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Singingsiren44 in the Rocky Mountains
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Hi hello! Earth Day was yesterday, and I spent a lot of my day outside and also looking at and watching videos and photos that I took on my big road trip last summer, so it was nice to connect with different parts of the earth in that way.
This week I’m sharing a photoset that I took of my friend Singingsiren44 (you can find them on instagram). ((In the video I said their pronouns are both her and them, I should have double checked first because they now only use they/them pronouns!))
We had only been following each other online and had never met in person, and when I was announcing where I was going on my trip they offered for me to stay with them so that was super wonderful and generous, and I really enjoyed spending time with them and I spent a few days there. One of the days we drove out to the Rocky Mountains and just found a place to park off the side of the road and ran into the woods and climbed down this hill and found a river and hung out next to it for a while and took photos all around in the woods and the rocks and the river. It was a really great day, and I took a bunch of photos of them doing self care out there. It was a really good time, I really enjoyed it, I made a new friend. We had never met and I thought it was pretty magickal that we got along so well and it was very generous for them to let me stay there, so I really appreciated that.
This week I have felt very slow and quiet and not very motivated to do very much. I think part of that is this new life that we’re living under quarantine, and part of it is probably also because I’m realizing that I need to give myself the space to do nothing. I have felt for a really long time that I have to constantly be doing things in order to be “productive” and “valuable” as a person. And that’s not true, I’m valuable as a person because I exist. So I’m trying to release as much of the internalized capitalism that’s within me as much as I can, and recognize that my value is not based on my productivity and that I don’t have to always be doing things, or know what the next thing is. At this point I’m kinda so in between where I was and where I want to be, and I don’t even know where I want to be yet, so I’m in this liminal space of knowing that I don’t want to stay where I was and moving toward something different, but I don’t know what my goals are, I don’t know where I’m heading toward or what the next step is. So, really the only thing for me to do is sit in it and feel it, and let whatever is supposed to come up, come up. Let my dreams make themselves known to me. That’s kinda hard because I’m a fire sign, I’m as Sagittarius (with a Virgo rising) so I feel like I need to do stuff, and be productive, and go on with my life and have a plan and work towards that goal and plan.
I’m in a place where I don’t have very many goals other than keeping up with my weekly computer stuff for yall and my twice a week live videos. I’m glad that I have those recurring obligations that I’ve created for myself to create something, and I’m just letting that be what I do right now. Since I’m not really sure what direction I want to go in, I feel like moving in any direction right now is kinda fruitless because it’s not with my whole heart, it’s just like I’m doing a thing because I feel like I have to do it. That’s not a heart centered, inspired thing to do. So life is complicated. I feel like I need to figure things out and I know that I can’t necessarily figure them all out at once.
I’m occupying my time with the Explore More Summit that’s going on right now. I’m watching at least one of those videos… almost every day. It’s a 10 day summit with therapists and educators, and so many people that I really value their thoughts and opinions on things. It’s been really nice to see what comes up in me when I watch these videos from other people. Maybe that will spark some inspiration for me. I’m trying to not be too frustrated with myself, allowing myself to get out of bed at noon, read a book, have breakfast, spend some time outside, not be “productive”. It’s hard, but I’m working on it, and I’m still getting my weekly necessary things done, so that’s nice. Balance is kinda hard for me to find, because I feel like, up until this point, and maybe even still, I haven’t really had that much balance, I’ve overworked myself for years and years, and maybe my frustration with slowing down and not being productive is a remnant of my internalized capitalistic bullshit that’s not really mine.
I appreciate yall being here, and spending this time with me every week, and caring about what I have to say, and supporting me through all the changes. I’m really excited for May 1st when I discontinue the photo membership and everybody that’s currently in photo memberships are going to be upgraded for video. Pretty excited about that, I’m excited to make memberships less complicated for everyone involved. Also, photo people are getting an upgrade so that’s cool. Upgrade for free, or the price you already pay for photo. That’s a super great deal and I’m really happy to be able to do that for yall. Especially since yall have been instrumental in me being able to live my life and still have a job during all of this. So I appreciate you so much. I look forward to spending time with you twice a week, Mondays and Thursdays. I don’t have a whole lot to say today, so I just wanted to say I love you!
