• February Schedule!

    Online events coming up that are FREE/DISCOUNTED for patrons (all in eastern time):
    Queer Creative Coworking is a registration-only event held on Zoom via Eventbrite
    The movie screening is a member-only (including FREE, not-on-patreon members!) event held on Discord video/voice chat (VC)
    Self Portraiture for Ecosexual Embodiment is a 4 part live online course co-facilitated with Lior Allay held on Zoom via Eventbrite
    Click the name of the event for all the info!
    Patrons: see THIS POST for the discount code to get free tickets for coworking, and THIS POST for 40% off the self portrait course!
  • LIVE Online Course: Embodied Self Portraiture

    Leave perfectionism for possibility

    Transform the way you see + experience yourself through the medium of self portraiture.

    ***Members of my patreon get a discount code for 40% off!***

    Shift from performative living to authentic thriving

    Give us 4 months + you’ll fall in love with your unique body.

    Rewrite the stories your body holds, learn the language of encoded memory, + work intentionally to craft a new reality where beauty is defined by what delights YOU.

    Topics include: Inspiration, Somatics, Creativity, Ritual, Set Design, Composition, Storytelling, Gender, Sexuality + SO much more!

    SIGN UP HERE

    Each class comes with…

    • PDF e-book of course material w/ interactive exercises
    • Creative Change Tracker to watch your evolution unfold
    • a take home recording if you can’t be there
    • LIVE Q+A opportunities

    You will need…

    • A device to access the live video feed or recording
    • Something to take notes on
    • A camera (phones count too!)

    SIGN UP HERE 

    • You have trouble connecting with your emotions + want to understand yourself better
    • You want to release perfectionism + express yourself creatively w/ confidence
    • You’re curious about your gender or identity +/ want to know who you are with clarity
    • You want to transform your relationship w/ the camera, release shyness, + BOLDLY embrace your beauty

    SIGN UP HERE

    • You’re under 18 years old
    • You need extensive education about photography – this is not a photo 101 course
    • You need their hand held the entire time – this is not one on one support
    • You are not willing to do the exercises/practices/homework etc.

    1. Feb 8 – personal self-portrait journey, why nudity, technical + safety info
    2. March 8 – creative, posing, composition, storytelling
    3. April 12 – healing, somatics, + ceremony
    4. May 10 – gender + sexuality

    If you come to 3, the 4th is free!

    SIGN UP HERE

    Q: What do I need to bring?

    A: A journal to take notes, comfy layered clothes to adjust your temp, a water bottle, a snack, a private space to explore… anything else that would support you in listening + learning!

    Q: If I’ve never done self portraits can I still come?

    A: Yes! Absolutely, if you’re open to new experiences and willing to learn, we’re happy to have you! This experience is flexible, offering challenges to engage those who already have a confident grasp of photography, while being equally inviting for folks who are just getting started. This is the perfect place for creatives of all levels to co-mingle and learn from each other. We are all both students and teachers, always.

    Q: What if I don’t have a camera?

    A: No problem! If you have a smartphone, you have a camera!

    Q: How do I get the 4th workshop for free?

    A: If you sign up for the first 3 workshops, we’ll send you an email with a discount code for 100% off the 4th one! Make sure to wait to sign up for the 4th one so we can send you the discount code!

    Q: What if I can’t attend the workshops on the designated days/times?

    A: No worries if you can’t be there at the time of the workshop, they will all be recorded and emailed to everyone who signs up whether you attend live or not.

    I WANT TO BE A PART OF THIS! SIGN ME UP!

  • Hang out + play games with me!

    Starting in November, I’m hosting (almost) weekly Burrow Buddies events on Discord!

    Burrow Buddies will be (most) Wednesdays from 6-7pm EST. Burrow Buddies are chill, casual group video/voice chat events where we hang out, talk, play games and watch videos together!

    November Burrow Buddies schedule (so far):

    November 2nd
    November 9th
    November 23rd

    What’s Discord?

    I left social media a year ago and I’ve needed a way to stay in touch with people that was casual, less stress, and more fun. I joined Discord back in 2017 or 2018 but couldn’t really figure it out so I forgot about it until this January when a friend reintroduced me to it.

    If you’ve never been on Discord, it’s kind of like a bunch of organized chat rooms, except way better.

    On Discord you can:

    -DM people privately
    -create group DMs
    -chat in a public or private server
    -share photos, videos, + links
    -create or join voice/video chats
    -stream content like games or movies for your friends
    -create your own server (public or private)
    -use bots to play games, moderate, and improve your overall experience

    There are servers for ALL KINDS of topics. I’m in servers about art, kink, relationships, psychedelics… if there’s a topic you’re into, there’s likely a Discord server for it.

