• Have you ever noticed…

    …that Tulip Poplar (scientific name: Liriodendron Tulipifera, Cherokee name: tsiyu) tree bark looks like a variety of vulvas?

    It’s so beautiful šŸ˜

    I think I’m gonna start posting some of the random stuff here that I otherwise would keep to myself or post to instagram. I’m feeling increasingly frustrated with social media + want to invest my time here instead.

    …also now that I’ve started looking up the Indigenous names of plants I want to continue doing this!!! I feel very disconnected from my Choctaw + Cherokee ancestry + this is one way I can start to reconnect.

    The rest of my ancestry is primarily Irish + Scottish, I learned this only a couple of months ago! I want to learn more about that part of my ancestry too, like why they came here (to the US), what kinds of rituals they did, how they connected with the Earth + each other, who they prayed to…

    For a long time I had no idea what my ancestry was + I felt drawn to a lot of other cultures because they felt so rich + full of life… I wanted that too.

    I felt lost + like I didn’t know who “my people” were, where I came from. Now that I know, I can root into the practices of my ancestors, I can reconnect to that lost part of myself. I no longer have to reach for other culture’s practices that don’t belong to me, I can reach for practices that are in my DNA, within me. I am only beginning + it already feels more powerful + true.

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  • Self tie practice today

    I was more into rope a few years ago, then dropped it for a few years, and recently picked it back up again, this time with more intention and respect. I learned the hard way that rope can be dangerous in 2016 when I got wrist drop for 3 months after a rope suspension injured my radial nerve. I don’t regret the experience and I learned a lot.

    I really don’t feel like posting to social media much anymore but I recently learned the wordpress app on my phone works pretty well for creating posts, so here I am sharing some random rope stuff from today šŸ˜Š

    Sending you lots of love ā¤

  • Ecosexual Time Capsule ā¤ part 4

    In my back yard with Celeste Call, NC 2019

    At a nude beach in Portland OR with Ambivalent Ann during my 69 day cross country road trip, 2019

    The same nude beach, this time with KH, 2019

    Lassen Volcanic in California with From the Edge Photography, 2019


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  • Ecosexual Time Capsule ā¤ part 1

    Before I started focusing on nude photography, I took a lot of photos like this:

    These are from 2010-2012…. did you notice that this ^^^ is a POPLAR TREE?! ā¤ā¤ā¤

    My giant tattoo is a Poplar, in case you didn’t know šŸ˜

    Then once I found the nude art/traveling creator community online, I really dove into creating nude images, + started seriously sharing them in 2014.

    Here’s me in a wildflower field off the side of a highway in NC, 2015!

    On the side of a mountain in NC, 2016

    At a trail near my apartment, 2016

    In the woods near my apartment, 2016

    In May of 2016 I lost the use of my right hand for 3 months, + during that time went on a road trip to Utah with Antisocialdisposition


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  • Traveling + creation on the horizon!

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    Hi friends!Ā 

    So, I wanted to try something new, I am making this early, that’s not new, but I’m making this early, because I will be traveling for the first three weeks of August. and I’m excited!! But I also know that while I’m traveling, I probably will not be able to make a new blog post and stuff for y’all or post them because I don’t know what my internet access is going to be like, so I wanted to do a little bit of stuff in preparation for my trip, so that y’all still had things to enjoy from me while I’m gone + I don’t have to worry about like, “oh no, I need to do something now, but I donā€™t have internet.” So to alleviate my stress and to make sure that y’all still have fun things from me, I’m making some stuff early Yay! So I don’t have a super plan. I have some self portraits that I’ve taken that I haven’t shared anywhere yet and I haven’t even looked through all of them yet either if I can look through them and like, pick my favorites before my trip, I’m going to share those with you. Otherwise I might have to wait till after but we’ll see how much time I have and if I can look through them and share them before I leave or like at least schedule them.Ā 

    So that’s a potential thing that I will be sharing, maybe. Yes, I actually took some self-portraits this year and I also thought it might be fun to share some photos and videos from shoots from my past to be like ā€œhey if you’re new here, this is some stuff that I used to doā€ or like ā€œthis is what I used to look like before all the tattoos and the no hair. I looked different. So yeah, I am here to, I guess, just tell you expect some fun interesting things from me that I’m not sure what I’m going to share yet, but it’s going to be cool! I’m excited to share something with you even though I don’t know what it is yet! Yeah I’m excited! So right now today is I think July 22nd? or 23rd? 22nd?

