no longer use Patreon and have replaced it with my website (here) but thought I would share some of my old blogs with you for FREE to show my appreciation for you visiting my website! <3

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    I know this is kind of obvious but honestly it’s easy to forget about taking care of yourself sometimes. I need to remind myself occasionally, which is partly why I’m even writing this.

    The first thing you do in the morning after waking up, the first thing after getting home from work, and last thing you do before you go to bed should be something for YOU and your happiness. Or if that schedule doesn’t work for you, then choose at least 3 times throughout your day that work. Start off with those 3 times daily and add more whenever you can! It doesn’t have to be something big/major/elaborate.

    Part of my morning ritual is to pull 2 oracle cards for the day and pick out 5-7 small(ish) crystals to carry with me all day. It takes only a minute or 2 but starts my day off right and on a positive note. It’s something I can easily do every morning that’s just for me. I have a bad habit of getting home from work and immediately starting dishes or laundry or some other kind of housework. (EDIT 2020: I have since realized that house care like dishes and laundry are honestly self care too.) I’ll be working on doing things for myself after work along with you! Something that might count for me is driving home with the windows down. It makes me so happy to have the wind in my face and hair and to hear the wind and nothing else. See? These things can be very simple, but anything that makes you smile, laugh, or lifts your spirit is worth doing as often as possible (as long as you’re not harming anyone else, of course).

    My end of the day happiness/thing I do for me is shuffle my oracle cards and put away my crystals. It’s a nice mindless and almost meditative activity to do right before bed and helps me pick the cards and crystals quickly in the mornings. At night I also like to read or spend time with AD if he’s home. (EDIT 2020: My current rituals are very different than my rituals from 3 years ago. Everything shifts and changes over time, and that’s wonderful! Experimentation and novelty is nourishing for our hearts. I hope your rituals have the space to morph and grow too <3 )

    What is something simple you can do for yourself every day?

    What makes you happy that you can incorporate into your everyday life and routine?

    Your happiness is SO important! Make it a priority and your whole life will change. <3

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    Check out the videos folder for 3 hula hooping videos! The weekend I took these I was in such a wonderful mood the entire time and I was spending it with my family. My dad even hooped with me and my sister Gemini in one of the videos! =D He made these GIANT hoops that are as tall as I am.

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  • FREE ARCHIVED BLOG & PHOTOSET

    I originally wrote this for Patreon on May 6th 2017. I no longer use Patreon and have replaced it with my website (here) but thought I would share some of my old blogs with you for FREE to show my appreciation for you visiting my website! <3

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    A few weeks ago I spent a wonderful Saturday with Lilith Jenovax & Lucia Brea Quinn. They met me at my parent’s house and we had a fun & relaxed shoot. We talked a lot while we were shooting and my mom and sister hung out with us a bit too. I taught Lilith a few things about photography and cameras like aperture, ISO, and the relationship between aperture & shutter speed. She took some photos of us and even shot her first ever silhouettes!

    We all (including my dad who was home too) ended up outside after Lilith, Lucia, and I took photos indoors. My sister Gemini ended up mostly nude and my mom went topless… why not?! It feels so wonderful to have the sun on your skin and your feet on the earth.

    I think these photos sum up this shoot much better than my words ever could.

    All members have access to this complete 30 image photoset by clicking here.

    There are FOUR fancy timelapse behind the scenes videos too! Don’t forget to check those out. =]

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  • FREE ARCHIVED BLOG & PHOTOSET

    I originally wrote this for Patreon on April 29th 2017. I no longer use Patreon and have replaced it with my website (here) but thought I would share some of my old blogs with you for FREE to show my appreciation for you visiting my website! <3

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    This week I just want to share a ton of positive affirmations with you.  <3

    I awaken each morning with happiness and gratitude.

    I find joy in everything that I do.

    I love to share laughter with others.

    By allowing myself to be happy, I inspire others to be happy as well.

    Happiness is my natural state of being.

    I am able to be completely myself in my relationship.

    I communicate my desires and needs clearly and confidently.

    I know exactly what I need to do to achieve success.

    I am capable of anything I set my mind to.

    I never lose, I either learn or I win.

    I easily find solutions to challenges and move past them quickly.

    I live in the present and am confident in the future.

    I love change and easily adjust myself to new situations.

    I always see the good in others.

    I attract positive confident people.

    I love myself deeply and completely.

    I know that I am worthy of the best things in life.

    I fill my mind with positive and nourishing thoughts.

    I trust myself and know that my inner wisdom is my best guide.

    I nourish my body with healthy food.

    Every cell in my body vibrates with energy and good health.

    Every inhale brings in positive energy, every exhale expels negativity.

    I surround myself with peaceful, loving people.

    I release past anger and hurt and attract peace, love, and joy.

    I am grateful for this moment and find joy in it.

    I am here now.

    I am fully present in all of my relationships.

    I release the past and live fully in the present.

    All is well in my world.

    I love you, you’re the absolute best. <3 Enjoy these self portraits with my sister Gemini.