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Singingsiren44 in the Rocky Mountains
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Sura & Shawnna Lee
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Hi friends! I actually have my camera set up on a surface so I have my hands! And it’s not gonna be jiggly, so yay! This week I’m sharing with you a photoset that I took of Sura & Shawnna Lee at a nude beach outside of Portland Oregon, during the nude beach gathering that I shared with you last weekend. We took these next to/inside of this structure that we found on the beach, it was really beautiful. It was such a fun time! This was after the group stuff we did at the beginning, we split off into our own little groups, and me and one or two other photographers photographed Sura & Shawnna at this wooden structure that was already on the beach, so it was a beautiful wonderful fun time! I’m also playing ball with Pax. I’ve already talked about the nude beach gathering so I don’t feel like I have much to talk about it, plus I have one or two photosets from that day to still share with you, the big group one where we had the cuddle pile so I’m excited about that one. That one’s coming very soon.My time right now, so today is Thursday, and I’m sharing all of this stuff on Saturday like usual, so I’m feeling MUCH better than last week. I tend to forget how awful I feel emotionally right before I start my period, so I’m in a deep dark hole of my mind for a while, then I start bleeding and I feel a thousand times better. So here I am feeling a thousand times better. I started bleeding a day or two after I made the last video and immediately started feeling so much better. I should remember this, it happens every month, so I shouldn’t have that hard of a time remembering, but I’m so in my feels that I forget that it’s a monthly thing and it’s going to pass, I just feel like shit because I’m going to start my period. Hehe Pax loves to play ball, I’ll show you. Are you gonna drop it? There you go! So that’s what I’m doing today, is playing ball with Pax and getting all of your content ready for this weekend.
So… yeah I feel way better. I’m actually planning some online interviews with model friends of mine, actually modelographers, so far everyone’s a model and photographer. Right now I have something coming up on Sunday, so the day after this is posted it’ll be tomorrow. We haven’t completely ironed out a time yet, but I’ll post it on my IG. It’ll be an IG live, where we’re together in the IG live, not in person, but split screen I think. I haven’t actually done a 2 person live before so I’m excited about that, we’ll see how that works. We’re going to be interviewing each other and talking about our art and our feelings probably, so I’m excited about that. I have another friend model/photographer that we just started talking about it today, so hopefully we’ll be doing an interview in the coming weeks, don’t know when yet. (Okay I’ll throw the ball…. ready? ready? He’s so cute!) So I’m excited for that, I have more things online for yall. I don’t know where I’ll do the second one yet, but I know the first one with my friend Babexland, aka Bette Machete, you’ve seen lots of photos of her on my website, because I’ve taken a bunch of photos with her which is super great because she’s local to Charlotte so we’ve been able to get together several times. I’m excited to talk about all kinds of art things with her and hopefully schedule other interviews with other creators. (What do you see Pax? Is it a squirrel? There’s a squirrel in the tree.) Yeah, so that’s kinda all I have going on right now, just planning things to do online to share with people.
If you haven’t watched it yet, I last week, no at the beginning of this week, I did a livestream on my youtube channel about ecosexuality so if you’ve been curious about what that is, if you scroll back through my posts, I posted that video, it’s over an hour long, I just talked about ecosexuality because I have so much to say! So if you’re curious about what ecosexuality is and how I embody that, you can scroll back a bit to watch that video. (CLICK HERE TO WATCH)
Today is Thursday so I have our members only live video gathering coming up tonight, which I’m excited about. I have some ideas for some other videos I want to make, but right now I’m gonna just be winging it for the youtube livestreams. I have more of a plan for the member live chats, I might have them be similar to each other, the Monday and Thursday ones, I haven’t completely decided. I’m just kinda going with how I feel on that day to be honest. I do have the schedule on bunnyluna.com/schedule with a basic overview of what the topics could be, but those are up for change and based on what everybody’s interested in. The video tonight, Thursday, which will have already happened by the time this posts, I’ll be talking about topics and what yall are interested in doing and talking about for the Thursday video gatherings together. I’m excited about that.