    Join me for FREE on Discord

    Why Discord?

    Discord’s Community Guidelines allow nudity as long as it’s in NSFW channels. That’s a big one for me. Nudes are ALLOWED?! Sign me up!

    I’ve created a FREE Discord server for artists and I’m officially inviting you to join me!

    From my experience, Discord is a much more enjoyable way to stay in touch with people. I prefer it over social media like IG or FB, and it’s better than email or text in my opinion. There’s fun custom emojis and gifs!

    The Burrow Discord server is for:

    -making friends
    -sharing art, resources, memes, + more
    -chatting about art + inspiration
    -getting advice + feedback from other artists
    -uplifting each other
    -NSFW art sharing without censorship
    -random VC (voice/video chat) hangouts + streams

    Join me on Discord!

    How do I sign up?

    Easy! Click here to join the server I’ve created for us! It’s FREE!

    All the rest of the info you’ll need is in the Welcome section of the server.

    🔞 THE BURROW IS FOR PEOPLE 18 AND OLDER 🔞

  • How to be a Nude Figure Model

    Figure Modeling 101

    Virtual Live Training on Zoom

    We will cover:

    • practical considerations
    • important safety information
    • how to prepare for a figure modeling session
    • how to pose
    • interaction with artists
    • how to find figure drawing groups/classes
    • how to book figure drawing gigs

    Tickets are sliding scale $5 – $44

    I will likely be doing another round of this live training at some point in the future, but it won’t be this low of a price again!

    Recording and slideshow will be sent to everyone who registers, so you don’t even have to be there live!

    REGISTER FOR FIGURE MODELING 101 HERE

  • Why I Don’t Model Much Anymore

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    Hi, friends! Today I am excited to talk about why I don’t really model much anymore. 

    I have not officially retired, but I am super extra incredibly picky about who I will pose for and honestly, it’s not very many people. So I don’t really model much anymore for a few reasons, but some of them are… I feel like I have kind of… 

    Posing for other people has kind of run its course for me. I used to super enjoy it, it was a really fun adventure. I really liked meeting new people and helping them create art in whatever way that they were excited to create and posing for them. But now, it doesn’t feel as exciting for me anymore to make art for other people. I’m much more interested in making art for myself, which is why I prefer self-portraiture. 

    Another reason is, I’ve had my gender realization and I’m agender. I’m like, I’m a trans person. I’m non-binary, agender. I’m not a woman, and I feel like most photographers that want to hire me see me as a woman and are not really capable or willing to see the full spectrum of who I am. And kind of want to push a feminine idea and feminine imagery on me, which I’m no longer willing to participate in. It was okay before, I was never really comfortable with it, and then, when I had my gender understanding it became a lot more clear that, yeah, I’m just really not willing to feminize myself for other people’s art.

    So that’s probably one of the main reasons why I basically only model for women and trans people now because I feel like they see me more as who I am instead of who they want me to be. It’s not that there are men who can’t like… there are men who can see me as me, but I feel like the majority of them are just kind of guys with cameras who just want to take photos of a naked woman and that’s not me. I am naked but I’m not a woman. Posing for other people is not as exciting and fun for me as it used to be. And that’s the primary reason why I don’t really model much anymore. I’d rather take self portraits. 

    If you would like an opportunity to take self-portraits with me, we… me and Lior Allay and Roarie Yum are hosting Conscious Creativity in Ypsilanti Michigan, in person on a permaculture farm. I’m so excited, August 27th and 28th. It’s a two-day workshop. I have a lot of information about it in other vlogs and on the Eventbrite that I’ll link below. But if you are curious about self portraiture, and if you would like to take self portraits and have all of my tips and tricks for those, and also the opportunity to take self portraits in a group with me and Lior and Roarie, join us! Buy a ticket, come to Ypsilanti and pose with us, take self portraits with us! I’m very excited. I’ll put all the information below, but I don’t want to ramble on about Conscious Creativity because I have more information about that in other places, but if you’d like to join us, I’ll link it below.

    More info about Conscious Creativity

    I hope you enjoyed this video. And if you’re a cis male photographer who would like to hire me as a model, I hope this helps you understand why I probably said no. Not that I have anything against cis males, like cis men, but I just feel like women and trans people can see me as who I am. And yeah, it just feels more fulfilling to create art with people who can understand me, than people who want to like, push something onto me. I love you so much and I will talk to you soon! Bye!