    All members have access to the complete 51 image photoset by clicking here & the complete 38 image photoset by clicking here.

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  • FREE ARCHIVED BLOG & PHOTOSET

    I originally wrote this for Patreon on April 15th 2017. I no longer use Patreon and have replaced it with my website (here) but thought I would share some of my old blogs with you for FREE to show my appreciation for you visiting my website! <3

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    I have been passing this abandoned house for months and months and just drooling over it because I know it’s abandoned and it’s GOT to be awesome inside. The downside is it’s right on a busy road and is very visible all around it, so I’ve been chicken to scout it out because I don’t want to get caught.

    Fast forward to a couple weeks ago my friend Colorvibes, a local model & photographer, posted a photo from inside an abandoned house asking who wanted to model in it for her. I of course volunteered and we scheduled a day that weekend to shoot. Guess which abandoned house it was?! THE ONE I’VE BEEN ITCHING TO GET INTO FOR MONTHS! (Law of attraction, man it really freakin works)

    She showed me around the house, which was bigger inside than I thought it would be, and we took photos in several of the rooms. Three rooms in particular really stuck out to me, one with a huge set of windows that still had sheer curtains on them, one with pink walls and teal carpet, and a room upstairs that had a bunch of paint cans all over the floor. I also really really love the front porch, ivy is starting to take over and it’s so pretty and green. We had to be pretty careful out there though, the front faces the busy road so we had to make sure nobody was looking. I took a couple of behind the scenes timelapses for you, and colorvibes is awesome and agreed to take some Instax for you too!

    All members have access to this complete 44 image photoset by clicking here.

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  • FREE ARCHIVED BLOG & PHOTOSET

    I originally wrote this for Patreon on April 8th 2017. I no longer use Patreon and have replaced it with my website (here) but thought I would share some of my old blogs with you for FREE to show my appreciation for you visiting my website! <3

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    Mercury retrograde starts tomorrow and continues until May 3rd. This might be why I feel like I’ve been in a funk lately! What is Mercury retrograde and why should I care about it? When a planet is in retrograde it appears to be moving backward in its orbit as viewed from Earth. Retrograde comes from the Latin term “retrogradus” which means “backward step.” The planets, moon, sun, and stars all affect things that happen here on Earth, and Mercury (named after the Greek messenger god) governs communication and transportation. When Mercury is in retrograde its positive influence is turned into more of a “negative” one. Since Mercury governs communication, transportation, and everything that goes along with it (contracts, business, documents, shipping, travel…) you will notice that those things tend to fall apart or become chaotic when Mercury is in retrograde. Things might get lost in the mail, a business meeting may go terribly wrong, or your car might break down. Astrologers recommend to not make any important plans or moves during Mercury retrograde because they most likely will not go well. I have a friend who won’t get any work done on his car, make any plans, or make any major purchases during Mercury retrograde. Pay attention to how things go for you now until May 3rd to see how Mercury retrograde affects you.

    Venus, Jupiter, and Saturn are currently in retrograde. If you’d like to read more about what these planets affect when they are in retrograde, check out these links for Venus, Jupiter, and Saturn. If you’d like to see where all the planets currently are I like this website.

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    The sets I’m sharing today are from our time in San Antonio! My sister Gemini and I took SO MANY self portraits together at the airbnb we stayed at. There are a total of 7 sets, I haven’t even been able to go through all of them yet! I’ll be sharing a couple of sets at a time over the next several weeks. I really love them and I’m excited to show you all of them! We took all but one set in the back yard, there were a couple of interesting barns that made for wonderful backdrops. We were lucky and there was a privacy fence so the nearby neighbors had no idea! There was a guy fixing a roof a few houses away that might have seen us though….

    All members have access to the complete 38 image photoset by clicking here, and the complete 50 image photoset by clicking here.

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  • FREE ARCHIVED BLOG & PHOTOSET

    I originally wrote this for Patreon on April 1st 2017. I no longer use Patreon and have replaced it with my website (here) but thought I would share some of my old blogs with you for FREE to show my appreciation for you visiting my website! <3

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    Stevie Macaroni and I have been friends for a few years now and I always love when our paths cross! Whether we’re creating art together or just hanging out I enjoy her company and hearing her stories. She’s able to travel more than I am so I always get the inside scoop on stuff when we get together. She stayed with us for 2 nights, it was really nice to catch up. It had been a long time since we had seen each other!

    It’s been a while since I shot any double exposures so I decided after shooting this roll of film with her that I would shoot over it again for some doubles, I’m so glad that I did! It made the images that much more magical in my opinion. Plus, with all the flowers starting to bloom here who wouldn’t want a bunch of flower-filled photos?!