I think that’s most of what I have to say. I’m still figuring out what I want to do and how I want to do it. I appreciate yall being here and going on this journey with me. I want to go more in the metaphysical direction, and the healing direction, and the feelings direction. I don’t want to just focus on photography. I love photography, but I feel like I have a lot more to say than just “hey here are my photos” so I’m excited to share all of that with you. I appreciate yall being here and I love you so much and I look forward to spending all of these Thursday evenings with you! I think that’s all for today! I love you! Thank you for being here with me! I literally could not do this without you, I appreciate you so much! MWAH!
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Sura & Shawnna Lee
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When it snows here in NC everything shuts down. Schools close early in the face of predicted snow, everyone scrambles to get to the grocery store and buy all of the bread and milk (I guess for milk sandwiches?), and we all hunker down for a couple of days while only the bravest of us with the biggest trucks attempt to venture out into the horrifying whiteness that is NC winter weather. We don’t get snow every year, but the past few years we have gotten it once or twice each winter. The worst thing about NC snow is that it’s usually accompanied by ice. There is almost always a layer of ice either below or above the snow, or both, which makes it pretty treacherous to drive or walk in. I’m usually the one complaining when people talk about predicted winter weather. I hate being cold and really don’t enjoy snow and ice. It’s pretty when everything is all white and pristine but when it snows I just want it to disappear in about 8 hours when the magic has worn off so that we can get back to our lives.
It snowed last night (after lots of freezing rain so of course there’s ice), so instead of going to visit my parents like I had planned to I’m stuck in the house for the weekend. I’ll look at it as a good thing though, that means I have a lot of stuff I can get done! I can’t wait to show you the newest self portrait set I just took! I’ll probably have it ready for next week’s post.
Today I’m sharing the photos I’ve taken of NikNak & Marianna Lane. I have photos from a few different sets of each of them in the galleries for you to enjoy!
Marianna Lane:
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Ambivalent Ann at a nude beach
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Ambivalent Ann at a nude beach
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Hi friends! This weekend I’m sharing a photoset that I took outside of Portland Oregon of my friend Ambivalent Ann. I met her during the nude beach gathering that I facilitated outside of Portland last summer, and we met up again to take photos of each other at a different nude beach. It was super fun. There were other people there but it wasn’t super crowded or overwhelmingly a lot of people. I went to the nude beach that she and I went to another time with other models that I’ll be sharing with you. It was a really great time and it’s a beautiful nude beach and I believe I’ve already shared the photos that she took of me so these are the photos I took of her there. I love that we had access to the water and there was natural trees and grasses and stuff that we could hang out in too and of course the sandy beach which is nice. I’m always definitely a mountain person, but the beach is nice too. If I had the choice I’d go to the mountains before I’d go to the beach, to be honest.
I’m excited that I have finally decided what I want to do. Of course it might change because life happens, things happen, I might be called to do something different, but at this moment I’ve decided that I’m going to be making some changes. I’m really excited about them, and I hope you are too! For those of you who are in the photo level, you’re getting upgraded! I’ll explain that in a second. For everybody, on Mondays at 6pm EST I’ll be doing livestreams on my youtube channel. (I’ll link to that HERE!) Make sure to subscribe to my youtube channel so you can see all the Monday livestreams that I’ll be doing! The first one coming up is this coming Monday the 6th and my mom will be a special guest! We’re going to talk about holding space for all of our feelings, because we’ve both learned a lot about holding space and what that truly means over the last couple of years, and we have knowledge that we would like to share about it. We’ll also probably do some mini meditations at the beginning and end and have a conversation, I’m really excited about that! If you’d like to join our circle on Monday, it’ll be every Monday (this time my mom will be joining!) at 6pm EST on my youtube channel, so subscribe!