    Does it really matter exactly what day it is? It’s the second to last week of July, right now as I’m recording this. So I have a post coming out on the 24th which is this Saturday, which you’ll probably see this before this video comes out but I’m excited about that because I worked really hard on it and it’s about how queer nature is! Well it’s not even all the examples of how queer nature is but it’s a few examples to share with you. So I’m excited for that. August 1st is the virtual nude gathering for August, which…

    Oh my, I’m sorry for dropping you. That was not supposed to happen. Okay, I think it’s because I had it leaned a lot because I was like, I don’t.. yeah, sorry, you fell. I already forgot what I was saying.Ā 

    Oh yeah. The nature is queer post that’s coming out on 24th and then the virtual nude gathering is on August 1st. I’m not sure if you’ll see this before then or not so Iā€™m mentioning it.Ā  I have a Blog that I made that I read a part of a book but I think I’m going to post that for the free part of my website. I wanted to post some stuff for just members because y’all are special and I love you and because you need all like I want to share all of the coolest things with you. But I also want to share a lot of cool things for free too because I think it’s important for people to have access to my content without having to pay for it.Ā While also having extra awesome things for the people who do pay for it because the people who pay for it, which is you, are the reason that I am able to like, pay my rent and like have food and go on trips and take photos. So y’all are the reason I’m able to do any of this. So I just wanted to share my appreciation for you and let you know that I have some cool stuff coming up. I’m just not sure exactly what I’m going to share yet because I have a lot of options and it’s hard for me to pick, so yeah.

     

    Also, I don’t know if you’ve seen, I have more color now! Can I show you that? So this one I got already last time… this I already had but all the stuff above my knee is new, can you see it? And then obviously we’re not done because there’s a lot more to go because *gestures at all the outlines not colored in yet* yeah, butā€¦ done 2 color sessions! I’m closer to being a tree in color!

    Okay, yeah, I don’t want to make this too long and I would like to go and pick what I want to share with you, so I’m going to go do that. I love you! Thank you so much for being here! It means the world. I actually might share a survey here so that you can let me know the kinds of things that you like the most, because that’s important for me to know and I would love to hear what yall are most interested in, so I’ll put a link to that in this blog post too so you can share with me whatever you want to see. And then I can be like, oh, now I know what they want to see, I can do more of that! Okay, I love you! Thank you for being here! I’ll talk to you soon. Maybe before I leave on my trip, maybe during my trip, maybe after. Who knows?! But I’ll have plenty of stuff to share with you while I’m gone. I’ll just queue stuff up becauseā€¦Ā  yeah, I like to plan ahead. I love you! Thank you for being here! I’ll talk to you soon! Mwah!


     


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  • Nature is Queer!

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    Hi friends!

    So I have recently finished a book that I am obsessed about, obsessed with, and super excited about. It has totally affirmed all of my queerness in general, but sometimes, I somehow still feel like I need to be affirmed in my queerness even though I’m super queer and like, that’s awesome but we all need some affirmation sometimes, right?

    So I would love to share with you this book Evolutionā€™s Rainbow from Joan Roughgarden who is a trans woman biologist. An amazing person who wrote this amazing book. So, it’s Evolutionā€™s Rainbow: Diversity, Gender, and Sexuality in Nature and People.

    I love everything that I read in this book, I do feel like there were some kind of outdated terms in this book which kind of makes sense because itā€™s from 10 years ago. It’s been out for over 10 years. So, whatever potentially incorrect language is used in the book, I highly doubt like there was any kind of malice in using those terms. I would like to give Joan and the amount of time it’s been since Joan wrote his book, the benefit of the doubt that some of the like outdated language that was used wasnā€™t really on purpose. Language from 10 years ago, even if it’s not totally the way things would go today, but it’s nothing like superā€¦ whatā€™s the word Iā€™m looking for? Negative, I guess?

