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FREE ARCHIVED BLOG & PHOTOSET
I originally wrote this for Patreon on January 13th 2017. I no longer use Patreon and have replaced it with my website (here) but thought I would share some of my old blogs with you for FREE to show my appreciation for you visiting my website! <3
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Happy Friday the 13th! Lemony Snicket’s A Series of Unfortunate Events is live on Netflix today, aren’t you excited! I know what I’m doing after I finish this blog post…. hehe.
I had an epiphany today that I should have had a long time ago BUT at least I had it, right? I plan on looking at social media in a different way, through a different lens, from a new perspective. I will start using it as a tool for learning instead of it being a giant time waster. I’m totally guilty of scrolling, but I want my scrolling to lead me to more knowledge instead of just more photos of the same thing and more people complaining about stuff. I am going to take the time to sift through all of the people I follow and only follow those who share knowledge about things I’m interested in and who post content that inspires me. I want quality, not quantity. I plan on making a calendar of topics that I want to research for a week or two (or more, depending on the topic), and have that topic be “in the spotlight” for that timeframe. When I’m on social media I will only look for and at information about whatever the current topic is. Once I feel like I know enough about it I will share my knowledge with you! Then I’ll start on the next topic. =]
I just posted a poll to see what y’all think is more interesting, please go check it out and answer! I would love to know what you think. I will use the results of the poll to decide what to learn about first!
Here are two new self portrait sets for you! Hope you enjoy them! <3
All members have access to this complete 21 image self portrait photoset by clicking here.
All members have access to this complete 73 image self portrait photoset on a NOLA balcony by clicking here.
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FREE ARCHIVED BLOG & PHOTOSET
I originally wrote this for Patreon on January 7th 2017. I no longer use Patreon and have replaced it with my website (here) but thought I would share some of my old blogs with you for FREE to show my appreciation for you visiting my website! <3
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When it snows here in NC everything shuts down. Schools close early in the face of predicted snow, everyone scrambles to get to the grocery store and buy all of the bread and milk (I guess for milk sandwiches?), and we all hunker down for a couple of days while only the bravest of us with the biggest trucks attempt to venture out into the horrifying whiteness that is NC winter weather. We don’t get snow every year, but the past few years we have gotten it once or twice each winter. The worst thing about NC snow is that it’s usually accompanied by ice. There is almost always a layer of ice either below or above the snow, or both, which makes it pretty treacherous to drive or walk in. I’m usually the one complaining when people talk about predicted winter weather. I hate being cold and really don’t enjoy snow and ice. It’s pretty when everything is all white and pristine but when it snows I just want it to disappear in about 8 hours when the magic has worn off so that we can get back to our lives.
It snowed last night (after lots of freezing rain so of course there’s ice), so instead of going to visit my parents like I had planned to I’m stuck in the house for the weekend. I’ll look at it as a good thing though, that means I have a lot of stuff I can get done! I can’t wait to show you the newest self portrait set I just took! I’ll probably have it ready for next week’s post.
Today I’m sharing the photos I’ve taken of NikNak & Marianna Lane. I have photos from a few different sets of each of them in the galleries for you to enjoy!
Marianna Lane:
All members have access to this complete 25 image photoset of NikNak by clicking here.
All members have access to this complete 29 image photoset of Marianna Lane by clicking here.
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FREE ARCHIVED BLOG & PHOTOSET
I originally wrote this for Patreon on December 24th 2016. I no longer use Patreon and have replaced it with my website (here) but thought I would share some of my old blogs with you for FREE to show my appreciation for you visiting my website! <3
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Today is Erica Jay‘s birthday so I thought it would be the perfect time to share my photographs of her with you! We worked together a few years ago when I hosted her while she was coming through NC. The images of her that are now in the gallery are from the first time we met. We worked together again later on when we met up in Nashville, all of the photos I took of her then were for Diplopia. This first image of her below (which was taken in my parents back yard) is blown up large in black and white and is now hanging in their “bar room,” which is a prominent room in the middle of their house. My parents are so freaking awesome, that room has a bunch of my photographs of nude models on the walls. <3 My dad says he has breakfast with them most mornings, haha.