Every Thursday at 6pm EST I’m doing a members only live video chat via freeconferencecall. I have topics already scheduled out (CLICK HERE FOR THE SCHEDULE) I have the whole list of dates and what all I’ll be discussing (topics) and all of those are up for potential rearranging, changing, upgrading, adding, subtracting. I’m not going to hold myself into a small box of like “this is what I decided to do 3 weeks ago, and I have to follow that 3 weeks from now” when I might have something different going on. It’s like a template, a basic general idea of what I’d like to discuss, but I want to give yall the ability to let me know what you’re interested in and excited about! I would like to cater those Thursday live video chats with yall to what you’re interested in talking about and experiencing. If you want to see what my tentative plan/schedule is, it’s at bunnyluna.com/schedule.
I’m really excited! I’ve wanted to go more into video and more actual community and spending time with each other instead of being like “here’s something that I typed up and here’s photos that I took, that’s it, here enjoy it”. I want to be more connected to yall and have more experiences with you, even if it’s just virtual. For me, especially with everything that’s going on, I’ve really enjoyed the times that I’ve been able to talk to someone and see their face and hear their voice. Even if it’s not in person and it’s just digitally like this. To me it’s so much more connecting than just reading text and seeing a photo. I tend to try to do these blog posts early. Like, today is Thursday (I think? Who knows what day it is). I think today is Thursday. I won’t be starting the live video chats today obviously because you won’t see this video til Saturday. But I like to do things early if it’s something like a blog post and getting photosets ready to show you. I feel like I’m not as present with you when I’m doing that because I’m scheduling stuff for the future. I want to be present with you. I want to have a conversation with you, have a dialogue, see your face, hear your voice (if you’re into that). I would like for us to have a conversation. I want to ask “what is something that you’ve enjoyed that I’ve done?” so I can do more of that.
I’m excited about these changes I’m making. Another change that I’m doing is May 1st I will be discontinuing the photo membership tier, that whole photo membership I won’t sell anymore. I think I have to technically keep it in my store and just have a cap of how many people can join and hide it. Anyone that’s in the photo membership before May 1st will automatically be upgraded to the VIDEO membership on May 1st. I think the only thing different is that since the photo membership is so discounted, like right now I have it at only $10 (usually $15) and the video membership is $33, that’s a HUGE discount. The people that are upgraded from photo to video, they won’t have the video percent off in my store, they’ll have the photo percent off, which I think is 5-10%, but that’s the only thing that would be different, you get everything else. Instead of only having access to the photosets, you’ll also get access to all of my videos that I’ve made since 2015. That’s 5 years of videos, probably thousands of videos, at least hundreds if not thousands. I have a ridiculous amount of content on my website for yall to see already. So if you’re not a photo member, then you already have access to all of these. Video and up already has access to all of my videos. Everybody, all of my members, will always have access to my live video chats. That’s Monday nights on youtube, which is free for everybody, and the Thursday video calls through freeconferencecall which is members only, so all members have access to that. I may or may not record those, the Thursday ones, I don’t know, it depends on how they go and if you’re interested in me recording them. I might record them sometimes, I might not. I’m trying to be open and accepting and willing to change, because I know that nothing stays the same ever, so I might as well let memberships and my website grow with me. I’m trying to make sure I haven’t left anything out. All members have access to all of my videos starting May 1st. If you’re a photo member and you start TODAY, then you’ll only have photo access until May, and then starting May 1st all members of all levels will have video access. I’m excited! Because then I’ll only have 3 membership levels instead of 4 and that will simplify everything. I’ll have the basics of everything which includes video, which I think is important because it allows me to connect with yall in a deeper way.