    Distracted me! Yay. But anyway, this book is amazing. I wanted to go over this little section called Gender Defined, because itā€™s real great and itā€™s probably one of my favorite parts of the book and itā€™s pretty close to the beginning.Ā 

    If you’re curious about like gender or, not gender, about nature being super fucking queer this is your book. This is all the science behind how queer nature is, nature is super fucking queer. So queer! Like, of course, humans are queer, because queerness is all throughout the animal kingdom! I don’t even like that term, okay, let’s find another term… all throughout life on this planet!

    So Iā€™m gonna read a little bit from this and let’s affirm your queerness too.

    All right, Gender Defined.Ā 


    ā€œUp to now, we’ve come up with two generalizations. One: most species reproduce sexually, and two: among the species that do reproduce sexually, gamete size obeys a near universal binary between very small: sperm, and large: egg. So that male and female can be defined biologically as the production of small and large gametes, respectively.Ā  Beyond these two generalizations, the generalizing stops and diversity begins!

    The binary in gamete size doesn’t extend outward. The biggest error of biology today is uncritically assuming that gamete size binary implies a corresponding binary in body type, behavior, and life history.ā€

    (I’m going to read that sentence again because I think it is so important to really get in our brain. Here we go, reading a second time.)

    ā€œThe biggest error of biology today is uncritically assuming that gamete size binary implies a corresponding binary in body type, behavior, and life history.

    No binary governs the whole individuals who make gametes, who bring them to one another for fertilization and who interact with one another to survive in a native social context. In fact, the very sexual process that maintains the rainbow of a species and facilitates long-term survival automatically brings a cornucopia of colorful, sexual behaviors.

    Gender, unlike gamete size, is not limited to two. Gender usually refers to the way a person expresses sexual identity in a cultural context. Gender reflects both the individual reaching out to cultural norms and society imposing expectations on the individual. Gender is usually thought to be uniquely human. Any species has sexes, but only people have genders.

    With your permission though, I’d like to widen the meaning of gender to refer to non-human species as well. As a definition, I suggest gender is the appearance, behavior, and life history of a sexed body. A body becomes sexed when classified with respect to the size of the gametes produced. Thus gender is appearance plus action, how an organism uses morphology, including color and shape, plus behavior to carry out a sexual role. Now we’re free to explore the zoological and botanical counterpart of human gender studies.

    So, we may ask how much variety occurs in gender expression among other species? Let’s take some favorite stereotypes and see. We will look mostly at vertebrae, but even more variety occurs with invertebrates and plants.ā€

    (All right, this is going to be a list and it’s really great. I want to make this into a like, infographic post because it’s so good.)


    ā€œAn organism is solely male or female for life.

    No. The most common body form among plants and in perhaps half of the animal kingdom is for an individual to be both and female at the same time or at different times during its life. These individuals make both small and large gametes during their lives.

    Males are bigger than females, on the average.

    No, in lots of species, especially fish, the female is bigger than the male.

    Females, not males, give birth.

    No, in many species the female deposits the eggs in the pouch of the male, who incubates them until birth. In many species males, not females, tend the nest.

    Males have XY chromosomes and females, XX chromosomes.

    No, in birds including domesticated poultry like chickens the reverse is true. In many other species, males and females showed no difference in chromosomes. In all alligators and crocodiles, some turtles and lizards, and the occasional fish, sex is determined by the temperature at which the eggs are raised. A female can control the sex ratio among her offspring by laying eggs in a shady or sunny spot.

    Only two genders occur, corresponding to the two sexes.

    No, many species have three or more genders with individuals of each sex occurring in two or more forms.Ā 

    Males and females look different from one another.

    No, in some species males and females are almost indistinguishable. In other species males occur in two or more forms, one of which resembles a female while the others are different from the female.Ā 

    The male has a penis and the female lactates. (This is probably my favorite one!)

    No, in the spotted hyena, females have a penis-like structure externally identical to that of males, and in the fruit bat of Malaysia and Borneo, the males have milk producing mammary glands.Ā 

    Males control females.

    (Obviously hell no.) In some species, females control males, and in many, mating is a dynamic interaction between female and male choice. Females may or may not prefer a dominant male. Period. (I added the period.)

    Females prefer monogamy and males want to play around.