    Join me, Lior, and Roarie for Conscious Creativity on August 27 + 28! All the details are here 💖


  • How Self Portraiture Connects Me to Myself

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    Hi friends! Welcome to another week of me making a vlog. Today I want to talk about how self-portraiture connects me to myself.

    I first started taking self-portraits in…. I actually don’t know what year because it’s been a very long time. I started seriously taking self-portraits, like for specific art purposes in maybe 2010? but I was definitely taking self-portraits way before that, maybe since I was like 14 or 15, but I didn’t start taking nude ones until I was 18 and older for obvious reasons. 

    I learned quickly that self-portraiture helps me feel more into my body and feel more connected to my emotions and myself, and part of that is because I feel like I’m more able to release all of everything else like societal bullshit and just be myself when I’m in front of a camera and it’s just me that’s taking the photos.

    It’s very different when I’m posing for someone else taking photos, because I feel more like, “oh, I need to take pictures that they will be happy with” but when it’s self portraits, I can do whatever I want because it’s me taking the photos. So it’s whatever I’m feeling and if I like them, I can share them. But if I don’t have to, and there’s no pressure of like, “oh I have this expectation from someone else”.

    So because I don’t have the limitations of someone else’s ideas of what they would like in these photos, I’m able to really connect with “Okay, how am I feeling today, in this moment? And how would I like to portray that in these images?” And sometimes I just take photos, and I never share them. And it’s just so that I can get emotions out, because sometimes I feel like it’s hard for me to just, like, sit in my emotions if I don’t have something that I’m doing to allow me to move through them, if that makes sense.

    I think it’s kind of hard to just be like, “Oh, I’m having feelings and this is it. Like I’m just experiencing them in my body” because I kind of tend to want to like do something else instead and push away the emotions but when I have the container of a photoshoot with myself, then I’m able to really like focus and be like, “okay, the whole purpose of this moment is for me to connect with myself and my emotions and my body, and how I’m feeling and move through those emotions in a way that allows me to express them in my body and that shows in the images”. And for me, usually the most powerful images that I’ve taken have been self-portraits where I’ve allowed myself to FEEL. 

    So yeah, that’s the cliff notes of how self-portraiture connects me to myself. I’m also able to kind of experiment with who I am and who I want to be, and if I want to pretend to be someone else, and express different parts of myself, because I feel like there aren’t a lot of chances for us to explore different facets of our personalities and our thoughts and desires. There’s not a lot of context for that most times, but if I’m taking self-portraits, it can be whatever I want it to be and I can be an evil villain or I can be an innocent child, or I can be totally myself or someone else. I can be anything and it doesn’t really matter because they’re photos that I’m taking for myself. So I feel way less pressure to create something specific and I can just, I can be all of those selves in one photo shoot if I want and I think that’s very special.

    So I hope you are inspired to take self portraits. I would love for you to do that. I would love to see what you create! I have a Discord server, I’ll link below, but if you’d like to take self-portraits and share them with people that appreciate art and nudity and self-portraiture, you can share them on my Discord, it’s free! You can join for free. Just come on and join us! Yeah, I’d love to see what you create.

    Share your self portraits! Click here to join us on Discord!

    If you would like to create self portraits in a group setting, where you are off doing your own thing, but then you can come back and communicate and collaborate with others or do a group self-portrait. We will be doing Conscious Creativity, August 27th and 28th in Ypsilanti, Michigan with Lior Allay and Roarie Yum. I’m so excited! This is gonna be our first in-person workshop since the pandemic started, so that’s quite an opportunity. I would love for you to join us if you’re able. I’ll share the Eventbrite information below. It has all the details of all the information you’ll need to know. But if there’s anything that you’re wondering about and the information is not the Eventbrite, just shoot me an email or comment below and I will do my best to get back to you and give you the information that you need. Yeah. I’m going to link the Eventbrite below. I’d love for you to join us. 

    All the information about Conscious Creativity is at this link!

    Let’s take self portraits together! August 27th and 28th, it’s 2days, they’re both half days. And yeah, I’m super stoked for this event. I’m very excited! So, if you’d like to join us, information’s below and I will talk to you soon. I love you! Bye!

    Create self portraits with me at Conscious Creativity!


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  • How coworking holds me accountable

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    Hi friends! Today I wanted to talk about coworking. If you don’t know what coworking is, some people call it body doubling, but it’s basically where you and one or more other people hang out, either virtually or in person to do your own individual work. Like you don’t even have to be doing the same thing. You don’t even have to be talking to each other, you’re just like in the same space doing your own thing at the same time. It sounds really simple, but it has changed my life.