The images of Mikki Marvel were also taken in my parents back yard (it’s really pretty! Can you blame me?) and were taken while being filmed for James McMahen‘s documentary Duality. Mikki is super fun to work with and even though she also is based in Charlotte somehow we’ve only each photographed each other once!
Kelso Deano visited Charlotte on the way home from a family vacation a couple years ago and I photographed her for both Diplopia and for nude double exposure portraits. After our shoot in my old apartment I took her to one of my favorite local places here called Amelie’s, which is a 24/7 french bakery and coffee shop. It looks like it was decorated by the Mad Hatter in a french theme! It’s super cute and all their pastries and food are DELICIOUS.
All members have access to this complete 14 image photoset of Erica by clicking here.
All members have access to this complete 14 image photoset of Mikki by clicking here.
All members have access to this complete 8 image photoset of Kelso by clicking here.
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Happy birthday to my Daddy!
Click here to view this photoset of my parents that I took back in 2012. Today is Daddy’s birthday!!!
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Roarie
Click here to view this photoset of Roarie Yum at Durham Fruit.
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Statue
Click here to view this photoset taken by Kyotocat.
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June St Paul in Joshua Tree
CAPTION FOR VIDEO ABOVE:
Hi friends! This week I’m sharing a photoset that I took last summer in Joshua Tree California (technically we were right outside of Joshua Tree) at an airbnb that was super amazing and fancy. It was me and my friend June St Paul and we took photos in and around the pool at the airbnb that is owned by one of her friends. It was a really cool experience, I really enjoyed spending a few days there and it was beautiful and relaxing and the pool was really fancy and they had just opened the pool. If you want to watch a whole bunch of videos from my trip I still have them all on my website for free (in the free section, the free galleries) you can watch all of the videos I made like every day. It was a really cool experience and I hadn’t seen her in a long time and it was enjoyable.I’m feeling low energy today and I have plans for doing an earth connection meditation for all of yall and maybe a free one for people who aren’t members. Maybe clothed for them and nude for yall because I know I’m safe being nude with yall! I just… I don’t know… thats the thing thats been calling to me the most. I dont know, I have these doubts of myself for some reason and I’m kinda reluctant to schedule things on a regular basis because I don’t want to then feel stuck to that and I don’t want to let people down. Right now I’m in a place where I want to plan things and not do them, or I don’t even want to plan stuff. It’s kinda weird. I donno, it might just be the energy of everything that’s going on that’s effecting that for me. I know that I appreciate yall so much because I’m able to buy groceries and stuff because you’re supporting me because this is my full time thing. I appreciate that so much.
I want to continue doing live gatherings with yall online, I’ve just kinda been in a funk lately with everything going on and I feel like I need to center myself and get back into my body and my heart before I can start sharing stuff with the world. I feel like I haven’t truly honestly spent enough time with and for myself in a really long time, and I’m getting better at that, but I still feel off kilter. Which is kinda weird because I’ve been self quarantining here at home for over a week, almost 2, no not 2 weeks yet. But I’ve spent a lot of time with myself and I keep feeling like I’m not doing enough and then at the same time I don’t want to make plans to do things because I don’t know what I’m going to feel like for the things that I have the plans for or if I’ll actually want to do them and it’s a weird thing.
I know that I for sure have photosets and videos that I can continue to share with yall through early June for sure. I haven’t created anything since like… September. It’s been a long time since I’ve had my camera out. I just haven’t been motivated, I haven’t felt like it, it hasn’t been something that’s been exciting to me or something that I’ve wanted to do for a while and I’m trying to be gentle with myself about it, even though it’s kinda stressing me out at the same time. I know that I need some changes and I’m not quite sure what those are. I feel like videos and actual connection with yall and other people around the world is the direction that I’m heading in, but I just haven’t quite gotten there yet, to knowing what that is for me and how that feels and if that’s… I don’t know. So I’m in a weird place and I feel like a lot of us are in a weird place, so I just wanted to say that if you’re in a weird place that you’re not alone and that this isn’t going to last forever. There’s at least one person that loves you and that person is me.