    No, depending on the species, either or both sexes may play around. Lifelong monogamy is rare, and even within monogamous species, females may initiate divorce to acquire a higher ranking male.ā€

    Resources:

    Book:

    Evolutionā€™s Rainbow: Diversity, Gender, and Sexuality in Nature and People by Joan Roughgarden

    Internet Articles:

    11 Animals That Can Change Their Sex by Sidney Stevens

    These are the only 3 animals on Earth who produce offspring this way by Molly Sequin

    Sex Redefined: The Idea of 2 Sexes is Overly Simplistic by Claire Ainsworth

    How Birds Become Male or Female, and Occasionally Both by Jenny Graves

    We Have the Wrong Idea About Males, Females, and Sex by David Robson

    Female Animals with Pseudo Penises by Katie Mach


    And this is in the animal kingdom, or in the life that is non-human on the worldā€¦ okay!? Yeah so nature is queer as fuck. There’s like transgender hummingbirds. There are plants that are male in the morning and female in the evening, and others of those plants are the opposite, female in the morning and male in the afternoon. Even different genders throughout like one day.Ā 

    There’s like fish that like are very, like queer, gender weird. At all the things I’m justā€¦ *makes excited face*

    Spotted hyena, all of them have penises. Also, it doesn’t say it in that section that I read to you, but in another section about those spotted hyenas, it’s probably, it’s one of my favorite things! Now I’m just like ā€œhaaaā€ …build expectation.Ā 

    Female hyenas have penises too, they all have penises. The spotted hyena all have penises, and an erection is a sign of submission!!!!!!! In spotted hyena world!!!!

    Okay, Iā€™m done. So natureā€™s queer, end of story. I love you. Let’s go. Let’s check out more queer nature things.

    Do you like this video? If you like this video, comment and let me know and I’ll make more queer nature videos. I love you!


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  • Meredith, Rachel, + Hendrix

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    Hi friends! So today I wanted to tell you about the photos that I took in the last couple of weeks. I actually had 2 photoshoots in the last few weeks + I’m very excited + happy with how the photos turned out!They were fun photoshoots, both outside, both with people I haven’t created with before, local to Charlotte, which was cool.

    The first photoset I took was with Meredith at a nature preserve in the area + we found this really great rock that was heart shaped if you looked at it from higher up, so we took a bunch of photos on those + then some other places nearby. It was beautiful + wonderful + it was fun to hang out. Also there was sadly a lot of trash on the trail + that made me sad so I picked it up + threw it away. They had trashcans, + most of the trash was outside of the trashcan. I don’t know if there was a raccoon or something that got in there, but I put it back in the trash. Things like that, I’m just going to do it. So that was with Meredith, it was fun hanging out with her.

    Ā The next shoot that I had was with Rachel + she brought her little baby, 8 month baby I believe, Hendrix with her. He was super cute. We shot here in the back yard, right over there. My mom helped, she babysat off to the side, when we were shooting. They hung out on a blanket in the yard, + we were in the makeshift mini studio thing we put together. That was really fun, we did double exposures with Zion National Park. They all turned out so amazingly. At the end we did, maybe the last 5 or 6 photos, included the baby! The very last photo we took is the one of her kissing him + it’s my favorite of the whole roll.

    Ok yeah that’s what I wanted to share with you, I’m excited to share them with you + I hope you like them as much as I do! I love you!

    Rachel + Hendrix

    Meredith

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  • Prana + Bryce + Zion

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    Hi friends! It’s been a little bit since I’ve done a video blog thing so I’m here to do that and say hi. I actually have a photoset to share with you that I took with Prana. She was traveling + was in NC + I was like “hey I’m in Charlotte if you’re in the area feel free to come visit me it’d be awesome to hang out + meet you in person!” She met me + she came to my house + we hung out + took some photos together. I have a couple rolls of landscapes that I hadn’t doubled over yet, so she picked out her favorite + we shot a whole roll of doubles + I love how they came out so much!