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  • FREE ARCHIVED BLOG & PHOTOSET

    I originally wrote this for Patreon on March 11th 2017. I no longer use Patreon and have replaced it with my website (here) but thought I would share some of my old blogs with you for FREE to show my appreciation for you visiting my website! <3

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    Do you ever feel like you do too many things and have too many interests? I’ve been feeling this way for a while now and I want to figure out a way to incorporate all the awesome interesting things into my life but still have a LIFE. Is this what life is, trying to fill it with as much as possible for fear of missing out? I read one of those facebook horoscope things, a link stating “Every astrological sign’s downfall” or something like that. According to this site, as a Sagittarius my downfall is fear of failure. I don’t even start things because I’m afraid of failing. This is so so so true for me. I dip my toes into a thousand different little pools and never dive into any of them. But look at that other little pool over there! All the possibilities! I have so many interests and so many things I care about and want to do but I never delve really deeply into any one thing. I can’t tell yet if this is a good thing or not. I want to say it’s beneficial, because I have some knowledge about a lot of different topics and at least some skill at several different things. But I am not a pro at any ONE thing, other than being myself. =D  Maybe that’s why I wrack my brain for an interesting topic to blog about here every week. I enjoy metaphysical topics, I love aerial silks, I’m interested in so many things and it’s hard to pick and choose what I think would be fun to write about and what I hope you enjoy reading about. I feel somewhat scattered and all over the place in terms of what I share online. Well, mostly here because I don’t share very much anywhere else.

    Should I focus on one topic or genre and build it up, or should I continue dipping my toes into all the different little pools and share my favorite parts of them with you? I know this is something I will figure out when I spend some time and look inside myself but I’m always open to your suggestions too! YOU are the reason I’m here, you know. <3

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  • FREE ARCHIVED BLOG & PHOTOSET

    I originally wrote this for Patreon on March 4th 2017. I no longer use Patreon and have replaced it with my website (here) but thought I would share some of my old blogs with you for FREE to show my appreciation for you visiting my website! <3

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    Wow, I can’t believe it’s March already! Time is flying for me, is it flying for you too? I’m not complaining though, every day is a day closer to spring and summer and warmth! This week’s sets were actually taken outside! We’ve had a few abnormally warm days here in NC so I got to take advantage and I went to a park that has this wooden amphitheatre and took a couple of self portrait sets for you! I wanted to take more photos but I had to hastily put my clothes back on when someone started walking in my direction. One day the general population will be open minded enough to not freak out over nipples and butts… I know that has to be coming in the future. It has to!

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    This week I wanted to share more personal stuff about me, especially since I’ve been doing the informational metaphysical posts these last few weeks. I really love talking and sharing information about metaphysical stuff (I hope you enjoy it too!) but it’s been a while since I’ve opened up to y’all. I barely share personal things on social media because I’m usually much more of a private person. However, I savor the opportunity to reveal more of myself to y’all – my supporters, my confidants, my friends. <3 Thank you for being here with me!

    So, lately my life has been pretty hectic. I work a 40-hour work week, take aerial silks classes 2-3x a week, model for figure drawing sessions a couple times a month, I have a husband and roommate to spend time with, I try to find time for yoga and/or meditation, and I usually spend a weekend a month at my parents’ house for quality family time because they’re amazing and I don’t see them as often as I used to since I live further away from them now. I really appreciate and look forward to the time I set aside for myself to create for patreon – for YOU. If it weren’t for you, I wouldn’t spend near as much time being creative. It wouldn’t be a priority and I would end up with a lot of other important things that would take up my time before I could make time for art. So, thank you from the bottom of my heart. Being creative is my passion and what I essentially want to do as a career. You are helping me get one step closer to being creative full time, and that means so much. Haha I said I was going to open up to you and immediately started gushing about how amazing you guys are. <3 <3 <3

    Anyway… (I’m going to add some metaphysical stuff in here, get ready!) so I’m a Sagittarius. I’ve always liked reading horoscopes in newspapers and magazines, but a couple of years ago me, my parents, sister, granddaddy, and a couple of my parents’ friends started getting together once a month to talk about astrology. There is SO MUCH to learn and it can get overwhelming because there’s not just the 12 signs, there’s all the houses and aspects and the different planets… we’ve barely touched the surface. BUT, learning more about the signs in particular has helped me get to know myself better and to know others better as well. My sister Kitty is a Gemini and essentially starts her life over every 2 years or so, it’s amazing… and it’s totally a Gemini trait to do that, they’re all about change. Sagittarians are lucky, cheerful, independent, free spirited, versatile, have a bad case of wanderlust, and are always searching for knowledge. This is 100% me. You know what my dream is? My biggest dream (as of now, I’m sure it will change and grow and evolve over time) is to buy a big giant work van, convert it into a camper van, and live in it while exploring the country on a lifelong road trip, creating, meeting new people, and learning as much as I can about as much as I can. Oh my GOSH y’all I just… I really dream about this every day. I am the luckiest person in the world, too, because Antisocialdisposition/my husband is so super supportive of me and says that even though he doesn’t want to live in a van for longer than a few weeks, he is totally fine with having a home base where he lives full time and I can go off on my merry adventures for a few weeks at a time. My goal is to buy that van by the end of this year and finish the build out before AD finishes his electrical engineering degree in Dec 2018. This is gonna happen, I’m going to make it happen.

    What are your dreams for the future?

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