Starting with video, then first look and all access get extra content for first look and all access… but since you’re watching this then you’re already a member and you probably already know that. I’m really excited, I think since I’m going in the video direction anyway, why keep a photo tier, why not just start at video? In the future, since I haven’t been creating a lot of photo stuff lately, I might not upload a new photoset every week, starting a couple months from now. I have stuff through at least early to mid June at least, from my archives that I haven’t shared yet. So you’re still going to get new consistent content every week at least until early to mid June. Depending on if I’m inspired to create photos or not, and depending on how things work… I think state parks and stuff are closed already so I don’t have as many opportunities to go to the places I’d want to shoot anyway. I don’t want to just shoot everything at my house, I’ve already shot so much here. I might, instead of doing a photoset every week, I might just do videos every week. I don’t know, we’ll see when we get there. I just wanted to give you a heads up because things are changing and I’m trying to be flexible. I think its important to be flexible and to allow things to shift and change and just go with the flow of where life is taking me. I definitely want to go the video route more, I’ve already started that a little bit, and I’m excited to take you on this journey with me!
I’m so thankful yall are here! I literally would not be able to do this without you. Since all of my gigs have been cancelled because of what’s going on in the world, yall are why I have food on the table and I really appreciate that so much! I love that we enrich each other’s lives, and that means a lot to me. I appreciate you and I love you and please let me know if you have things you want me to discuss or questions that you have or things you’d like to learn from me! I have so much stuff in my brain.
Let’s start by, if you have time, checking out the schedule (click here), seeing if the topics for the live chats are something that you’re interested in, and if Thursday at 6pm works for you. It’s a day that I was consistently available, and I figure a lot of people’s schedules have probably changed a lot anyway. I’m going to go with this for now and it’s something that can change in the future if that’s whats best for everyone. I’m excited, I love you, I’m so glad you’re on this wild adventure with me! Thank you so much! I love you, and I’ll talk to you soon!
Don’t forget, Monday, a couple days from now, me and my mom, holding space! On Youtube, 6pm EST! We’re also going to do it on Thursday so Mommy is going to be my special guest all week next week. Yall will get to meet her and converse with her during our private video chat too! If you watch our livestream on Monday and you’re like “oh, I wanna talk to Bunny and Willow about this thing that they mentioned and didn’t talk a whole lot more about it. I wanna ask questions about that!” Come join us on Thursday because she’s going to join me too! We can talk about it because there’s going to be less people and not a livestream on youtube, it’s gonna be an intimate gathering of just members! I’m so excited! I love you! I’ll talk to you soon. Bye!
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Today is Erica Jay‘s birthday so I thought it would be the perfect time to share my photographs of her with you! We worked together a few years ago when I hosted her while she was coming through NC. The images of her that are now in the gallery are from the first time we met. We worked together again later on when we met up in Nashville, all of the photos I took of her then were for Diplopia. This first image of her below (which was taken in my parents back yard) is blown up large in black and white and is now hanging in their “bar room,” which is a prominent room in the middle of their house. My parents are so freaking awesome, that room has a bunch of my photographs of nude models on the walls. <3 My dad says he has breakfast with them most mornings, haha.
The images of Mikki Marvel were also taken in my parents back yard (it’s really pretty! Can you blame me?) and were taken while being filmed for James McMahen‘s documentary Duality. Mikki is super fun to work with and even though she also is based in Charlotte somehow we’ve only each photographed each other once!
Kelso Deano visited Charlotte on the way home from a family vacation a couple years ago and I photographed her for both Diplopia and for nude double exposure portraits. After our shoot in my old apartment I took her to one of my favorite local places here called Amelie’s, which is a 24/7 french bakery and coffee shop. It looks like it was decorated by the Mad Hatter in a french theme! It’s super cute and all their pastries and food are DELICIOUS.
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