    We did the photoshoot here in the back yard. We hung a black blanket from the fence right here + did the whole photoshoot here in a makeshift studio in my backyard. It was amazing! I’m sooooo happy with how the photos came out. We doubled her over images of Bryce Canyon + Zion + they’re amazing! I’m sure you can see how amazing they are by scrolling down because I’m sharing a few samples of the roll with you. I’m sharing the entire roll with all of the members of my website so you can see all 37 images from the shoot. And the behind the scenes videos! We took video while we were shooting so you can see how we hang out + talk + interact + stuff during a shoot! Yay! You can see what the setup was too, literally I was right over here.

    I don’t want to be in the sun too long because I don’t have sunscreen on but I wanted to be outside because light. I just wanted to share these photos with you + to tell you how awesome Prana is! We just hung out in my back yard all day, we took 1 roll of film + then after that we just laid on a blanket + chatted. She took self portraits here + we just hung out, it was great. It was so relaxing + enjoyable. I laughed + smiled a whole lot so it was great. Yeahhhh I don’t think that’s… I have really anything else to tell you right now. But yeah I just wanted to share this photoset with you, because I think it’s awesome + I think you’ll like them too.

    Samples below if you want to see some of my faves + if you want to see ALL of the photos members can click the links underneath those photos to go straight to the gallery + to see the behind the scenes video, yay!!!

    I believe Prana is also sharing all of this on her patreon, so I’ll link to her patreon in the caption below so you can check out her patreon too (CLICK HERE!!!) She takes incredible self portraits…. I don’t know if you can hear that? *helicopter flying overhead*Ā Very loud helicopter.

    But yeah Prana takes amazing self portraits + she travels a decent amount, so you can see her self portraits from her travels + they’re incredible + amazing. I really love how she uses self portraiture as a way to heal + to be in her body when it’s hard to be in her body. I very much appreciate that + admire her ability to do that. So yeah, go check out her work, it’s amazing. I hope you enjoy these photos. Have a great day! Mwah!

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  • Karolina Von maternity double exposures

     

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    Hi friends! I just wanted to quickly come on here and show you my face. Hiiii I’m alive! And also share with you a photoset that I actually took really recently, last weekend May 2nd. My friend Karolina Von (I’ll link her information below because you should totally be following her on her website) she’s currently pregnant and she’s due in July and we took some double exposures of her with Glacier National Park. I think they’re absolutely gorgeous.

    I’m so humbled and thankful that she trusted me with her ever-changing body and her safety and her image for these photos. So super wonderful. I always love spending time with her. We’ve created together 4 or 5 times, she doesn’t live super far away, she lives less than an hour away from here so we’ve created together several times. You can see a bunch of our work together in the directory, in my archives. This time we took pictures of her while she’s pregnant and they’re double exposures so of course I love them, because doubles are my favorite. I just wanted to share this photoset with you. It’s the entire roll of film, all 37 images, I’m sharing the whole thing with you. I haven’t edited them at all, it’s just as they were taken. I’m pretty excited and I think they’re wonderful.

    What else do I want to say? I don’t want to say too much because I know I have the nude gathering tomorrow and posts going out about that and stuff so I don’t want to overwhelm you with too many posts. I just wanted to come on here and share this photoset with you and say hi and I love you.

    If you’re new here, I only do photos every once in a while. It used to be a regular thing but it’s not anymore. I’m shifting away from doing photography and modeling stuff and going more into the community events and queer resources and peer support kind of things so if you’re here for regular new images and videos and stuff from me you might be a little disappointed because those will come sporadically.

    I have like literal thousands of photos and videos in my archives for you to enjoy. It will take you a really really long time to get through all of them because there’s so many, there’s over 17,000 photos and over 2,000 videos so there’s no shortage of content to enjoy.

    I’m also like… if I force myself to create on a strict regular basis, like I have to create something once a week or whatever, then it ends up being me creating things because I feel like I HAVE to instead of me creating things because I’m excited and WANTING to and inspired to, and yall deserve the kind of content that I’m really excited about making instead of the content that I feel forced to make. It’s best for all of us if I’m not forcing myself to continually make something new all the time, because nobody needs that. We need time to rest and to shift gears and change and transform and yeah… so I’m giving that to myself and I hope that you give that to yourself.

    I hope you enjoy this photoset because I think it is INCREDIBLE. *mwah*

    I’m going to post a few samples below and then also the link to see the whole gallery of it so, yay enjoy! Thanks for being here! I LOVE YOU! *mwah*

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