    In January I started hosting coworking sessions and usually they’re between like an hour and a half to two hours long. And I’ve been doing it on an almost weekly basis since January, and I have gotten so much more done during coworking than I would have if I was just doing my own work whenever I’m doing it by myself, it’s kind of ridiculous. 

    I really struggle with motivation, especially to do tasks on a computer. I really don’t enjoy doing a bunch of the administrative stuff that is required on the computer. So since I don’t really enjoy it, I don’t really like set aside a lot of time to do it, and I avoid it and I just like procrastinate on it and it kind of just doesn’t really get done much… but since I’ve been doing coworking, I have like an hour and a half to two hours every week, dedicated to doing stuff on the computer with my friends. I’ve gotten so much done. It’s so much better than doing it by myself. So much better. Yeah. I’ve literally gotten way more done this year than I would have if I was just trying to do it on my own and it’s like, I don’t even always tell my friends what I’m even working on. I’m just like, hey, yeah, let’s get to work. Okay Let’s go and I do it.

    And coworking holds me accountable, like, oh my gosh, coworking holds me accountable better than anything else in terms of like work stuff. So it holds me accountable because it is a scheduled time to do work that’s on a recurring basis. That has helped me so much. So I know like, every Wednesday morning, I’m going to get on Zoom and hang out with my friends, and we’re going to get some work done, and it’s gonna be great. 

    The energy is different, like people join me during these co-working sessions because it’s kind of the point is, you’re not doing it by yourself. So people join me and the energy is different than if I was doing it on my own. It like even if I don’t feel motivated, just knowing that other people are counting on me to be there helps me at least show up and get started. And then once I get started, it’s so much easier to continue. Like, I think the getting started part is the hardest part is like, “oh God, there’s this thing I have to do. There’s all these things I have to do to get ready to do the thing. I don’t want to do it at all.”

    But then if it’s like, okay, today’s Wednesday and it’s coworking day so I’m going to like write down a list of all the things that I’d like to get done and I’m just going to start working on them one by one. And see how much I can do. Oh my gosh, I get so much more done. Sometimes I do more than what’s even on my list and I’m just like, how, how did I just get all the stuff done? If I was trying to do this by myself, I would have only gotten like two things done this whole week, but I just got like five things done in an hour and a half. I don’t know.

    There’s some magic with coworking and there’s probably some like science to it. But I just know that I get like a fuck ton more done when I cowork, than if I’m just trying to do something by myself. It just helps having friendly faces on a computer screen. Even if you’re not even talking to each other, even if you don’t even know what each other’s doing. It’s just like I’m here working on my stuff and my friends are here working on their stuff and just knowing that we’re working on our own stuff in the same time, in the same place, whether that’s virtually or in person. Like I just, there’s so much more motivation for me to actually do the thing because my friends are doing the thing. Why don’t I go ahead and do my thing because I know I need to get it done. Coworking is the best!

    Okay, so I hope that gives you some information about coworking, if you didn’t know what it was before and why I like it so much. If you would like to join me for coworking at some point Wednesdays at 10 a.m. Eastern time. That’s when I do co-working. It’s almost every Wednesday. It’s not every single one because sometimes I have like a tattoo appointment or something, but it’s most Wednesdays at 10 a.m. Eastern. If you’d like to join, I’ll put a link to the Eventbrite below and you can sign up to join me at some point if you want.

     

    Join us for coworking! Register here

    I also sometimes I’m doing them on Tuesdays for my Beyonders, like people that are members of this website and also on my Discord Channel because on Discord. I think I posted about last week. On Discord, you can do events on Discord like video events. So sometimes I’ll just do coworking on Discord too, that’s usually on Tuesday afternoons at 1pm eastern. That’s not every week, just sometimes. But yeah, if I can do coworking at least one day a week, then I can actually get some shit done. And if you’d like to join me. Link is below.

     

    Join us for coworking! Register here

     

    I’m also going to put a link to a survey if there’s any like, certain topic. You’d like to hear from me about, you can let me know in that survey. Yeah I hope you join me at coworking sometime, we get some stuff done, it’s real chill. Yeah and there’s a lot of queer energy because me and my friends are queer. So if you need some queer energy in your life, whether or not we’re even gonna be talking, we’re just hanging out doing our thing. Yeah come join us! Have a great day and I’ll see you soon!

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