I have like 3 videos on ecosexuality that I’ve slowly started making. They’re all about 15 minutes or longer, because I can weave ecosexuality into basically any topic and it weaves into everything for me. I feel like that’s the direction that I’m going in, is ecosexuality and healing and connection with each other and the earth is really what’s actually calling me lately. It’s also scary at the same time because I know yall have this expectation of nude art from me, and I love that, and I love making nude art, it’s just not something thats been on the forefront of my mind in a while. Or something that’s been that exciting for me lately. So I don’t really know what that means and I’m trying to be gentle with myself. I’m trying to just let myself do the things that I feel good about, and trust that that’s the direction that I should go in.
So thats… what I have to share with you today I guess. I’m going to be spending some time just… with myself, figuring things out, feeling into all of these feelings that I’ve been repressing for over a year still. It’s hard to just wake up and face yourself and your emotions sometimes. It’s really scary because it feels like… what’s after that? There’s a big abyss of unknown of like, what is my life going to be like if I actually allow myself to feel these feelings because I don’t want it to take me over. And what’s on the other side of that? Yeah, life is weird.
I hope yall are doing good. I hope I haven’t brought you down. I do have some uplifting videos that I’ve previously recorded that I’ll probably share at some point. I just… want to make things that younger me needed, and that younger me wished I knew, and I want to be a sense of support and love for other people and I want to affirm other people in their identities, and that’s the thing that I’ve been most interested in recently. Just being someone that understands and someone that cares about everyone and isn’t judgmental and lets everyone be themselves because that’s who we are supposed to be!
Okay, it’s already been 10 minutes, I need to stop making these really long because it takes me a long time to type them up. Thank you for being here, I love you so much. If you have anything to share with me I’m always open, you can always email me or comment on this post. I love you and thank you for being here and I appreciate you and I’ll talk to you next week. <3
To watch the hundreds of videos I took during my cross country road trip that I mentioned in the video, click here.
Photo members: click here to view the full photoset of June St Paul in Joshua Tree California during my cross country road trip last summer
Video members: click here to view the BTS video
First Look members: click here to view the photoset at an abandoned mill by Nuance Artistry & click here to view the studio photoset by Nuance Artistry & click here to view the photoset with Evyenia Karapolous by Nuance Artistry & click here to view the BTS video -
June St Paul in Joshua Tree
Photo members now have access to:
- blog post with the story behind this photoset of June St Paul in Joshua Tree California during my cross country road trip last summer
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36 image complete photoset
Video members now have access to:
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everything above
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14 minutes of BTS video
First Look members now have access to:
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everything above
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22 image complete photoset at an abandoned mill by Nuance Artistry
- 16 image complete photoset in studio by Nuance Artistry
- 6 image complete photoset with Evyenia Karapolous by Nuance Artistry
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6 BTS videos
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Metal
Click here to view this photoset taken at Durham Fruit by Antisocialdisposition.
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FREE ARCHIVED BLOG & PHOTOSET
I originally wrote this for Patreon on December 18th 2016. I no longer use Patreon and have replaced it with my website (here) but thought I would share some of my old blogs with you for FREE to show my appreciation for you visiting my website! <3
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I have been reading a book that I found in Marie Laveau’s house of Voodoo while we were in New Orleans: Circle of Eight by Jane Meredith. It’s about creating rituals and magic based on your relationship with the land. It has me thinking a lot about rituals that I want to begin and magic that I want to create. It definitely inspired this self portrait set I’m sharing today.
Everything has been so up in the air and unfinished and scattered since we moved. I’m looking forward to the time when we are completely unpacked and settled and can really start getting into a routine again. A priority for me (after making art for y’all of course) is to learn much more about magic and energy and all things metaphysical.
Antisocialdisposition had a few shots left in his camera so we set up a shoot to finish off the roll involving a circle of eight with some of my skulls and larger quartz crystals. I’ll be sharing his photos as a bonus for everyone (a public post!) in a few days. I took the opportunity to shoot a large self portrait set in the circle after our shoot to share with you. I’ll be incorporating this kind of imagery/props/theme in future sets. More crystals and bones, some of my favorite things! Yay!
What are your thoughts about incorporating metaphysical imagery? Let me know in the comments!
Antisocialdisposition‘s 35mm photos:
All members have access to this complete 90 image self portrait set by clicking here.